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[mattsnum1bbgirl]

So Friday Erica came over, Jessica showed her * her truck & then she came downstairs to see my bunnies, we sat n talked for a few then we grabbed some t.v dinners & came upstairs & ate. Then Erica left for work. Megan called & came over, she took the bus up to the mall & Matt & I picked her up from there. I was supposed to babysit 5:30-7:30 but Nicole called n said she didn't need me after all, so we got some gas & picked up this kid Andy & wen't to mr. pita. came back here & tried to figure out something to do. We ended up going over Carrie's to see the baby for a little bit. He was so happy & smily & giggley lol it was adorable. Then we came back here again, thinking of something to do.we decided that we were going to go see a movie & then play pool. I told Erica to call me when she got off of work, so Megan & I ran back up to the mr. pita to ask her if she wanted to come with. Well she didn't want to see four brothers, but she called & asked Chris if he'd want to & he said no & she wasn't sure if she wanted to play pool so I told her I'd call her after our movie got out. So we saw the 7:25 show omg it was the best movie ever! :( I almost cried I swear when the one guy died. So then we get out n we're walking to my car & I called Erica, she kept saying no she didnt want to go but Megan & I kept bugging her n I told her I was coming to her house n she was gonna follow me lol n Chris wanted to go so he was buggin her too n made her come. So we went to her house, she followed us to Brandons but he was busy so we went to the pool hall on 15 & GB. That was fun, Matt gave me $5.00 n I pigged out from the vending machines cause I'd done my shot & not eatin like a jackass. anyways that was my Friday night. it was awesome. On our way home we stopped at Mcdonalds n then Dropped Andy at home. Came back here, megan spent the night. We watched Degrassi old school for a while then Megan came upstairs & slept in Jessica's room since she wasn't here that night. We woke up & made some pizza, ate n then I took Megan home. We sat there for a little bit, she showed me her costume for halloween & we talked. Matt waited in the car cause he didnt want to come in. Anywas then we came home n sat around until I had to babysit at 7:00. got home around 1ish cause we watched their hellen keller movie. When I got home my mom told me that justin had hit my sister again. ooh shit I'm pissed. So today we're going over there & beating his ass. I'm getting in his face & telling him off, & mom's gonna walk up to him & hit him bcz she told him next time she was beating his ass. He's goin down. fucking asshole's gonna get it. He dont even know what's comin to him. errrrgh I dont care wtf carrie says either. I'm not biting my tounge this time. fuck it. Besides that mom & Matt & I are all going to work out today. n that's about it.

I wrote a new poem..

She's walking around with that same old look,
that blank stare, just barely there
always in deep thought of that same old crook
but no one knows, her secrets untold
silent scars hiding, she's so strong and bold
searching for a friend, just one friend to care
anyone would be nice, but not a soul is there
someone whom she could share her secrets
maybe to finally trust & temporarily forget
wipe away the tears & feel relief from the pain
if someone would just make her laugh once again
a girl says hi & smiles her way
maybe not a friend but it made her day
a reason to smile & keep her head high
before she goes home to disaster, the reason she's so shy
years of distruction, lonliness & sorrow
not a soul to help this poor girl until tomorrow
finally seen & the old man is caught
she finds relief in the help for so long she has sought
taken from home, away from the scars
from everything she's known, taken into caring arms

wrote that before megan left. I posted it in here but it's in my AIM pf too.

I'm out.