heart of hearts

[mattsharp]

my chest is open on a table
please don’t take a part
of my heart
unless you intend to give it all back
because my heart was made
to be filled by the Lord.
my heart was made to love Him
with all that is within it.
it’s like a surgery
turned catastrophe.
and i have no one left anymore.
don’t break my heart.
i need it to breathe
i need it to live
i need it to love.
my heart was once made of rock
but now it rests upon a rock.
i love You Lord.
with all that I can be capable of loving
with my bypass surgery
from Your blood to mine.
i’m sorry for failing
i fail all the time
i put shame to Your Name
i have none like You Father.
everyone else left.
they scarred me.
they bruised me.
what am i talking about.
i nailed You to a cross after all of the above.
Your heart was pierced and bled.
it bled for me.
it bled for me.
i made it bleed
it bled for me.