internal struggle
wow, suddenly sometimes you feel so lost,
like you are really alone. it's hard to keep your eyes on Jesus,
when your own selfishness is pulling them back down upon yourself.
then i look at myself,
and feel worse. without my eyes on Jesus, i'm looking at the eli that isn't covered up with the Blood of the Lamb. the piece of junk that i am.
the piece of junk that just screws up. the piece of junk that isn't physically appealing.
i am so inadequate, and it's times like these that sometimes get to me.
when my family is always on my case and my friends are so far away.
i'm so weak, even through Jesus my inadequacies make me weak.
i think about what i've done. the mistakes i've made.
i deserve to feel terrible, because i am terrible,
but the Lord came to redeem me. i have to rejoice in the Lord.
He makes up for how crappy i am, and He makes intercession for me.
so i can stand in front of the Father, clean, white as snow.
don't let your old self bring you down. i am forgiven, and Lord how i need you always.
like you are really alone. it's hard to keep your eyes on Jesus,
when your own selfishness is pulling them back down upon yourself.
then i look at myself,
and feel worse. without my eyes on Jesus, i'm looking at the eli that isn't covered up with the Blood of the Lamb. the piece of junk that i am.
the piece of junk that just screws up. the piece of junk that isn't physically appealing.
i am so inadequate, and it's times like these that sometimes get to me.
when my family is always on my case and my friends are so far away.
i'm so weak, even through Jesus my inadequacies make me weak.
i think about what i've done. the mistakes i've made.
i deserve to feel terrible, because i am terrible,
but the Lord came to redeem me. i have to rejoice in the Lord.
He makes up for how crappy i am, and He makes intercession for me.
so i can stand in front of the Father, clean, white as snow.
don't let your old self bring you down. i am forgiven, and Lord how i need you always.