my heart
as i sit here, reflective, i come to realise that i am uncontent. i do not love the person i see in the mirror, i do not love the flaws in my heart. i sit here and think, how can God love me when He truly knows who i am? how? its unfathomable. He is just so perfect, and i am just so... not perfect. ive changed lately, and not for the better. i cant completely go into it without saying things that i should not. but what i can say is this, i need more God. i was at a christian ball, and i was sitting next to a girl i had just met. i am confident she wasnt a christian. but i saw her looking at everyone, and i saw her eyes water. she was about to cry. i asked her what was on her mind. you know what she said? "theres so much love in this room." i want my heart to be like that room. there was so much more than love there, and i want my heart to be just like it. to be just like Jesus' heart. i want to
i want to love justice more, and hate injustice more
i want to love people more, and hate sin more
i want to be patient more, and be rude to people (more specifically my family) less
i want to pursue righteousness to the best of my ability
i want to be quicker to serve, and slower to anger
i want to help those who cannot help themselves
my heart is heavy. these are things that weigh on me. i allow them to weigh on me. because i REFUSE to let that weight be lifted until i have achieved these things. i REFUSE to allow myself to be comfortable with who i am slowly becoming. i REFUSE to allow myself to become anything besides someone who is just, loving, patient, righteous, a humble servant, and a true follower of Christ.
i will become these things, even if it takes me a life time. i know that Jesus gives me the ability to achieve this. to become like Him.
ill be more like you one day Jesus, i promise.
i want to love justice more, and hate injustice more
i want to love people more, and hate sin more
i want to be patient more, and be rude to people (more specifically my family) less
i want to pursue righteousness to the best of my ability
i want to be quicker to serve, and slower to anger
i want to help those who cannot help themselves
my heart is heavy. these are things that weigh on me. i allow them to weigh on me. because i REFUSE to let that weight be lifted until i have achieved these things. i REFUSE to allow myself to be comfortable with who i am slowly becoming. i REFUSE to allow myself to become anything besides someone who is just, loving, patient, righteous, a humble servant, and a true follower of Christ.
i will become these things, even if it takes me a life time. i know that Jesus gives me the ability to achieve this. to become like Him.
ill be more like you one day Jesus, i promise.