we live in a wheel where everyone steals, but when we rise it's like strawberry fields

[mattness138]

hey, i shouldn''t be writing about this but i'm doing it anyway. So if you're not interested then just stop reading. nvm, i really shouldn't be writing about this. Thing is that i have feelings for somebody again and kate can't deal with it and we got into a big fight tonight. I'm really pissed. But i've learned from my past mistakes and i won't hurt another person b/c of her again. And i'm still so sorry for what i've done to Megan. I'm not asking for forgiveness b/c i'm not able to forgive myself, i just want to apologize again.
I'm doing all i can.

I'm doing my best not to hurt her and all i get is being treated like shit.

I throw myslef on the puddle so she can keep her shoes clean. I guess i'm just asking for being stomped in the face.