just posted, time to post again
ironically, i used "full" for my emotion last post and i'm sitting here hungrily awaiting the arrival of my delicious chinese food.
so yes, this post is to mark for myself a milestone in my relationship with amara. last night was a very huge and important night for us both. there is something about this relationship that i have never experienced with another person before, something really pure and timeless. the connection was apparent between us, and it is a STRONG connection, but i don't know that i realized just how strong at first. for the past few days, i had been struggling with a truth. the struggle wasn't a very serious one, and it was about whether or not i felt i should disclose this truth to amara. i decided to keep it to myself as to not pressure her and perhaps also to save myself embarrassment. ...last night, the time was right and i told her, and instead of her being surprised, instead of her feeling awkward or pressured, instead of anything that could have possibly been bad ... she was perfect. perfect, why? because she had felt the same way and been going through the same struggle. and now, instead of creating pressure, by being open and honest and truthful, any pressure that was there has been released. and once again, thanks to this relationship, i'm more free than i was yesterday. it might sound crazy to all of you who may be reading this, but instead of being skeptical, i ask you to just be happy for me. and i am happy, extremely happy. as my good friend jason said "no, seriously, i didn't know they made girls like this."
...even though you might never read this ... i love you hon!
-Matt
so yes, this post is to mark for myself a milestone in my relationship with amara. last night was a very huge and important night for us both. there is something about this relationship that i have never experienced with another person before, something really pure and timeless. the connection was apparent between us, and it is a STRONG connection, but i don't know that i realized just how strong at first. for the past few days, i had been struggling with a truth. the struggle wasn't a very serious one, and it was about whether or not i felt i should disclose this truth to amara. i decided to keep it to myself as to not pressure her and perhaps also to save myself embarrassment. ...last night, the time was right and i told her, and instead of her being surprised, instead of her feeling awkward or pressured, instead of anything that could have possibly been bad ... she was perfect. perfect, why? because she had felt the same way and been going through the same struggle. and now, instead of creating pressure, by being open and honest and truthful, any pressure that was there has been released. and once again, thanks to this relationship, i'm more free than i was yesterday. it might sound crazy to all of you who may be reading this, but instead of being skeptical, i ask you to just be happy for me. and i am happy, extremely happy. as my good friend jason said "no, seriously, i didn't know they made girls like this."
...even though you might never read this ... i love you hon!
-Matt