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I'm not happy like I used to be.
I was so happy at this school, now the stress overshadows any feelings of happiness, just anger, jealousy, and sadness. I love the friends i have, I do, so much but right now, I'd like to leave, get away. Do something. Right now I could use a hug from my mom. I could use a hug from Scott or Dani, someone that isn't here.
I don't know what to feel, I feel like a sleepless, drugged up zombie all the time. Constantly feeling like shit about my work, or who I have feelings for at the moment, or drunken experiences that never should have happened. I'm just sick of the life now and I need a change. I need to clean up my fucking act and stop being such a stupid fuck. I've lost myself.
I've lost myself and that's one of the worst feelings in the world.
Help Me.
I was so happy at this school, now the stress overshadows any feelings of happiness, just anger, jealousy, and sadness. I love the friends i have, I do, so much but right now, I'd like to leave, get away. Do something. Right now I could use a hug from my mom. I could use a hug from Scott or Dani, someone that isn't here.
I don't know what to feel, I feel like a sleepless, drugged up zombie all the time. Constantly feeling like shit about my work, or who I have feelings for at the moment, or drunken experiences that never should have happened. I'm just sick of the life now and I need a change. I need to clean up my fucking act and stop being such a stupid fuck. I've lost myself.
I've lost myself and that's one of the worst feelings in the world.
Help Me.