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[mattisevil_1]

all the sudden, ive found myself wanting very badly to move away from this drama filled K-hole that is home. 3 weeks after losing a big chunk of my heart over someone who obviously didnt care very much to begin with i find that im the topic of several discussions among a sordid group of coniving bit.. friends. as if the pain of having ones heart torn out and cement poured in the vacant spot wasnt enough now my name and image, lackluster and soiled as they already are, are being bandied about like im a disturbed or crazy person. i want to crawl into a small hole and declare it off limits to anyone unless they pass a rigorous testing procedure. full background checks and all. if you've ever even heard of me, i dont want to have you around. that kind of off limits. and here i am posting this for all on the friends list to see. but there again, is the bright spot that is this shit sandwich... all my friends on here dont live in this pitiful little state and could probably care less about it and my little goings-on.

oh well
hopefully the fits dont return and the sleep still remains moderately fulfilling.

stay metal for all you are fucking worth