my lips are bleeding from kissing you goodbye every night.
spending another friday night alone. i'm used to it now.
i hope things start looking up when i get my own car and a job.
i'm not enrolled in classes for this semester and i'm pretty bummed about it. because i'm not a full-time student i'm dropped from my dad's insurance, which means more bills for me. i already can't afford my $200 phone bill this month!
.. and today it hit me... i think i just fall back into routine with tray all the time because i'm so bored. it's like i don't waste the time to meet new guys and start all over. and i know he still wants me so it's kind of like "well, he's there." i feel really dumb for doing it. but then again i feel like i would rather be with him than alone, even if it is for the wrong reasons. i sound dumb and dependant.
we aren't back together, but we are at the "just friends" stage in our routine which will quickly turn to the "just friends.. hooking up.." stage, which ends up at the "together" stage.. that is, if something doesn't change.
i know should be strong enough to make that change, but i don't know if i am right now.
the book skinny bitch has really opened my eyes. as of today i am totally vegan, and plan on being vegan for a while. i wish i could be totally organic, but i can't afford that right now so i'm trying to get as close as i can to it.
even if you have no interest in being vegetarian or vegan, you should really read this book. it's not even about veganism. it's more of the straight up honest truth about what exactly you are putting into your mouth. it's a little bit off the chain.
i hope things start looking up when i get my own car and a job.
i'm not enrolled in classes for this semester and i'm pretty bummed about it. because i'm not a full-time student i'm dropped from my dad's insurance, which means more bills for me. i already can't afford my $200 phone bill this month!
.. and today it hit me... i think i just fall back into routine with tray all the time because i'm so bored. it's like i don't waste the time to meet new guys and start all over. and i know he still wants me so it's kind of like "well, he's there." i feel really dumb for doing it. but then again i feel like i would rather be with him than alone, even if it is for the wrong reasons. i sound dumb and dependant.
we aren't back together, but we are at the "just friends" stage in our routine which will quickly turn to the "just friends.. hooking up.." stage, which ends up at the "together" stage.. that is, if something doesn't change.
i know should be strong enough to make that change, but i don't know if i am right now.
the book skinny bitch has really opened my eyes. as of today i am totally vegan, and plan on being vegan for a while. i wish i could be totally organic, but i can't afford that right now so i'm trying to get as close as i can to it.
even if you have no interest in being vegetarian or vegan, you should really read this book. it's not even about veganism. it's more of the straight up honest truth about what exactly you are putting into your mouth. it's a little bit off the chain.