and so it is

[mattie1224]

Today I am feeling thankful. Thankful for everything that has happened to me in my life, good or bad, and thankful for everyone in it. For some reason, perhaps a lack of sleep, I feel as though my life is in fact blessed, and in so worth while. You may be asking yourselves, of course life is worthwhile, why wouldnt it be? However, after careful examination upon who I am and what I represent, and what it took me to get to the point where I am in this life, I can honestly say that I believe I turned out rather well. And if I did in fact turn out to be a good soul, it is solely due to those around me and the relationships I have created and cultivated. And it is for this reason that I am truly thankful for both my life, and for those who have given it to me. Having said this, there are parts of my life that have not gone according to plan, aka the bad parts, that are still available for mending, and I hope that in betwixt my crazy stay here in sweltering Buffalo, I am able to begin the journey towards reconciliation of these faults of mine, and in doing so make me an even better person than I started. Ergo, in the words of some great Christian, I am taking up my cross and attempting to make right of all previous wrongs. Sounds perhaps like the 9th step in an alcoholics program, I assure you that it is certainly not the case, but rather an experience that has overcome me after searching myself fully for meaning and balance in my life. I have been recently studying the Tao and the way thereof, and I am finding much information in that area regarding balance by way of yin and yang, and I am therefore attempting to increase this balance so that I may better my inner aura. Please don't be frightened by any of this, it is rather interesting stuff, and useful in trying to live in a balanced and peaceful life. So I'm trying this on and seeing how it fits, should be quite and interesting journey into the possible meaning of life. And so I leave you with this quote, reflect on it if you will:

"A tree that reaches past your embrace grows from a small seed, A structure over nine stories high begins with a handful of earth, a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step."