Reflections

[matthiasdeultek]

Alright, so I'm moving out of the trailer and into the tents tomorrow, which means I'm that much closer to getting my ass out of this godforsaken country and going home. Anyway, while I packing crap up and organizing everything I came across some old pictures and letters that I thought I had gotten rid of, and instead of dumping them right in the trash I sat down to read the letters. BIG MISTAKE!!!! When you think a wound has scabbed over and turned to scar tissue its not a good idea to reopen that wound cause it fucking hurts. You think you're over something, you have yourself convinced that she can't hurt you anymore and then you realize that she can and she always will, regardless of whether she says anything to you or not. What hurts the most is that every sign was there and I refused to see it, everything she told me was a lie and I refused to believe it. I've got to find something else to occupy my time or I'm going to crash and burn again like I did in January, that ain't gonna happen not when I'm this close to going home.

Day is done
Gone the sun
From the earth,
From the sea,
From the sky
Rest in peace, soldier brave
God is nigh