WTF?
Last night I woke up in a panic. I was sure I had gone to bed with someone whom I loved only to find myself alone in the bed. It really startled me. I actually sat up and looked around the room before I remembered that no one was supposed to be there. It was so vivid! I could remember their touch and their weight in the bed. What woke me was that I was stretched out across the bed and it hit me, "they're not here!" My evil Ex Lance used to do that to me. He would disappear at night as I slept. I would wake up to find the bed empty. I always felt such rejection and abandonment. I use to feel that it was my fault he would leave. I was only years later that I realized Lance did the same thing to his previous partner. I was only the excuse, not the cause.
I'm guessing that a lot of this shit is coming up due to all the energy happening at this time of year--the holidays, the new year, the winter solstice--lots of changes, emotions, drama at this time of year.
It just hit me. This particular issue came up because one of my internet communities that has been together for close to four or five years has fallen apart. Discontent has been simmering for quite sometime, only to have the 'village idiot' light the fuse. lol. Sorry, I am not one for labeling or calling names, but someone referred to this person as the village idiot and it really seemed appropriate. His actions betray him.
Hey here's a novel thought, perhaps I won't have sex today. ROTFLMAO, who am I kidding.
"I'm just a girl who can't say no, I'm in a terrible stew, with or without the mistletoe I'm in a holiday mood!"
I'm guessing that a lot of this shit is coming up due to all the energy happening at this time of year--the holidays, the new year, the winter solstice--lots of changes, emotions, drama at this time of year.
It just hit me. This particular issue came up because one of my internet communities that has been together for close to four or five years has fallen apart. Discontent has been simmering for quite sometime, only to have the 'village idiot' light the fuse. lol. Sorry, I am not one for labeling or calling names, but someone referred to this person as the village idiot and it really seemed appropriate. His actions betray him.
Hey here's a novel thought, perhaps I won't have sex today. ROTFLMAO, who am I kidding.
"I'm just a girl who can't say no, I'm in a terrible stew, with or without the mistletoe I'm in a holiday mood!"