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Studying is draining, painful, and somewhat of an annoyance to me. I always thought that I wasn't cut out for college, but then I just realised one day when I was watching Spongebob that I'm just lazy. Not committed. Uninspired, perhaps? You get the picture. But now that I've lost my free money, (also known as fafsa or financial aid), I'm now being helped out by my grandparents. I guess if I won't do my best at college for myself, I'll have to do it for my grandparents.
So now I'm taking Philosophy, Ethics, English comp I and II, and Basketball. So far I've got all A's. Mainly because we havent turned anything in yet. I hope that this semester goes better than my last one. I can only try my best to see my actual true intelligence. Honestly, I don't really know what it is. I have given myself an honest shot at getting good grades because of my lack of effort, and my "willed ignorance", (a term i just learned in ethics and philosophy).
Basically this time I want to give myself a fair shot at succeding and not just bail out when it gets tough. I'm tired of not rising to the potential that I think I have. It's about time that I forget about everything else in my life and try to make something of myself, rather than become another nobody scraping their way through life.
Besides this little resolution that I have, I haven't done much. Pavel and Mike are in jail and I still havent been able to contact Mike. I've written Pavel a letter. He wants to know everything about anything. He's so bored, and needs to be uplifted with some nice reading every once in a while. Its getting rough for their families, and its true that Mike and Pavel aren't the only people doing time. Basically, things haven't been the same since they've left. I've hung out with a few people here and there but it feels like something is missing.
On a more uplifting note: I'm hanging out with my cousins ALbert and Michael more. I haven't in the recent past. It feels good to know that Albert is happy, and Mike is doing so good. It really does mean a lot to me to have family that loves me for who I am. Mike seems to be a very busy guy and I hardly ever catch him when I visit.
I can't until June to go on a cruise with my cousins. Thats going to be killer. It'll probably one of the last clayton-meredith-van loon outings though. I always enjoy hanging out with my cousin Pauly. Me and him are so alike. One thing we have in common is that we love to pick on my cousin Jimmy. But Jimmy is getting bigger now, so that is becoming less and less of a viable option for fun.
Of course if I go on this trip, I won't take summer classes. Which would probably mean I'll take the job that Eric offered me and make some money, for once. I've also been talking to my dad more. Its weird talking with him. We're so different, but at the same time we possess a ton of the same qualities (if you want to call it that)...
Too much thinking. I gotta sleep and get tommorow done with. Then I can go back to being lazy until Saturday. Goodnight.
So now I'm taking Philosophy, Ethics, English comp I and II, and Basketball. So far I've got all A's. Mainly because we havent turned anything in yet. I hope that this semester goes better than my last one. I can only try my best to see my actual true intelligence. Honestly, I don't really know what it is. I have given myself an honest shot at getting good grades because of my lack of effort, and my "willed ignorance", (a term i just learned in ethics and philosophy).
Basically this time I want to give myself a fair shot at succeding and not just bail out when it gets tough. I'm tired of not rising to the potential that I think I have. It's about time that I forget about everything else in my life and try to make something of myself, rather than become another nobody scraping their way through life.
Besides this little resolution that I have, I haven't done much. Pavel and Mike are in jail and I still havent been able to contact Mike. I've written Pavel a letter. He wants to know everything about anything. He's so bored, and needs to be uplifted with some nice reading every once in a while. Its getting rough for their families, and its true that Mike and Pavel aren't the only people doing time. Basically, things haven't been the same since they've left. I've hung out with a few people here and there but it feels like something is missing.
On a more uplifting note: I'm hanging out with my cousins ALbert and Michael more. I haven't in the recent past. It feels good to know that Albert is happy, and Mike is doing so good. It really does mean a lot to me to have family that loves me for who I am. Mike seems to be a very busy guy and I hardly ever catch him when I visit.
I can't until June to go on a cruise with my cousins. Thats going to be killer. It'll probably one of the last clayton-meredith-van loon outings though. I always enjoy hanging out with my cousin Pauly. Me and him are so alike. One thing we have in common is that we love to pick on my cousin Jimmy. But Jimmy is getting bigger now, so that is becoming less and less of a viable option for fun.
Of course if I go on this trip, I won't take summer classes. Which would probably mean I'll take the job that Eric offered me and make some money, for once. I've also been talking to my dad more. Its weird talking with him. We're so different, but at the same time we possess a ton of the same qualities (if you want to call it that)...
Too much thinking. I gotta sleep and get tommorow done with. Then I can go back to being lazy until Saturday. Goodnight.