Does anyone still do this?
i forgot all about live journal. I wonder if anyone will read this cuz it seems like none of the people on my friends list have logged in, in years. Oh well, either way i guess i should write something about how i feel. I was thinkging alot about things last night and it occured to me that what i think i want and what i want are not even close to being the same thing. I thought there was this girl who i would be more then content with, but after seriously thinking about it, i dont know what at all i saw in her. She's shallow, naive, not thought provocted, not really interested in anything , she lacks wisdom, she really doesnt bring anything to the table, but for some reason i was infatuated with her for reason i do not know. Maybe it was just the way she looked at me, and i fell for that thinking if i could see that smile everyday i would be happy. i've learned there is more to being happy then that. i need someone who i can trust, rely on, relate too, someone who will challenge me and has original ideas. it seems like of all the girls i've been through, they are all really the same, with maybe 1 exception, with which i ruined that. I know there has to be someone out there who feels the same way. man this is a gay rant. I'ma go eat some leftovers