thrown away
i feel like i've been thrown away
all my chances used up.
funny how life is.
someone falls in love with you, and you're not sure, and you let them know you're not sure.
then time progresses and you get to know them, and you wake up one day and realize you're in love.
then you idle on, not taking the proper steps, and a crisis arises. you have to leave town for a month.
she thinks you've been playing her all this time. that you don't really care. its really just that you never really told her that you did.
she realizes she's not happy with her life. she realizes she needs time to be alone.
she gives up on you.
and you're alone.
then later she tells you
you should be with someone who better suits your personality. someone who can make you happy.
she did make me happy.
every moment spent with her i was happy.
she may say differently, but i think she loved me.
the words she spoke, the actions she took, they were actions of love, not hate nor fear nor anger.
then she says we shouldn't talk or see each other at all anymore because it will cause me too much hurt?
hurt?
how about abandoning someone who wakes up every day with her image in his mind. that isn't hurt? how about deciding to do all this when you know he's a thousand miles away, and can't even stand up for himself.
how about talking to him every day for a year. about little things, about big things, about all the in between things. then shutting him out, not answering your phone anymore?
these are the things that hurt.
i love her.
and she wants no part of me.
i never even got a goodbye hug.....
and while during this time i've taken great strides to better myself, to improve that which needs improvement, there is still an empty hole in me where she used to be......i'm dealing with this the best i can.
all my chances used up.
funny how life is.
someone falls in love with you, and you're not sure, and you let them know you're not sure.
then time progresses and you get to know them, and you wake up one day and realize you're in love.
then you idle on, not taking the proper steps, and a crisis arises. you have to leave town for a month.
she thinks you've been playing her all this time. that you don't really care. its really just that you never really told her that you did.
she realizes she's not happy with her life. she realizes she needs time to be alone.
she gives up on you.
and you're alone.
then later she tells you
you should be with someone who better suits your personality. someone who can make you happy.
she did make me happy.
every moment spent with her i was happy.
she may say differently, but i think she loved me.
the words she spoke, the actions she took, they were actions of love, not hate nor fear nor anger.
then she says we shouldn't talk or see each other at all anymore because it will cause me too much hurt?
hurt?
how about abandoning someone who wakes up every day with her image in his mind. that isn't hurt? how about deciding to do all this when you know he's a thousand miles away, and can't even stand up for himself.
how about talking to him every day for a year. about little things, about big things, about all the in between things. then shutting him out, not answering your phone anymore?
these are the things that hurt.
i love her.
and she wants no part of me.
i never even got a goodbye hug.....
and while during this time i've taken great strides to better myself, to improve that which needs improvement, there is still an empty hole in me where she used to be......i'm dealing with this the best i can.