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Feb 14, 2005 22:51

We all have times in our lives when things seem.. weird. I don't have ANY one thing in particular to be this way about. And in fact, a lot of things in my life are good.. VERY good. As katie once called it "the funk"
i was in a funk all last week. Stress, homework, work, lack of sleep, weight gain.. Just a combination that worked against me quite agressively.
Friday night/Saturday morning, i had fun. A little bit of everywhere to be quite honest. It was quite fun.
Saturday, well, i'll just describe it as the perfect evening. Take that back, the perfect evening PLUS Mahi Mahi :-P
Sunday, spent it relaxing. Much needed. I got caught up on about everytihng except my lab book.. and to be honest, fuck that. i'll get it done some time when i feel like it
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Starting Friday night, i awakened. I feel so much better. I can't quit smiling.

Music partly influenced that.

I listened to the classical/opera composer Richard Wagner a lot of the weekend. I am really starting to dig classical music. ESPECIALLY his. So much meaning, and without words. It is not about the lyrics and the obvious or hidden meanings. It is all about the emotion. It is nearly impossible to even describe the emotion. Parts of the music can be "positive" or "negative" whatever mood you want it enhance or negate. Happy -> Sad. Thankful -> Unthankful. Pacified -> Needy. I could go on, but my tired mind is tired of looking for adjectives.

I also bought a new CD collection. It was the 1994 re-mastering of "The Wall"
I purchased it this evening. I have listened to both discs already. Twice. I wont even go into Floyd.

I just know that ALL of the things in my life are falling into place. I am mellowing out a little. Not too much. Just enough. Just where i want to be. I am still passionate about the things that I need to be passionate about. And ALL of the little stupid shits that i used to bitch aboout before just don't matter anymore. It was best said on Harold and Kumar go to White Castle, "The universe tends to unfold as it should". You call BS? I have witnessed it. People who constantly shit on people get shit on in the end. If not, i will shit on them eventually. Not now. I would rather sit back and watch someone else do it. I have better things to spend my time on. Plus i would be much more efficient if i did it all at one time instead of switch tasks back and forth.

Do i have anytihng else to say? No. Just re-read it. If it doesent make sense, or you don't like it, go fuck yourself. and use ajax.
I'm not trying to inspire anyone. I am not trying to change anyone. I am just saying that sometimes there is happiness in the simple things in life. Air, Water, Music, Touch, Sight, and most importantly, Love.

That is all.

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