yea i can't sleep so i'll update

[mattbosh]

i'm not quite sure if anybody reads this anymore
everybody who does i miss you guys. i'll be back in meriden in a week
i can't wait to be home for a lil bit
well actually i'll prolly be sick of home within like two days
but it will be nice to visit.
i'm so tired, yet no matter how long i sleep it never seems to go away
i feel like i'm lost living the same day over and over.. but no weeks pass
i feel like i have accomplished nothing here it feels like
even though things have been good for me i fear at what cost
what have i lost to gain what i have.
I know what i want to do and i know what i love to do.
i just don't know if thats what i can do
i have stories, stories to tell, stories to keep secret
and stories that have been forgotten
i look forward to seeing people
i look forward to time off
i look forward to getting back to keene
i look forward to spring
but i don't want to leave what i have here,
i just hope it will be back next semster
yea there are alotta thoughts here.. maybe when i get them straight i'll produce a more coherent post
maybe