Still around
It came to my attention that its been awhile since I blogged so I thought I'd make my presence known. Even though its 7:00a.m. on a Saturday. Had a dream that woke me up and couldn't go back to sleep. So here I are. Not a lot going on-more with work than anything else. Have a new boss now as of the start of the new year(by the way, Happy New Year everyone!). Sooooo glad that my other one decided to quit. What a jerk. On his last day, he walked out the door and didn't say a word to me. Not even a nice working with you or kiss my ass. Not that I cared, but just a little rude and unprofessional. The one I have now is much better. She lets me have more control, more involved in the decision making. I liked that, good or bad. She trusts me in what I do, doesn't contradict me like the asshole I used to have. think it might work out, we'll see. Still hard to get up in the morning and want to go to work. Hate getting up at 5 am. Get up, get ready, make lunch, struggle to get there on time. Have to admit, having a significant other would be kinda nice to have around. Get tired of taking care of myself sometimes, as strange as that maybe. Always something that needs to be done. Just have to find a good woman, one thats not fucked up in the head like most are these days. Thought I found that person a few years ago or so but screwed that up and let her go. The dream I had last night was about her. She came back into town to tell me she was getting married. Then I woke up. I hate that. Then it sticks in your mind the rest of the day. Not to dwell on it but I keep thinking sometimes if I would've told her how I really felt about her and that I didn't want her to leave if things would be different. I regret not telling her. Hate to admit this but it was really tough to watch her drive away. Still see it in my memory. When I was around her she made me have this feeling that I really havn't felt since. I really loved her. Probably why I'm still single. But we are still good friends and I'm happy she is doing very well. Still love her and care and life goes on. Whoa Matt, yer getting a little deep! Get a hold of yourself! Well anyways, been doing alot of fishing lately. Forgot how relaxing it is. Being outdoors(which I really love) hangin with friends with a fishing pole in the water. And catching some delicious trout! yummy. Go fishing just about every weekend. Gets the mind away from all the hustle and bustle. Well getting hungry so I think I'm going to get some breakfast in now that its daybreak. Bye four now.