My brain
Today I sat on a panel of students for a discussion about ways to improve the effectiveness of University Career Centres and that sort of thing. It was interesting. It was kind of an odd thing to volunteer for I guess but hopefully I helped a bit.
In the middle of it, in fact, while I was speaking, I had one of those extended deja vu moments that I've mentioned in the past. I'd never had one while speaking or doing anything that required my attention however. It was a little frightening. It always feels a bit like I'm about to pass out, but I never do, and it always feels unpleasant, but then kind of pleasant, like when your foot or hand falls asleep and gets tingly. but in my brain.
So normally what happens when this feeling washes over me is I'll sit down, or curl up on the ground and wait for it to pass. In this case I was already sitting, and I was in the middle of speaking to a room full of grown up adults so I wasn't able to do anything I normally do. It lasted about as long as it usually does and I guess it wasn't really any different but as I spoke I also noticed the sensation, thought "what if i pass out" and continued to make my point. Multi-tasking eh?
there was a period a while ago when these little episodes began where I'd have one every once in a while. then they disappeared for years. I've been having them again recently, maybe starting a few months ago. usually in the morning. Sometimes after I get out of the shower at Vivian's house, but sometimes at my own home.
Looking stuff up online hasn't had any results, except for this story: http://www.canada.com/ottawacitizen/news/story.html?id=2c4f7afd-5a3a-4e52-a2fb-bc729692bfb4
Which isn't really what I'm feeling anyway. That article describes kind of a memory confusion, but this extended deja vu sensation I'm experiencing isn't really like deja vu, it's just like the sensation of deja vu. Like that creepy feeling surrounding deja vu. I don't actually feel like I've experienced that moment before, it just feels creepy.
In other news I'm moving into my brother's house. My email address remains the same.
In the middle of it, in fact, while I was speaking, I had one of those extended deja vu moments that I've mentioned in the past. I'd never had one while speaking or doing anything that required my attention however. It was a little frightening. It always feels a bit like I'm about to pass out, but I never do, and it always feels unpleasant, but then kind of pleasant, like when your foot or hand falls asleep and gets tingly. but in my brain.
So normally what happens when this feeling washes over me is I'll sit down, or curl up on the ground and wait for it to pass. In this case I was already sitting, and I was in the middle of speaking to a room full of grown up adults so I wasn't able to do anything I normally do. It lasted about as long as it usually does and I guess it wasn't really any different but as I spoke I also noticed the sensation, thought "what if i pass out" and continued to make my point. Multi-tasking eh?
there was a period a while ago when these little episodes began where I'd have one every once in a while. then they disappeared for years. I've been having them again recently, maybe starting a few months ago. usually in the morning. Sometimes after I get out of the shower at Vivian's house, but sometimes at my own home.
Looking stuff up online hasn't had any results, except for this story: http://www.canada.com/ottawacitizen/news/story.html?id=2c4f7afd-5a3a-4e52-a2fb-bc729692bfb4
Which isn't really what I'm feeling anyway. That article describes kind of a memory confusion, but this extended deja vu sensation I'm experiencing isn't really like deja vu, it's just like the sensation of deja vu. Like that creepy feeling surrounding deja vu. I don't actually feel like I've experienced that moment before, it just feels creepy.
In other news I'm moving into my brother's house. My email address remains the same.