fun evening
okay. i roped Bill into going out for a drink or two with me this evening. I had to almost pull out the "future husband" card. i did, however, have to go up and meet Mark when I picked Bill up. Mark is his current boyfriend. he seemed nice enough. but that's all i am saying! so we went to olly's and had some drinks and played some darts. I met up with Kraig and another of his friends Darrell (Darrell-Anne!)
we played darts and did shots and had a nice time.
we also had a nice political discussion in the bar and then talked about music on the way home. It was nice.
I know (if you know me) i always go on and on about justin and how i think he is wonderful and blah blah blah. but tonight just made me realize how wonderful Bill is in all the most important ways.
Justin is all about business and work and that is cool. he likes nice things and has nice things. I appreciate nice things as well, but i realize there are more important things in life. for me anyway. not to make him sound materialistic, because i don't think he is. I just feel like i can relax and be myself around bill and i don't have that with Justin. I like hanging out with him, and will probably continue to do so...but i always feel like i have to be on my guard or something. i dunno. it's weird.
what i think i finally arrived at is that as cool as justin is, and as cute and fun (in his own way), he appeals to the old me more than anything. Bill is just the opposite. but there is much personal work to be done if that is ever going to happen! lol
ah well. Life is complicated. as are matters of the heart. but it was a great evening no matter what.
we played darts and did shots and had a nice time.
we also had a nice political discussion in the bar and then talked about music on the way home. It was nice.
I know (if you know me) i always go on and on about justin and how i think he is wonderful and blah blah blah. but tonight just made me realize how wonderful Bill is in all the most important ways.
Justin is all about business and work and that is cool. he likes nice things and has nice things. I appreciate nice things as well, but i realize there are more important things in life. for me anyway. not to make him sound materialistic, because i don't think he is. I just feel like i can relax and be myself around bill and i don't have that with Justin. I like hanging out with him, and will probably continue to do so...but i always feel like i have to be on my guard or something. i dunno. it's weird.
what i think i finally arrived at is that as cool as justin is, and as cute and fun (in his own way), he appeals to the old me more than anything. Bill is just the opposite. but there is much personal work to be done if that is ever going to happen! lol
ah well. Life is complicated. as are matters of the heart. but it was a great evening no matter what.