This does look like a declaration of promiscuity, but it really isn't. As I get older the hookups all start to feel the same and stale. I want to clarify this, I believe that a monogomous relationship, or at the very least an ongoing, long term love between two people can be everything that it's cracked up to be, and deep down I want that. There was a time when I didn't, and by the time that my values finally changed it was too late, and rightfully so. Then I pursued another and became unhealthily attached in the traditional sense, so that when karma (you know the kind I had coming) came back at me, I was bombarded by the most negative feelings. I want to avoid these negative feelings now, more than anything, and see if there is a way I can structure my approach to somehow factor out the bullshit and just feel real unconditional love. I don't think I can do that in a traditional relationship even though you and countless other people might be able to. I get too wrapped up in what it makes me to be with this person, along with feelings of pride and possession. You might be right, maybe I've never fallen in love, although I'm pretty sure I have, maybe there is this greater thing that I just haven't yet encountered. It would be stupid to say that there's no such thing as something just because I've never found it, and it is exciting and encouraging to hear you say that you've found it. I've just always been prone to think that there is no "it", but that there are as many different loves as there are connections between people and that every relation I've had was valid, whether they worked out in the long run or not. Although, I'll admit, some relations I have had seemed a lot closer to the "it" you speak of than others, and those ones are hard to see go. To put it simply, I think the idea of "falling in love with the one" is an oversimplification that leads to unhealthy attachments, but I might be wrong. This thing might exist, which according to you it appears that it does. I'm always up for being proven wrong, and in this case, that might be a very good thing for me.
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