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Just got in, now 10:43. Took a walk to Wawa, and got a coffee, a bagel, and a pack of ciggs. Now just listening to music, and decided to write in this because its been a while. Why do people say anything if your gonna hide who you are. And tell me to stop caring...When it seems like you care as well because your leaving comments, and your making it secretive. Gay.
Well Friday was the Hop. It was OK, the night got better after Reid danced wit me through a song. Thats when i stopped caring and just made the initiciative to grab her. Its a shame too, she basically talked to Kevin all night, and i just sat there through most of it, saying to myself why am I here, to just sit here? :Although we're JUST friends right? You can't be open even then either? But its over with now, pretty much, over all I had a good time, nothing came of it between us, but its not like I expected it, I don't anymore. Then Saturday, she didn't feel good, so I tried to take care of her, i got her gingerale, fries, medicine, comfort. What is wrong with it, whats missing that just won't either start it or end it, why is it still in the air. I just wish it could progress, or just dissapear.
But anyway, on to a new subject. I had a food show thing for work. It took so long for four hours to go by, because it was slow, i was tired, and cranky because i took the train home, because i was so tired and couldn't wake up at 6 oclock somehow. I hear the alarm, and next thing i know after waking up was, i fell back asleep, and slept through it, and it was then 8 i missed my ride HOME, but i got a ride to the train station, thank god, because if i missed this food show, i would have been fired probably or close to it.
I can't stop thinking about shit, thats all thats on my mind. It's so hard to let it fade, but what else is there to do. I guess just wish it would suddenly change and things could be proven and it would be great. But I'm done waiting for that day where that can be done. Maybe in some other life, when they can open their mouth and eyes and realize a few things... But anyway its now 11:00 and I gotta do a few things, so this is the end. Feel free to leave your comments invisible person, thanks thanks. LaTer....
Well Friday was the Hop. It was OK, the night got better after Reid danced wit me through a song. Thats when i stopped caring and just made the initiciative to grab her. Its a shame too, she basically talked to Kevin all night, and i just sat there through most of it, saying to myself why am I here, to just sit here? :Although we're JUST friends right? You can't be open even then either? But its over with now, pretty much, over all I had a good time, nothing came of it between us, but its not like I expected it, I don't anymore. Then Saturday, she didn't feel good, so I tried to take care of her, i got her gingerale, fries, medicine, comfort. What is wrong with it, whats missing that just won't either start it or end it, why is it still in the air. I just wish it could progress, or just dissapear.
But anyway, on to a new subject. I had a food show thing for work. It took so long for four hours to go by, because it was slow, i was tired, and cranky because i took the train home, because i was so tired and couldn't wake up at 6 oclock somehow. I hear the alarm, and next thing i know after waking up was, i fell back asleep, and slept through it, and it was then 8 i missed my ride HOME, but i got a ride to the train station, thank god, because if i missed this food show, i would have been fired probably or close to it.
I can't stop thinking about shit, thats all thats on my mind. It's so hard to let it fade, but what else is there to do. I guess just wish it would suddenly change and things could be proven and it would be great. But I'm done waiting for that day where that can be done. Maybe in some other life, when they can open their mouth and eyes and realize a few things... But anyway its now 11:00 and I gotta do a few things, so this is the end. Feel free to leave your comments invisible person, thanks thanks. LaTer....