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It hurts to see the person you love be with someone else.
I feel stupid for giving her those flowers for Valentine's Day, because she has a boyfriend. He's the one she wants to be with. At the end of the day she thinks of him, why the fuck am I bothering?
I honestly don't know what I'm doing anymore. All the stuff I went through with Fatima, just waiting around turned out to be bullshit. I feel taken advantage of. I try so hard and in the end I look like a fool. Apart of me doesn't want to wait for Krista because I know there's a good chance of looking like the fool again, but part of me doesn't want to give up.
Instincts tell me to move on.. she has.
"I keep your picture by my bed for when im feeling sad
and I dont know why i would be.
the way your smile looks so real
I feel like I could start to understand your grace.
and I dont understand why you're not here with me.
and I dont even wanna know where else you'd be.
Cause I have photographs and memories of the times
when you weren't on my mind and I was alone.
and I have poetry and drawings of my life
when you weren't on my side and I didn't know just what is love...
Writing moments on the wall with different colors
keeps my mind away from missing you.
and I can't wait to fall asleep to slip into my dreams
where we can dance upon a star..
And I will be as patient as a boy in love could ever be.
Cause I don't feel like I was real until you were a part of me.
I need you back, I need you back
I need you here.
I need your smile, I need your eyes
I need you dear.
cause every line on your face makes a beautiful maze for my eyes to trace.."
I feel stupid for giving her those flowers for Valentine's Day, because she has a boyfriend. He's the one she wants to be with. At the end of the day she thinks of him, why the fuck am I bothering?
I honestly don't know what I'm doing anymore. All the stuff I went through with Fatima, just waiting around turned out to be bullshit. I feel taken advantage of. I try so hard and in the end I look like a fool. Apart of me doesn't want to wait for Krista because I know there's a good chance of looking like the fool again, but part of me doesn't want to give up.
Instincts tell me to move on.. she has.
"I keep your picture by my bed for when im feeling sad
and I dont know why i would be.
the way your smile looks so real
I feel like I could start to understand your grace.
and I dont understand why you're not here with me.
and I dont even wanna know where else you'd be.
Cause I have photographs and memories of the times
when you weren't on my mind and I was alone.
and I have poetry and drawings of my life
when you weren't on my side and I didn't know just what is love...
Writing moments on the wall with different colors
keeps my mind away from missing you.
and I can't wait to fall asleep to slip into my dreams
where we can dance upon a star..
And I will be as patient as a boy in love could ever be.
Cause I don't feel like I was real until you were a part of me.
I need you back, I need you back
I need you here.
I need your smile, I need your eyes
I need you dear.
cause every line on your face makes a beautiful maze for my eyes to trace.."