sorry
If you believe in god you have wasted almost half of your life on abnormal shit that does not exist. You are going to die, with our without bad things that have happened in your life. SHIT HAPPENS, move on with your life, you only have so long of time on earth before you die and are burried. YES YOU DO NOT GO ANYWHERE ELSE BUT 6 FEET UNDER. Maybe creamation if your lucky. GOODNIGHT.