Ya Soshla S Uma? [not a goddamn poem]

[matsudaaiko]

i should be smarter and learned to say ‘NO’
i should be smarter and made some priorities
i should be smarter and didn’t depend on others
i should be smarter and not give a damn of whatever people may think

i should be smarter and move forward
i should be smarter and stop being a stubborn
i should be smarter and use brains & logics instead of feelings & intuitions
i should be smarter and didn’t let someone thrust in too deep

into my heart
into my mind
into my soul
into my life

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i should be smarter and not blog this such entry

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i should be smarter and......................

i should be smarter and forbid myself from losing my mind