A broken promise chapter 3
Title: A broken promise
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: My Sakudada <3
Pairings: Yama
Rating: R
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: Sho owns Ohchan xD
Summary: You were alone, you were so sad. Everybody thought nothing could touch you but they were wrong. You were the only one who was able to read people's heart and understand them when they just said you were weird. But why don't you let me try to read your mind? Why don't you let me touch you? Can I be the only one that you'll allow to touch your heart?
A/N: Warning! This story is a fiction, Asperger is not really like that, I used some of the troubles of this syndrome for Ohchan's character but it not a realAsperger (it was easier to explain it in this way because Asperger is a very complicated syndrome and I didn't want to make an exposed). So, if you have any questions about this syndrome, make some researches or send me a message, I'll explain what really Asperger is.
Chapter 3:
Do you remember the first time I talked to you, Satoshi? I stopped my work earlier to run to the beach and when I saw you, happiness crossed my heart. You were so beautiful with the sun shining on your chubby face, with your eyes looking at the horizon as if something was calling you. Do you remember? I think my real life started this day when you turned your head toward me and smiled at me softly for the first time.
We stayed like that, in silence. I saw Ohno was throwing me nervous looks.
"So~ you like the sea?" I started, turning my head toward him. Ohno didn't respond but nodded. "I like it too. Sea is appeasing; I've always thought it was the only place where nobody could judge you." I smiled and Ohno turned his head, looking at me for the first time. I could see his surprise before he smiled and nodded. During four hours, we stayed like that, looking at the sun.
"See you tomorrow, Ohno-san." I said, standing up and Ohno smiled.
****
When I came back home, Yusuke was cooking. I hugged him from behind, putting my chin on his shoulder.
"Nice day?" Yusuke smiled.
"Yes." I kissed his neck and sat on the sofa. I didn't know why, but I felt uncomfortable. My apartment was the same and Yu was the same but I felt as if I was a stranger, now. When I looked at my lover, I just could see him with this man and it hurt, it hurt so much.
"Are you all right, Sho?" Yusuke made me jump.
"Yes." Both of us ate Yu's dinner in an uncomfortable silence. Usually, we always spoke about a lot of things but today, we just looked at our food as if it was the most interesting thing in the world.
When I laid on the bed, Yu climbed on me and began to kiss and lick my nape. I knew what he wanted but I wasn't in the mood.
"What's happen, baby, you're weird tonight." Yu frowned, stopping his strokes on my manhood.
"I'm tired." I sighed, looking away.
"I'll wake you up, then." Yusuke smirked and swallowed my shaft.
"Arg... Yu~" I moaned, feeling my cock twitched.
This night, I fucked Yusuke three times but without desire. Of course, my body reacted physically but my mind was far away, my mind and my heart were somewhere on a beach with a chubby man next to me.
The big advantage when you had your own office was you could work when you wanted and even if I was a workaholic before, now, I just wanted to skip my work. It wasn't a big deal, I was a good lawyer and won my life very well, so, I could take some days off for the first time in my life. Obviously, I didn't tell it to Yu and spent my time at the beach, trying to create a bond between Ohno and me.
"It's amazing." I said, looking at Ohno's drawing. Satoshi didn't answer, like always and continued to draw, his eyes glued on the paper.
How could I reach his heart? How could I make him speak to me? Suddenly, an idea came into my mind and I grabbed a paper. After some minutes I could feel Ohno's curious look on me and held him out my drawing. He stared at the paper during some seconds and a smile spread on his lips before he bursted out laughing.
"Hey, don't laugh at me!" I pouted childishly but he didn't stop, tears rolling on his cheeks while my heart was fluttering because of his beautiful laugh. He was laughing like a girl but in a very musical way. If you close your eyes, you could imagine you heard a song and I loved it. "You're not kind." I turned my head away, trying to make him believe I was angry. I suddenly felt a hand on my arm and looked at Ohno.
"I'm sorry." Ohno lowered his eyes, blushing.
"It's okay, I'm happy to hear you." I smiled back. "Does my drawing is so horrible?"
"I... It's not that, but... It's weird. Why did you draw a mushroom with a snowman?" Ohno asked, a bit curious.
"It's not a snowman, it's Totoro and it's Mei, not a mushroom." I pouted, looking at the paper in his hands.
"Can I keep it?"
"Yes, I don't mind but why?" I blinked, a bit surprised by his shy tone.
"I like Sho-chan's drawing." Ohno chuckled softly and I touched his hand but he quickly pushed me away, fear shining in his eyes.
"I'm sorry, Ohno-kun, I..." I lowered my eyes, ready to see him leave but he didn't and when I looked at him, I saw a slight smile on his lips. "I have to go, see you tomorrow?" I asked, hopefully.
"Hai." He nodded.
"Can I give you my number if you have any problem, you can call me." Ohno blushed but nodded again and I gave him my number with a smile.
When I came back home this night, I had a bright smile on my lips. I felt so happy after this day! Ohno had spoken to me, he had liked my drawing and even accepted my number! For me, it was a big step because in two weeks he had never said a word to me and if today he did, maybe it meant he started to trust me. When he smiled at me, my heart almost stopped because I had never seen a smile like that. Ohno always seemed so sad, pain shining in his beautiful chocolate eyes but today, when he grinned, happiness lightened his whole chubby face and I thought nobody could make a smile as beautiful as him.
"What happened, you seem very happy." Yusuke asked when I came back home
"I am happy!" I exclaimed with a bright smile.
"Why?"
"For nothing, I'm happy, that's all." I couldn't tell him about Ohno.
"Oh, it's good, I guess." Yu mumbled.
I knew Yu wondered why I was in a so good mood but I didn't care if he didn't believe me.
This night, I made research about Asperger’s syndrome, I wanted to know why they didn't see the world in the same way as us. Why they were so sensitive. My eyes were glued on the screen of my laptop when I felt a mouth kissing my neck.
"I'm busy, Yu." I mumbled, without looking at him.
"Stop your work, I want you." Yu licked my sensitive spot but I didn't react.
"You knew, people who has Asperger's syndrome can draw perfectly something they saw only once?" I asked, excitedly.
"Hun.." Yusuke mumbled, kissing and biting my nape, his hands traveling under my shirt.
"And they are very very clever." I added.
"Since when you are interested in this?" Yusuke groaned.
"Since today, I think we must learn to know them better."
"Stop that and we can go to bed, you could make some researches on my body too."
"I can't, it's too interesting."
"I see, your work is more important than me, like always." Yusuke snapped and left the sitting room.
"Baby, it's not what I meant." I said but Yu slapped the door and I shrugged. I didn't really care.
I fell asleep on my laptop at 4 a.m, exhausted.
The next day, Yusuke was sulking in his corner but I didn't know why his anger didn't affect me.
"Where are you going, we are Sunday?" Yusuke asked me when I took my shoes on.
"I've forgotten an important file in my office, I won't be long, I promise." I lied and left before my boyfriend could say anything.
I started my car and drove quickly to the beach and I hoped Ohno would be there. My heart fluttered when I saw my favorite chubby man on the sand, playing with the water with the tip of his fingers.
"Ohayou gozaimasu, Ohno-kun." I said softly and when he looked at me, a smile shined his face.
"O-ayou." He whispered shyly.
"How are you, today?" I wanted to make him speak more, loving how his soft voice sang in my ears.
"Well, I guess." Ohno turned his head toward the sea.
"Me too and you know why?" Ohno shook his head.
"Because I can be with you on this beach." I smiled and Ohno blinked, surprised.
"Why?"
"Because I like you, you're a kind man." Ohno chuckled but I could feel how my words touched him.
"How could you like someone like me?" Ohno asked, sadness invading his voice.
"Because you are like that." Ohno frowned and stared at me with curious eyes. "Your difference makes you unique. To be honest, I'm the kind of man who isn't comfortable with the others but when I'm with you, it's different. You calm down my heart, you don't speak too much and I can feel you read me better than no one else." I explained, looking straight in his eyes and when Ohno blushed, I could say I had never seen someone as cute as him.
"But I'm abnormal." Satoshi whispered painfully. "Everybody hates me and says I'm a freak." Tears filled my eyes when his voice broke in his throat.
"You're not a freak nor abnormal, you just see the world in a different way than us and it's not a bad thing. For me, you have the most beautiful heart of the earth." I smiled but froze when a tear rolled on his cheek.
"Thank you. It's the first time someone says to me so beautiful things like that."
"Satoshi..." I whispered when another tear started to roll on his cheek. Without thinking, I put my hand on his face, wiping his tear at the same time. Ohno froze but let me did. "You shouldn't cry, you're more beautiful when you smile." I said, tears filling my eyes too.
"Thank you, Sakurai-san." Ohno tried to make a little smile.
"Call me Sho. Now, we must think about happiest subjects." I released his cheek, my heart fluttering when I thought Ohno let me touched him for the first time. A new trust settled between us but I knew it was just the beginning.
"Can you draw something?" I asked. Ohno smiled and nodded, taking his stuff in his bag.
During, two hours, I stared at him. My eyes were glued on his face, his beautiful hands and I thought there was nothing as beautiful as him when he drew. Ohno had a very serious and concentrate look, his hands were moving very quickly. Sometimes, Satoshi frowned his nose or bit his lower lip when he wasn't satisfied and these reactions made me smile tenderly. Suddenly, my phone buzzed, breaking this magic moment and I almost shouted when I answered.
"Moshi mosh?"
"Sho, where are you? You left since three hours now, I thought you might be quick." Yusuke yelled.
"Gomen ne, Yu, I was working, I come back, now."
"Hurry up, lunch is already ready!" Yu said coldly and cut the line.
"I'm sorry, Ohchan, I have to go." I apologized to Ohno who was staring at me since the beginning.
He shook his head with a smile and I stood up. But I didn't see the tear escaping his eye when I left.
****
"I'm sorry, Yu." I repeated again to my boyfriend who was looking at me with furious eyes.
"You promised, Sho." Yu simply said.
"I know, Yu and I'm sorry."
"Sometimes, I think your work is more important than me." Yusuke looked at me with sadness and I hugged him tightly.
"No, never. You're the most important to me, I love you. I'm sorry." I whispered, kissing his neck. Yu moaned and wrapped his arms around me, smacking our lips together. It was true, I loved him, but since his betrayal, something was broken between us. Anger was still inside me when I fucked him, when I saw him in our bed, when he moaned loudly because of my hard thrusts. I couldn't erase the view of him and this bastard, it was an obsession. I could smell his scent in our sheets even if I knew it was my imagination. And to be honest, I felt hatred toward Yusuke. I hated him for his betrayal, for making me suffer so much. I couldn't really forgive him for what he did to me. He had stolen my pride, my trust and my love this day. But I still loved him and I would try to give him a second chance. I felt guilty because it was my fault, I worked too much and he felt lonely.
"Sho~" Yu moaned in my ear and, coming back to reality, I continued to thrust inside him, smacking our lips together to swallow our moans.
I was fucking him since two hours, trying to show him that I was sorry.
"Sho!!!" Yu shouted, releasing himself and I collapsed next to him, breathing heavily. "It was amazing." My boyfriend rolled on my chest and kissed my lips.
"Yes." I smiled, hugging him.
We fell asleep quickly after that. When I woke up, I immediately took my laptop to make more research about Asperger's syndrome. Yusuke frowned when he saw me but didn't say anything.
****
"Ohchan!!" I cried and Ohno smiled when he saw me running toward him.
"Ohayou, Sho-kun." He said in his usual shy tone.
"I'm so happy to see you!" I smiled brightly.
"Ano, Sho-kun?" Ohno looked at me, blushing deeply.
"Hun?"
"I... I-have so-mething fo-r you."
"Really?!" I exclaimed happily. Ohno nodded and held me out something.
My eyes widened when I saw his present. It was a painting of me. I was drawing in front of the sea with a concentrate look. The colors were amazing and the painting seemed so real. You could feel all my feelings when you looked at it.
"It's..." I lost my words, tears filling my eyes.
"You don't like?" Ohno looked at me with sadness.
"No, of course I like. I love your painting, it's very beautiful." Tears started to roll on my face.
"It makes you sad?" Ohno's voice died in his throat and without thinking, I hugged him tightly in my arms. At the beginning, Ohno froze but hugged me back slightly.
"Your painting makes me happy. I'm so glad you gave me a so beautiful present, thank you very much, Satoshi, I love it." I whispered against his neck and I could feel his smile. "Thanks." I repeated and kissed his forehead.
Ohno blushed deeply and moved away a little. I knew he was afraid by the other's touches but I wanted to show him, I wasn't a stranger but his friend.
"I'm happy you like it, then." Ohno lowered his eyes, his face as red as a little tomato.
"I'll give you a present too, next time." I smiled.
This time, I took him back at his house and his mother made me stay with them.
"Thank you."
"Eh?"
"Toshi said to me you come everyday on the beach to see him."
"Oh, it's nothing. I like Satoshi." I smiled, blushing.
"He likes you too. He made very good progress because of you."
"Really?"
"Yes. He speaks more and he's less afraid by the outside. And he often smiles, now."
"I'm very happy to know that." I grinned and Ohno sat next to me. His mother's eyes widened when her son laid his head on my shoulder.
"Thank you so much, Sakurai-san!" She put her hands on mine, tears filling her eyes.
"Why are you crying, mama?" Ohno frowned cutely.
"Because I'm happy, dear." Satoko smiled tenderly to her son.
Suddenly, the doorbell rang and Satoko stood up to open the door.
"What are you doing here?" I heard her.
"To see my son." A male voice replied.
"He isn't your son anymore since your betrayal, get out!"
I looked at Ohno next to me and my eyes widened when I saw him. His body was shaking, tears filled his eyes.
"Satoshi." A man appeared in the sitting room.
"I told you to leave, Shouta!" Satoko snapped but the man ignored her and approached Ohno.
"Satoshi." The man tried to touch Ohno but my friend shouted in panic.
Ohno fell on his knees, grabbing his head with both hands and rocking his body, still screaming.
"I told you to leave." Satoko yelled and pushed the man away, trying to calm her son down. "Sato, baby, calm down." She whispered but Ohno scratched her arm and ran away.
"Get out!!!" Satoko yelled.
"Satoko-chan..." The man started but I cut him, putting my hand on his shoulder.
"She asked you to leave." I looked at him with cold eyes and the man left the house.
Satoko rushed in Ohno's bedroom and we saw him in a corner of his room, crying loudly and biting his arm while his body was rocking backward and forward.
"Satoshi." Satoko tried to touch her son but Ohno screamed and bit his nape harder, blood leaving his cut.
"Sato-kun." I kneeled in front of him and stroked his cheek but he scratched my hand and bit his arm again. "Satoshi, it's enough!!" I shouted and Ohno froze, looking at me with teary eyes. I wrapped him in my arms and rocked him. Ohno bit my shoulder but I tightened my grip around him, trying to ignore the pain.
"Calm down, Satoshi, I'm here, calm down." I stroked his head while my friend bit my nape. I tried to keep my screams because of the pain. His teeth were sinking in my shoulder, blood rolling on my nape. I could feel Ohno's tears wetting my shirt and it hurt, it hurt so much to think someone could make him suffer like that. "I'm here for you, Satoshi. I'll always be there for you. I promise I'll protect you now. Don't be afraid, I'm here." I kissed his head and Satoshi released my shoulder.
"Sho-chan." He looked at me with teary eyes and buried his face in my neck, crying loudly.
"Yes, Toshi, I'm here." I rocked him in my arms and after a while, he fell asleep. I carried him in my arms and laid him in his bed.
"Who was this man?" I asked to Satoko.
"My ex husband, Satoshi's father."
"Why Sato was so afraid?"
"We discovered Sato had Asperger's syndrome when he was 9 years old but my husband didn't accept it. He said he didn't want a freak as a son and tried to raise him like a normal child. But when Satoshi was 13 years old, Shouta started to be violent. If Toshi acted in a different way than the others or made his crisis, my husband beat him and locked him in a dark room during lots of hours, that's why Toshi is afraid by the small rooms and the dark. I was afraid by my husband and I found the courage to leave him when my son was 16 years old. It took many years to Satoshi to overcome his trauma but as you've seen it earlier, he panics if he sees his father." Satoko explained with a weak voice.
"His own father did that." I growled, anger invading my heart.
"And his own mother let him did during three years."
"It's not your fault, you were afraid." I said softly.
"No, I have none excuse, I let this monster hurt my baby."
"I think Satoshi wouldn't like to see you blame yourself like that."
"Sakurai-san, promise me you'll never hurt my baby, promise me you'll always be there for him." She looked at me with teary eyes and I smiled softly.
"Of course. But I don't understand this syndrome."
"In reality, Satoshi hasn't got a true Asperger syndrome. People who have an Asperger syndrome can't understand what is a feeling."
"Eh?"
"Their brain is like a machine, they are very clever but they don't know what a feeling is. For example, they don't realize if they make you sad or hurt you that's why they suffer so much, if they see you crying because of them it hurts them because they don't understand why. They don't know what is love and are afraid when there are too much people around them. If you want to understand what Asperger really is, you can read the story of Temple Grandin. She had an Asperger syndrome and it took a lot of years for her to heal her syndrome, it's extremely complicated."
"But Satoshi doesn't seem to be like that." I said, lost.
"Yes, he isn't. He just shows some troubles of Asperger. He is afraid by people, he makes big crisis when all overwhelmed him, he can draw something he just has seen once or read. It's not a real Asperger but his psychologist told us he had some troubles similar to Asperger, we can't really explain what he really has."
"Does he know what is a feeling?" I asked, a bit afraid.
"Yes but he doesn't know how to react, he is easily overwhelmed and strong noise drives him crazy. And when he makes his crisis, he doesn't realize he can hurt you or himself." Satoko explained.
"It's complicated."
"I know. But you just have to know, my son starts to discover new feelings because of you, he changed lots."
****
When I came back home, I found Yusuke crying on our sofa and before I can ask, he threw a lot of pictures on the table. Pictures of Satoshi and me.
"I knew you hid me something. I knew it wasn't for your work you came back home so late." Yu sobbed.
"Yu, I can explain."
"Who's he?"
"A friend."
"Really? You don't have already put your cock in his asshole." Yu smirked and I slapped his face.
"No, I didn't. Satoshi is my friend, he is different than the other, he has Asperger's syndrome and he let me touched his arm after one month. And plus, I'm not like you, I don't sleep with the first I meet." I snapped with cold eyes, Yusuke looking at me with wide eyes.
"You prefer your new friend than your own boyfriend?"
"No, it's just I need him and he needs me."
"Why?"
"Because he was there when I found you with this bastard, he was there when I think all my life was a lie. And today, I'm here for him."
"You know, I regret what I did this day. It's the biggest mistake of my life. I'm everyday grateful to Kami-sama because you stayed with me and that's why I'll not let this guy steal my boyfriend from me."
"Eh?"
"Our luggage’s are ready, we leave Tokyo in three hours."
"What???!!! What are you talking about?!" I exclaimed, shocked.
"I take you for a trip. We are going to Paris for two weeks."
"I can't." I replied, panic invading my body.
"I don't let you the choice, Sho. If you refuse, it's over." Yu looked at me with serious eyes and I gulped. What could I do? If I left Tokyo, I left Satoshi but if I refused, my boyfriend will break with me.
"So, what is your answer?" Yusuke asked.
To be continued...
A/N: Well, I'm sorry for the cut xD and to be honest, I hate Yusuke too, how Sho can be so weak with his boyfrien? XD Love make us very stupid XD
Author: MatsuAurore
Beta: My Sakudada <3
Pairings: Yama
Rating: R
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: Sho owns Ohchan xD
Summary: You were alone, you were so sad. Everybody thought nothing could touch you but they were wrong. You were the only one who was able to read people's heart and understand them when they just said you were weird. But why don't you let me try to read your mind? Why don't you let me touch you? Can I be the only one that you'll allow to touch your heart?
A/N: Warning! This story is a fiction, Asperger is not really like that, I used some of the troubles of this syndrome for Ohchan's character but it not a realAsperger (it was easier to explain it in this way because Asperger is a very complicated syndrome and I didn't want to make an exposed). So, if you have any questions about this syndrome, make some researches or send me a message, I'll explain what really Asperger is.
Chapter 3:
Do you remember the first time I talked to you, Satoshi? I stopped my work earlier to run to the beach and when I saw you, happiness crossed my heart. You were so beautiful with the sun shining on your chubby face, with your eyes looking at the horizon as if something was calling you. Do you remember? I think my real life started this day when you turned your head toward me and smiled at me softly for the first time.
We stayed like that, in silence. I saw Ohno was throwing me nervous looks.
"So~ you like the sea?" I started, turning my head toward him. Ohno didn't respond but nodded. "I like it too. Sea is appeasing; I've always thought it was the only place where nobody could judge you." I smiled and Ohno turned his head, looking at me for the first time. I could see his surprise before he smiled and nodded. During four hours, we stayed like that, looking at the sun.
"See you tomorrow, Ohno-san." I said, standing up and Ohno smiled.
****
When I came back home, Yusuke was cooking. I hugged him from behind, putting my chin on his shoulder.
"Nice day?" Yusuke smiled.
"Yes." I kissed his neck and sat on the sofa. I didn't know why, but I felt uncomfortable. My apartment was the same and Yu was the same but I felt as if I was a stranger, now. When I looked at my lover, I just could see him with this man and it hurt, it hurt so much.
"Are you all right, Sho?" Yusuke made me jump.
"Yes." Both of us ate Yu's dinner in an uncomfortable silence. Usually, we always spoke about a lot of things but today, we just looked at our food as if it was the most interesting thing in the world.
When I laid on the bed, Yu climbed on me and began to kiss and lick my nape. I knew what he wanted but I wasn't in the mood.
"What's happen, baby, you're weird tonight." Yu frowned, stopping his strokes on my manhood.
"I'm tired." I sighed, looking away.
"I'll wake you up, then." Yusuke smirked and swallowed my shaft.
"Arg... Yu~" I moaned, feeling my cock twitched.
This night, I fucked Yusuke three times but without desire. Of course, my body reacted physically but my mind was far away, my mind and my heart were somewhere on a beach with a chubby man next to me.
The big advantage when you had your own office was you could work when you wanted and even if I was a workaholic before, now, I just wanted to skip my work. It wasn't a big deal, I was a good lawyer and won my life very well, so, I could take some days off for the first time in my life. Obviously, I didn't tell it to Yu and spent my time at the beach, trying to create a bond between Ohno and me.
"It's amazing." I said, looking at Ohno's drawing. Satoshi didn't answer, like always and continued to draw, his eyes glued on the paper.
How could I reach his heart? How could I make him speak to me? Suddenly, an idea came into my mind and I grabbed a paper. After some minutes I could feel Ohno's curious look on me and held him out my drawing. He stared at the paper during some seconds and a smile spread on his lips before he bursted out laughing.
"Hey, don't laugh at me!" I pouted childishly but he didn't stop, tears rolling on his cheeks while my heart was fluttering because of his beautiful laugh. He was laughing like a girl but in a very musical way. If you close your eyes, you could imagine you heard a song and I loved it. "You're not kind." I turned my head away, trying to make him believe I was angry. I suddenly felt a hand on my arm and looked at Ohno.
"I'm sorry." Ohno lowered his eyes, blushing.
"It's okay, I'm happy to hear you." I smiled back. "Does my drawing is so horrible?"
"I... It's not that, but... It's weird. Why did you draw a mushroom with a snowman?" Ohno asked, a bit curious.
"It's not a snowman, it's Totoro and it's Mei, not a mushroom." I pouted, looking at the paper in his hands.
"Can I keep it?"
"Yes, I don't mind but why?" I blinked, a bit surprised by his shy tone.
"I like Sho-chan's drawing." Ohno chuckled softly and I touched his hand but he quickly pushed me away, fear shining in his eyes.
"I'm sorry, Ohno-kun, I..." I lowered my eyes, ready to see him leave but he didn't and when I looked at him, I saw a slight smile on his lips. "I have to go, see you tomorrow?" I asked, hopefully.
"Hai." He nodded.
"Can I give you my number if you have any problem, you can call me." Ohno blushed but nodded again and I gave him my number with a smile.
When I came back home this night, I had a bright smile on my lips. I felt so happy after this day! Ohno had spoken to me, he had liked my drawing and even accepted my number! For me, it was a big step because in two weeks he had never said a word to me and if today he did, maybe it meant he started to trust me. When he smiled at me, my heart almost stopped because I had never seen a smile like that. Ohno always seemed so sad, pain shining in his beautiful chocolate eyes but today, when he grinned, happiness lightened his whole chubby face and I thought nobody could make a smile as beautiful as him.
"What happened, you seem very happy." Yusuke asked when I came back home
"I am happy!" I exclaimed with a bright smile.
"Why?"
"For nothing, I'm happy, that's all." I couldn't tell him about Ohno.
"Oh, it's good, I guess." Yu mumbled.
I knew Yu wondered why I was in a so good mood but I didn't care if he didn't believe me.
This night, I made research about Asperger’s syndrome, I wanted to know why they didn't see the world in the same way as us. Why they were so sensitive. My eyes were glued on the screen of my laptop when I felt a mouth kissing my neck.
"I'm busy, Yu." I mumbled, without looking at him.
"Stop your work, I want you." Yu licked my sensitive spot but I didn't react.
"You knew, people who has Asperger's syndrome can draw perfectly something they saw only once?" I asked, excitedly.
"Hun.." Yusuke mumbled, kissing and biting my nape, his hands traveling under my shirt.
"And they are very very clever." I added.
"Since when you are interested in this?" Yusuke groaned.
"Since today, I think we must learn to know them better."
"Stop that and we can go to bed, you could make some researches on my body too."
"I can't, it's too interesting."
"I see, your work is more important than me, like always." Yusuke snapped and left the sitting room.
"Baby, it's not what I meant." I said but Yu slapped the door and I shrugged. I didn't really care.
I fell asleep on my laptop at 4 a.m, exhausted.
The next day, Yusuke was sulking in his corner but I didn't know why his anger didn't affect me.
"Where are you going, we are Sunday?" Yusuke asked me when I took my shoes on.
"I've forgotten an important file in my office, I won't be long, I promise." I lied and left before my boyfriend could say anything.
I started my car and drove quickly to the beach and I hoped Ohno would be there. My heart fluttered when I saw my favorite chubby man on the sand, playing with the water with the tip of his fingers.
"Ohayou gozaimasu, Ohno-kun." I said softly and when he looked at me, a smile shined his face.
"O-ayou." He whispered shyly.
"How are you, today?" I wanted to make him speak more, loving how his soft voice sang in my ears.
"Well, I guess." Ohno turned his head toward the sea.
"Me too and you know why?" Ohno shook his head.
"Because I can be with you on this beach." I smiled and Ohno blinked, surprised.
"Why?"
"Because I like you, you're a kind man." Ohno chuckled but I could feel how my words touched him.
"How could you like someone like me?" Ohno asked, sadness invading his voice.
"Because you are like that." Ohno frowned and stared at me with curious eyes. "Your difference makes you unique. To be honest, I'm the kind of man who isn't comfortable with the others but when I'm with you, it's different. You calm down my heart, you don't speak too much and I can feel you read me better than no one else." I explained, looking straight in his eyes and when Ohno blushed, I could say I had never seen someone as cute as him.
"But I'm abnormal." Satoshi whispered painfully. "Everybody hates me and says I'm a freak." Tears filled my eyes when his voice broke in his throat.
"You're not a freak nor abnormal, you just see the world in a different way than us and it's not a bad thing. For me, you have the most beautiful heart of the earth." I smiled but froze when a tear rolled on his cheek.
"Thank you. It's the first time someone says to me so beautiful things like that."
"Satoshi..." I whispered when another tear started to roll on his cheek. Without thinking, I put my hand on his face, wiping his tear at the same time. Ohno froze but let me did. "You shouldn't cry, you're more beautiful when you smile." I said, tears filling my eyes too.
"Thank you, Sakurai-san." Ohno tried to make a little smile.
"Call me Sho. Now, we must think about happiest subjects." I released his cheek, my heart fluttering when I thought Ohno let me touched him for the first time. A new trust settled between us but I knew it was just the beginning.
"Can you draw something?" I asked. Ohno smiled and nodded, taking his stuff in his bag.
During, two hours, I stared at him. My eyes were glued on his face, his beautiful hands and I thought there was nothing as beautiful as him when he drew. Ohno had a very serious and concentrate look, his hands were moving very quickly. Sometimes, Satoshi frowned his nose or bit his lower lip when he wasn't satisfied and these reactions made me smile tenderly. Suddenly, my phone buzzed, breaking this magic moment and I almost shouted when I answered.
"Moshi mosh?"
"Sho, where are you? You left since three hours now, I thought you might be quick." Yusuke yelled.
"Gomen ne, Yu, I was working, I come back, now."
"Hurry up, lunch is already ready!" Yu said coldly and cut the line.
"I'm sorry, Ohchan, I have to go." I apologized to Ohno who was staring at me since the beginning.
He shook his head with a smile and I stood up. But I didn't see the tear escaping his eye when I left.
****
"I'm sorry, Yu." I repeated again to my boyfriend who was looking at me with furious eyes.
"You promised, Sho." Yu simply said.
"I know, Yu and I'm sorry."
"Sometimes, I think your work is more important than me." Yusuke looked at me with sadness and I hugged him tightly.
"No, never. You're the most important to me, I love you. I'm sorry." I whispered, kissing his neck. Yu moaned and wrapped his arms around me, smacking our lips together. It was true, I loved him, but since his betrayal, something was broken between us. Anger was still inside me when I fucked him, when I saw him in our bed, when he moaned loudly because of my hard thrusts. I couldn't erase the view of him and this bastard, it was an obsession. I could smell his scent in our sheets even if I knew it was my imagination. And to be honest, I felt hatred toward Yusuke. I hated him for his betrayal, for making me suffer so much. I couldn't really forgive him for what he did to me. He had stolen my pride, my trust and my love this day. But I still loved him and I would try to give him a second chance. I felt guilty because it was my fault, I worked too much and he felt lonely.
"Sho~" Yu moaned in my ear and, coming back to reality, I continued to thrust inside him, smacking our lips together to swallow our moans.
I was fucking him since two hours, trying to show him that I was sorry.
"Sho!!!" Yu shouted, releasing himself and I collapsed next to him, breathing heavily. "It was amazing." My boyfriend rolled on my chest and kissed my lips.
"Yes." I smiled, hugging him.
We fell asleep quickly after that. When I woke up, I immediately took my laptop to make more research about Asperger's syndrome. Yusuke frowned when he saw me but didn't say anything.
****
"Ohchan!!" I cried and Ohno smiled when he saw me running toward him.
"Ohayou, Sho-kun." He said in his usual shy tone.
"I'm so happy to see you!" I smiled brightly.
"Ano, Sho-kun?" Ohno looked at me, blushing deeply.
"Hun?"
"I... I-have so-mething fo-r you."
"Really?!" I exclaimed happily. Ohno nodded and held me out something.
My eyes widened when I saw his present. It was a painting of me. I was drawing in front of the sea with a concentrate look. The colors were amazing and the painting seemed so real. You could feel all my feelings when you looked at it.
"It's..." I lost my words, tears filling my eyes.
"You don't like?" Ohno looked at me with sadness.
"No, of course I like. I love your painting, it's very beautiful." Tears started to roll on my face.
"It makes you sad?" Ohno's voice died in his throat and without thinking, I hugged him tightly in my arms. At the beginning, Ohno froze but hugged me back slightly.
"Your painting makes me happy. I'm so glad you gave me a so beautiful present, thank you very much, Satoshi, I love it." I whispered against his neck and I could feel his smile. "Thanks." I repeated and kissed his forehead.
Ohno blushed deeply and moved away a little. I knew he was afraid by the other's touches but I wanted to show him, I wasn't a stranger but his friend.
"I'm happy you like it, then." Ohno lowered his eyes, his face as red as a little tomato.
"I'll give you a present too, next time." I smiled.
This time, I took him back at his house and his mother made me stay with them.
"Thank you."
"Eh?"
"Toshi said to me you come everyday on the beach to see him."
"Oh, it's nothing. I like Satoshi." I smiled, blushing.
"He likes you too. He made very good progress because of you."
"Really?"
"Yes. He speaks more and he's less afraid by the outside. And he often smiles, now."
"I'm very happy to know that." I grinned and Ohno sat next to me. His mother's eyes widened when her son laid his head on my shoulder.
"Thank you so much, Sakurai-san!" She put her hands on mine, tears filling her eyes.
"Why are you crying, mama?" Ohno frowned cutely.
"Because I'm happy, dear." Satoko smiled tenderly to her son.
Suddenly, the doorbell rang and Satoko stood up to open the door.
"What are you doing here?" I heard her.
"To see my son." A male voice replied.
"He isn't your son anymore since your betrayal, get out!"
I looked at Ohno next to me and my eyes widened when I saw him. His body was shaking, tears filled his eyes.
"Satoshi." A man appeared in the sitting room.
"I told you to leave, Shouta!" Satoko snapped but the man ignored her and approached Ohno.
"Satoshi." The man tried to touch Ohno but my friend shouted in panic.
Ohno fell on his knees, grabbing his head with both hands and rocking his body, still screaming.
"I told you to leave." Satoko yelled and pushed the man away, trying to calm her son down. "Sato, baby, calm down." She whispered but Ohno scratched her arm and ran away.
"Get out!!!" Satoko yelled.
"Satoko-chan..." The man started but I cut him, putting my hand on his shoulder.
"She asked you to leave." I looked at him with cold eyes and the man left the house.
Satoko rushed in Ohno's bedroom and we saw him in a corner of his room, crying loudly and biting his arm while his body was rocking backward and forward.
"Satoshi." Satoko tried to touch her son but Ohno screamed and bit his nape harder, blood leaving his cut.
"Sato-kun." I kneeled in front of him and stroked his cheek but he scratched my hand and bit his arm again. "Satoshi, it's enough!!" I shouted and Ohno froze, looking at me with teary eyes. I wrapped him in my arms and rocked him. Ohno bit my shoulder but I tightened my grip around him, trying to ignore the pain.
"Calm down, Satoshi, I'm here, calm down." I stroked his head while my friend bit my nape. I tried to keep my screams because of the pain. His teeth were sinking in my shoulder, blood rolling on my nape. I could feel Ohno's tears wetting my shirt and it hurt, it hurt so much to think someone could make him suffer like that. "I'm here for you, Satoshi. I'll always be there for you. I promise I'll protect you now. Don't be afraid, I'm here." I kissed his head and Satoshi released my shoulder.
"Sho-chan." He looked at me with teary eyes and buried his face in my neck, crying loudly.
"Yes, Toshi, I'm here." I rocked him in my arms and after a while, he fell asleep. I carried him in my arms and laid him in his bed.
"Who was this man?" I asked to Satoko.
"My ex husband, Satoshi's father."
"Why Sato was so afraid?"
"We discovered Sato had Asperger's syndrome when he was 9 years old but my husband didn't accept it. He said he didn't want a freak as a son and tried to raise him like a normal child. But when Satoshi was 13 years old, Shouta started to be violent. If Toshi acted in a different way than the others or made his crisis, my husband beat him and locked him in a dark room during lots of hours, that's why Toshi is afraid by the small rooms and the dark. I was afraid by my husband and I found the courage to leave him when my son was 16 years old. It took many years to Satoshi to overcome his trauma but as you've seen it earlier, he panics if he sees his father." Satoko explained with a weak voice.
"His own father did that." I growled, anger invading my heart.
"And his own mother let him did during three years."
"It's not your fault, you were afraid." I said softly.
"No, I have none excuse, I let this monster hurt my baby."
"I think Satoshi wouldn't like to see you blame yourself like that."
"Sakurai-san, promise me you'll never hurt my baby, promise me you'll always be there for him." She looked at me with teary eyes and I smiled softly.
"Of course. But I don't understand this syndrome."
"In reality, Satoshi hasn't got a true Asperger syndrome. People who have an Asperger syndrome can't understand what is a feeling."
"Eh?"
"Their brain is like a machine, they are very clever but they don't know what a feeling is. For example, they don't realize if they make you sad or hurt you that's why they suffer so much, if they see you crying because of them it hurts them because they don't understand why. They don't know what is love and are afraid when there are too much people around them. If you want to understand what Asperger really is, you can read the story of Temple Grandin. She had an Asperger syndrome and it took a lot of years for her to heal her syndrome, it's extremely complicated."
"But Satoshi doesn't seem to be like that." I said, lost.
"Yes, he isn't. He just shows some troubles of Asperger. He is afraid by people, he makes big crisis when all overwhelmed him, he can draw something he just has seen once or read. It's not a real Asperger but his psychologist told us he had some troubles similar to Asperger, we can't really explain what he really has."
"Does he know what is a feeling?" I asked, a bit afraid.
"Yes but he doesn't know how to react, he is easily overwhelmed and strong noise drives him crazy. And when he makes his crisis, he doesn't realize he can hurt you or himself." Satoko explained.
"It's complicated."
"I know. But you just have to know, my son starts to discover new feelings because of you, he changed lots."
****
When I came back home, I found Yusuke crying on our sofa and before I can ask, he threw a lot of pictures on the table. Pictures of Satoshi and me.
"I knew you hid me something. I knew it wasn't for your work you came back home so late." Yu sobbed.
"Yu, I can explain."
"Who's he?"
"A friend."
"Really? You don't have already put your cock in his asshole." Yu smirked and I slapped his face.
"No, I didn't. Satoshi is my friend, he is different than the other, he has Asperger's syndrome and he let me touched his arm after one month. And plus, I'm not like you, I don't sleep with the first I meet." I snapped with cold eyes, Yusuke looking at me with wide eyes.
"You prefer your new friend than your own boyfriend?"
"No, it's just I need him and he needs me."
"Why?"
"Because he was there when I found you with this bastard, he was there when I think all my life was a lie. And today, I'm here for him."
"You know, I regret what I did this day. It's the biggest mistake of my life. I'm everyday grateful to Kami-sama because you stayed with me and that's why I'll not let this guy steal my boyfriend from me."
"Eh?"
"Our luggage’s are ready, we leave Tokyo in three hours."
"What???!!! What are you talking about?!" I exclaimed, shocked.
"I take you for a trip. We are going to Paris for two weeks."
"I can't." I replied, panic invading my body.
"I don't let you the choice, Sho. If you refuse, it's over." Yu looked at me with serious eyes and I gulped. What could I do? If I left Tokyo, I left Satoshi but if I refused, my boyfriend will break with me.
"So, what is your answer?" Yusuke asked.
To be continued...
A/N: Well, I'm sorry for the cut xD and to be honest, I hate Yusuke too, how Sho can be so weak with his boyfrien? XD Love make us very stupid XD