Chandelier (chapter 9)
Title: Chandelier
Author: Matsuaurore
Banner: My lovely Antimiya88 <3
Pairing: Ohmiya, Junba, Sakumoto
Genre: Au, angst, romance, drama, violence
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Disclaimer: Only own the plot though, I wish I could own them xD
Summary: Nino is a young man who is physically abused by his boyfriend for years but seems determined to cope with this horrible life until he meets Ohno, a weird man who will show him how wonderful life can be.
Chapter 9:
Because of Nagase's contacts, they finally managed to locate Ichirou who seemed to hide in a deserted house lost in a dark street far away from the town. “Here we are, my friend’s quarters are not far and they told me Ichirou had been seen by the security camera around his house. It’s the only abandoned house so, we should find him inside if we are lucky.” Nagase whispered.
"Thank you, Tomo..." Jun took Nagase's hand with a small smile.
"I never lied when I broke up with you." Nagase cupped Jun's cheeks. "I'm not a good man, Jun. I have blood on my hands and I did lots of things I'm not proud of. I know some powerful yakuza and I couldn't accept the idea of putting you in danger... I refuse to lose you..." The boss sighed and pulled Jun in a hug. "The five years we were together will stay the best years of my life. I think I will never overcome our break up... It was my biggest mistake to let you go instead of stopping my business..."
"Tomo..."
"We have to find Nino, now..." Nagase pecked Jun's lips and pulled away, smirking when his eyes met Aiba's jealous ones, the host almost ready to jump on him like a wolf wanting to kill his prey. A black car stopped next to them, two men leaving it and nodding to Nagase.
"Tomo?"
"My friend lent me his two best men to help us. We don't know if Ichirou is alone and if he is armed. We better be careful if we want Nino alive and safe..."
Nagase made a sign to the men who nodded and quietly entered the garden to enter the house from behind while the others took the main entry.
"It's too quiet." Nagase whispered but Ohno growled and entered the house quickly, hoping to find Nino in a good state. The house was dark and abnormally quiet. Were they really here or was it a mistake?
"Kazu!!!" Ohno cried, seeing Nino on the ground of the living room, unconscious. The singer ran toward him, kneeling down to take him in his arms and froze when a cold gun met his temple.
"You really thought it would be so easy?" Ichirou smirked.
"Let him go. You've destroyed him enough." Ohno said coldly.
"He is my toy. I do what I want. I even can fuck him right in front of you." Ichirou smirked, stroking Nino's butt and making him moan and shiver.
"Don't touch him." Ohno growled, trying to move but the gun on his temple remembered him to stay still.
"Or what? You'll slap my butt? You've never been able to protect him and that's where it led. He is mine so, be a kind boy and leave."
In the corridor, Nagase made a sign to the men and turned toward Jun whose face had paled, his body shaking, drop of sweat rolling down his temples.
"Jun?" Nagase whispered.
Jun held his head, trying not to moan in pain and falling on his knees as if someone had punched him in the stomach.
"Aiba, made him leave now." Nagase ordered. The host nodded without arguing, taking Jun in his arms and out of the house as silently as possible, wondering what was happening to his ex-lover though, Aiba had an idea about what was distressing Jun.
"Jun? Jun are you okay?" Aiba asked worriedly once outside. The younger had started to shake and cry uncontrollably, letting the host wrap him in his arms. "Calm down... Calm down my love..."
“He is here…” Jun moaned incoherently, shaking in fear and curling in a ball.
“What do you mean? Who is here? We’re alone, Jun.”
“The skeleton… he is here to kill me…” Jun started to struggle in Aiba’s arms, sinking his nails in the older’s arms and making him bit his lip in pain.
“Nobody is here, my love. I’m here for you… I’ll always protect you, I promise… calm down…” Aiba rocked him softly, kissing his temple.
****
"So, you really want to watch a live porn? So pervert~" Ichirou opened his jeans with a devil smile.
"I swear I'm going to kill you myself!" Ohno snapped, making a step toward him.
"No no no~" Ichirou raised his gun. "You're going to watch~ and to be sure you won't make something stupid, it's not you that I'll kill if you try anything." Ichirou pointed his gun toward Nino who was awake and was looking at him with terrified eyes, his body trembling violently. The host curled in a ball, not believing this was happening again despite his escape. How Ichirou had managed to find him so quickly? What was he going to do to punish him for his rebellion? Nino stared at Ohno with terrified eyes, tears starting to roll down his cheeks. Why does this situation seemed so familiar? Why does his body was trying to make him run away despite the gun pointed toward him? It was as if all his cells were in alert and tried to make him remember that staying would be worse than dying from a bullet.
"Ichirou...no...Why?" Nino stammered. His lover had always been rough but never before Ichirou had threatened him to really kill him.
"You're just good to be fucked like a doll, Nino. Nothing more. Now, be a good boy and give me your ass or you’ll lose the most important person of your life." Nino’s face paled and the host gasped, holding his head with a moan. Why Ichirou’s words seemed so familiar again? This sentence… Nino had already heard the same sentence before but couldn’t remember when and why.
"Kazu, please... Don't listen to him... Leave while I take care of this bastard, don’t worry, I’ll be fine." Ohno implored with fear, trying to catch Nino’s look and to convince him but the younger avoided his eyes and lowered his head with a sigh.
"Ichirou is right... You should leave... I'm just good to be fucked..."
"No! I won't leave without you!" Ohno shook his head and made a step toward Ichirou who raised his gun and shot next to Ohno's feet.
"Please Ichirou, stop!!" Nino cried, standing up weakly.
"Make him leave then."
"Satoshi... Please..." Nino implored.
"I prefer to die than to abandon you." Ohno said coldly, his fists clenching. And ignoring the fear eating his heart, the older made a step toward Ichirou who shot in his arm under Nino’s scream.
“Satoshi!!!” Nino ran toward his friend, hugging him tightly. “Baka… Leave before he kills you.”
“Never.” Ohno smiled, putting his bloody hand on Nino’s cheek. “Dying is better than losing you again. I swear it’s over, he is going to pay for what he did to you and your family.”
"Oh and what are you going to do?" Ichirou smirked.
"Me? Nothing. But them, a lot~" Ohno chuckled, pointing two shadows in the stairs.
"Wh..." Ichirou gasped when a bullet touched his leg, making him fall on the ground.
"It's over now." Ohno smiled, stroking Nino's hair. “Kazunari?” Ohno stared at Nino with worried eyes. The younger’s face was closed, his eyes darks and cold. The host’s body had stopped to shake and a dangerous aura was emanating from it. “Kazu… don’t do that.” Satoshi whispered, understanding in one second what his friend was about to do.
"No. It's not over." Nino pushed him away and limped toward Ichirou, taking the gun on the ground.
"You won't dare." Ichirou smirked. "You're mine. Just an ass good to be fucked. Let's leave now and I'll forgive you everything."
"I'm not your toy. Not anymore." Nino snapped with cold eyes before shooting Ichirou right between his eyes without any hesitation. His lover’s corpse fell on the ground silently, a cold silence invading the room before everybody blinked and rushed toward them.
"Kazu... Give me that gun..." Ohno said softly, putting his hand on Nino's arm. The younger stared at him with lost eyes and let the gun fall on the ground before collapsing, unconscious. Ohno raised him in his arms and left the house, followed by Nagase and the men. Without a word, Satoshi laid Nino in the car and turned toward the others. "Thank you. Because of you, he is finally free. I... Thank you so much..."
"You're welcome. I'll send you my personal doctor to examine him..." Nagase smiled. "And... Why have you let him kill this bastard? My men will cover everything but it maybe would have been better if Ichirou had been sent in jail...."
"Because Kazu would have never lived in peace if Ichirou had survived. He would have lived in the fear that maybe someday, this bastard would find him again. Now, he will be able to start over... With some help of course..."
"We will come to see him..." Jun said softly, looking calm since the little group had joined them and Ohno wondered what had happened to put him in this state and what Aiba had done to appease him.
"Thank you... And good luck to you two..." Ohno smiled before climbing in the car.
"Do you think Nino will be okay?" Aiba asked.
"With what he went through, it's gonna be very hard for him to overcome his traumas... I don’t even understand what really happened to him." Jun sighed. "Let's go home, Sho is waiting for me." The younger added before climbing in the car.
Nagase patted Aiba's shoulder with an apologetic smile. "He made a crisis again... I think this time he is going to find out the truth... maybe we should tell him…"
"Can't we force him to forget this idea of wanting to remember?"
"It's impossible and you know it. We can't protect him forever..." Nagase sighed.
"He can't find out the truth. I refuse to lose him once again." Aiba snapped and climbed in the car.
Nagase sighed and shook his head. This situation was going to turn very bad for sure. Soon, Jun would remember and the truth behind this mess was going to destroy everybody definitely this time. “If only I had protected you… I’m so sorry Souta…”
****
Ohno stroked Nino's hair, singing softly. He had spent the night holding his hand and watching over him after the doctor's start. The man had given Nino a sedative to stop his crisis and let him take some rest since the host couldn't stop screaming and crying in his sleep. What were they going to do now? Nino was so broken, so fragile that Ohno wondered if it would ever be possible to appease him. And if the younger didn't manage to overcome his traumas? If he tried to stop his life? If Nino didn’t forgive him and decided to disappear of his life…
“You are the one boy, and you know that it's true; I'm feeling younger, every time that I'm alone with you. We were sitting in a parked car, stealing kisses in the front yard; we got questions we should not ask but… How would you feel, if I told you I loved you? It's just something that I want to do, I'll be taking my time, spending my life; falling deeper in love with you… So tell me that you love me too..." Ohno sang softly, stroking Nino's arm tenderly. Exhausted, the older fell asleep, hugging his friend tightly as if he wanted to protect him from everything.
****
"Listen to me. Close your eyes and concentrate on my voice." Sho said softly. Jun nodded and obeyed, trying to follow the older's orders as much as possible. They had spent a torrid night after Jun had ran to him, feeling too bad to stay alone. The bartender couldn't stop thinking about Nino's kidnapping, his head almost exploding in pain and his body shaking in fear. It had taken hours for Sho to calm down the younger and Jun had almost jumped on him to have sex. The psychologist knew it was only a way to release his stress but had agreed to follow Jun's wish if it could appease him.
After some hours of sleep, Jun had implored him to hypnotize him, wanting to understand what everybody seemed to hide him.
"Now, just concentrate on my voice, nothing else. I'll ask you to think about the past, when you were a child. Remember your mother, your father. Think about their faces... How they were with you..."
"My mother... She was... Very soft... Her hair was long... It looked like silk... I loved to stroke it... She loved to kiss me and hug me... I loved her..."
"Good. Now, your father. Tell me about him..."
"He was severe... But kind... He was strict about politeness... Every Sunday, he took me with him to play baseball... It was fun... And... There was my sister... We got along very well... She was kind... And shy..."
"Tell me how your life with them was."
"Happy... I felt loved... Until they all died..." Tears started to roll down Jun's cheeks.
"How?"
"There was a bus... The driver had fallen asleep and the bus crashed into our car... I... I cried... It hurt... There was blood everywhere... I... My mother was laid on the road... She was... Bleeding so much... My father... His arm was on the ground... His body in the car... I..."
"Okay it's enough for today." Sho said softly. "Now, you're going to open your eyes and concentrate on the present. Here. Now."
Jun opened his eyes, sobbing. "Why did you want to make me remember this scene?! It haunts me since I’m a child!"
"It's needed. I'm sorry it was a bit too much."
"You better be." Jun snapped. "I need some air." The bartender stood up and left quickly, taking his keys and running to Aiba's apartment. His ex-lover wouldn't be here but he needed a place where he felt good and appeased. Yuki barked at the noise of the door and jumped happily when Jun's face appeared.
"Hey my baby..." Jun raised him in his arms, laughing when the puppy licked his face. "You've grown up, boy." Yuki whined and stroked his head against Jun's hand, shaking his fluffy tail. "I missed you too." The bartender laid on Aiba's bed, diving his head in his pillow, Yuki coming and curling against him in a ball of hair. Jun smiled and stroked him softly, his eyes scanning the bedroom. Since their break up, Aiba hadn't touched to Jun's belongings, as if the younger was still living here. As if they were still a couple. In a way, it made Jun happy but it was also painful because it meant Aiba hadn't turned the page of their story too. After having cried too much, Jun fell asleep, appeased.
****
Nino woke up with a moan, his head aching painfully as if he had drunk too much the previous night.
"Hey... You're awake..." Nino turned his head to discover a tired Ohno staring at him worriedly.
"I... Where am I?"
"In my apartment..."
"What..." Nino froze as pictures of the previous night started to come back, getting tears in his eyes, his body shaking in fear. "I've killed him."
"I..." Ohno bit his lip and nodded. "He deserved it... If you hadn't, I would have done it anyway. Kazu... You really don't remember anything?"
"What do you mean?" Nino frowned.
"About what really happened to you ten years ago. About your kidnapping by Ichirou."
"What? I wasn't kidnapped, Ichirou found me after my parents abandoned me."
"Your parents never abandoned you. Ichirou kidnapped you when you were alone at home."
"It's impossible! I remembered the whole scene!" Nino exclaimed angrily. "And why would I trust you?! You have always lied to me and now you want me to swallow everything you say?!"
"I lied to protect you. Because the first time we met, you didn't remember me. I thought taking it slow would help you to remember me. I thought being soft would help you to realize how this bastard was wrong to treat you like that. Do you think it wasn't a torture for me to let my boyfriend go back everyday to this asshole after not having seen him for ten years?! It was horrible but I hadn't the choice! I had to be patient not to make you hate me even if letting you go back to this monster was as if someone stabbed me anytime you left!"
"I can't." Nino stood up. "I can't believe in you. You would have called the police. You wouldn't have let me with him if you really loved me."
"And what would have I told them? That after ten years and a closed case, I had found you? Imaging if they had listened to me. They would have contacted you and what would you have told them? The same thing that you repeat for years! 'I'm fine, don't worry, he makes me happy' and after that, Ichirou would have taken you away from me again! You think I didn't think about everything?! The only option I had to be sure not to let you disappear again was to win your trust and make you remember." Ohno cried.
"I don't remember what you say. And after all your lies I can't trust you. You said your lover was dead!"
"And what could I say?! That you were my lover???"
"Yes."
"I did my best. You don't know what it is to go through what I did. Looking for you everywhere, praying everyday to find you, to find just a little proof you were alive. To find you and discover you didn't remember me and was abused."
"Sorry to not understand what it is. It's true that being raped and hit is easier!"
"You perfectly know I don't mean that!"
"It doesn't matter anyway." Nino put his shoes.
"Kazu, don't leave please!"
"I need to." Nino closed the door, leaving a crying Ohno.
Ten years ago...
Ohno smiled when he entered his apartment, hearing a beautiful melody played by his young lover in the living room. Like always, he was sure Nino had again spent the whole day working on a new song for him instead of doing his homework.
Satoshi chuckled at how concentrated Nino looked. His boyfriend was playing as if he was going to die, like these great pianist who played during a concert. Silently, Ohno walked toward him and sat next to him, Nino not even seeing him, too focused on the keys, his eyes closed and his mouth slightly open to whisper the notes. The older didn't move, letting his lover enjoy this moment and knowing Nino would kill him if he dared to stop his inspiration. At 15 years old, the younger was promised to a great future as a pianist and maybe a singer if he finally agreed one day to sing in front of someone else than Ohno.
After some minutes, Nino's fingers stopped and the teenager panted, sweat rolling down his temples like anytime he played with everything he had inside.
"Very good." Ohno nodded, making him jump.
"Ohchan! I hadn't seen you, you've scared me!"
"You were too focused on the piano to pay attention to me." Ohno smirked.
"Baka..." Nino pouted. "I think I've finished this one. Do you like it?"
"Yup, a lot. It will suit my voice. Thank you." Ohno kissed the younger's cheek.
"Will you give me a gift in exchange?" Nino asked innocently.
"I have already said no, Kazu..." Ohno sighed.
"But I'm ready! And I'm old enough!"
"No. You're only 15 years old. And I have promised your parents that we would wait some years. Be patient, baby." Ohno pecked the pouty lips despite his will to satisfy Nino's wish. They were dating for two years and Ohno was 3 years older than the younger, a situation that had worried a lot his lover's parents who didn't want their baby to become an adult so quickly. That's why Ohno had promised them to wait at least Nino's 17th birthday. It was hard because he wanted to form one with his boyfriend and Nino always tried to make him give up anytime he could. He had already managed to have blowjobs so, Ohno tried to resist as much as possible to hold his promise.
"The letters are on the table." Nino muttered.
"Don't be jealous, you know I won't answer." Ohno chuckled, kissing his lover's cheek.
"Maybe you will find someone better than me. An adult with whom you can sleep and have better conversations." Nino sighed.
"Kazunari..." Ohno sat next to him to hug him. "I love you so much. And forever. No one can replace you in my heart. I would die or look for you until the end of the world if I had to." Satoshi stroked Nino's cheek with a loving smile. Kazunari smiled weakly before kissing his lover with passion. Soon, the younger climbed on the older's lap and started to undulate, making Ohno gasp and pull away. "Kazu! I told you no!"
"I still could try." Nino smirked.
"Horny baka..." Ohno sighed and stood up to prepare the dinner, opening one of the envelopes left on the counter.
Ohno-san,
Thank you for your work, you always make me feel good when you sing. I love you so much! Would you like to meet me? Maybe we could try to date? <3
With love,
Your biggest fan,
Ichirou
Ohno sighed and threw the letter in the bin. He was used to receive this kind of letter and if he always tried to answer to the soft ones, he couldn't stand the letters like this one. Luckily, Nino hadn’t read it or his lover would have killed this man and him.
Weeks passed and Ohno tried to ignore the insistent letters of this Ichirou that became more and more weird. Even if the passionate words of this fan scared him a bit, what did he risk? The man didn’t know him and it was only stupid letters from a person who couldn’t make the difference between dream and reality.
But Ohno hadn’t realized that ignoring this fan would be the biggest mistake of his life and would totally destroy his heart.
A/N: Hi! Again, I’m posting late but I don’t even know if someone is still reading this fic :/ So, now, we can say Nino is completely safe with Ichirou’s death (and yes, Ohno decided to let Kazunari kill the bastard because he thought he needed it). I had some problems to write this chapter because it was hard to describe the kidnapping scene in the house. I have lost my inspiration for this story and it’s complicated to end it ><
So, Nino doesn’t remember despite Ohno’s words, that’s why he doesn’t trust him (who would? It’s really hard to discover all that). In the next chapter, you will know everything about what happened to Nino ten years ago and why Ohno and the parents didn’t manage to find our dear gamer. I don’t know if you will have Junba back or if it will be a full Ohmiya chapter but I hope there are still some readers who follow this fic, if not, I’m writing it for nothing and it would be sad xD See you soon for the next chapter J
Author: Matsuaurore
Banner: My lovely Antimiya88 <3
Pairing: Ohmiya, Junba, Sakumoto
Genre: Au, angst, romance, drama, violence
Rating: PG-13 to NC-17
Disclaimer: Only own the plot though, I wish I could own them xD
Summary: Nino is a young man who is physically abused by his boyfriend for years but seems determined to cope with this horrible life until he meets Ohno, a weird man who will show him how wonderful life can be.
Chapter 9:
Because of Nagase's contacts, they finally managed to locate Ichirou who seemed to hide in a deserted house lost in a dark street far away from the town. “Here we are, my friend’s quarters are not far and they told me Ichirou had been seen by the security camera around his house. It’s the only abandoned house so, we should find him inside if we are lucky.” Nagase whispered.
"Thank you, Tomo..." Jun took Nagase's hand with a small smile.
"I never lied when I broke up with you." Nagase cupped Jun's cheeks. "I'm not a good man, Jun. I have blood on my hands and I did lots of things I'm not proud of. I know some powerful yakuza and I couldn't accept the idea of putting you in danger... I refuse to lose you..." The boss sighed and pulled Jun in a hug. "The five years we were together will stay the best years of my life. I think I will never overcome our break up... It was my biggest mistake to let you go instead of stopping my business..."
"Tomo..."
"We have to find Nino, now..." Nagase pecked Jun's lips and pulled away, smirking when his eyes met Aiba's jealous ones, the host almost ready to jump on him like a wolf wanting to kill his prey. A black car stopped next to them, two men leaving it and nodding to Nagase.
"Tomo?"
"My friend lent me his two best men to help us. We don't know if Ichirou is alone and if he is armed. We better be careful if we want Nino alive and safe..."
Nagase made a sign to the men who nodded and quietly entered the garden to enter the house from behind while the others took the main entry.
"It's too quiet." Nagase whispered but Ohno growled and entered the house quickly, hoping to find Nino in a good state. The house was dark and abnormally quiet. Were they really here or was it a mistake?
"Kazu!!!" Ohno cried, seeing Nino on the ground of the living room, unconscious. The singer ran toward him, kneeling down to take him in his arms and froze when a cold gun met his temple.
"You really thought it would be so easy?" Ichirou smirked.
"Let him go. You've destroyed him enough." Ohno said coldly.
"He is my toy. I do what I want. I even can fuck him right in front of you." Ichirou smirked, stroking Nino's butt and making him moan and shiver.
"Don't touch him." Ohno growled, trying to move but the gun on his temple remembered him to stay still.
"Or what? You'll slap my butt? You've never been able to protect him and that's where it led. He is mine so, be a kind boy and leave."
In the corridor, Nagase made a sign to the men and turned toward Jun whose face had paled, his body shaking, drop of sweat rolling down his temples.
"Jun?" Nagase whispered.
Jun held his head, trying not to moan in pain and falling on his knees as if someone had punched him in the stomach.
"Aiba, made him leave now." Nagase ordered. The host nodded without arguing, taking Jun in his arms and out of the house as silently as possible, wondering what was happening to his ex-lover though, Aiba had an idea about what was distressing Jun.
"Jun? Jun are you okay?" Aiba asked worriedly once outside. The younger had started to shake and cry uncontrollably, letting the host wrap him in his arms. "Calm down... Calm down my love..."
“He is here…” Jun moaned incoherently, shaking in fear and curling in a ball.
“What do you mean? Who is here? We’re alone, Jun.”
“The skeleton… he is here to kill me…” Jun started to struggle in Aiba’s arms, sinking his nails in the older’s arms and making him bit his lip in pain.
“Nobody is here, my love. I’m here for you… I’ll always protect you, I promise… calm down…” Aiba rocked him softly, kissing his temple.
****
"So, you really want to watch a live porn? So pervert~" Ichirou opened his jeans with a devil smile.
"I swear I'm going to kill you myself!" Ohno snapped, making a step toward him.
"No no no~" Ichirou raised his gun. "You're going to watch~ and to be sure you won't make something stupid, it's not you that I'll kill if you try anything." Ichirou pointed his gun toward Nino who was awake and was looking at him with terrified eyes, his body trembling violently. The host curled in a ball, not believing this was happening again despite his escape. How Ichirou had managed to find him so quickly? What was he going to do to punish him for his rebellion? Nino stared at Ohno with terrified eyes, tears starting to roll down his cheeks. Why does this situation seemed so familiar? Why does his body was trying to make him run away despite the gun pointed toward him? It was as if all his cells were in alert and tried to make him remember that staying would be worse than dying from a bullet.
"Ichirou...no...Why?" Nino stammered. His lover had always been rough but never before Ichirou had threatened him to really kill him.
"You're just good to be fucked like a doll, Nino. Nothing more. Now, be a good boy and give me your ass or you’ll lose the most important person of your life." Nino’s face paled and the host gasped, holding his head with a moan. Why Ichirou’s words seemed so familiar again? This sentence… Nino had already heard the same sentence before but couldn’t remember when and why.
"Kazu, please... Don't listen to him... Leave while I take care of this bastard, don’t worry, I’ll be fine." Ohno implored with fear, trying to catch Nino’s look and to convince him but the younger avoided his eyes and lowered his head with a sigh.
"Ichirou is right... You should leave... I'm just good to be fucked..."
"No! I won't leave without you!" Ohno shook his head and made a step toward Ichirou who raised his gun and shot next to Ohno's feet.
"Please Ichirou, stop!!" Nino cried, standing up weakly.
"Make him leave then."
"Satoshi... Please..." Nino implored.
"I prefer to die than to abandon you." Ohno said coldly, his fists clenching. And ignoring the fear eating his heart, the older made a step toward Ichirou who shot in his arm under Nino’s scream.
“Satoshi!!!” Nino ran toward his friend, hugging him tightly. “Baka… Leave before he kills you.”
“Never.” Ohno smiled, putting his bloody hand on Nino’s cheek. “Dying is better than losing you again. I swear it’s over, he is going to pay for what he did to you and your family.”
"Oh and what are you going to do?" Ichirou smirked.
"Me? Nothing. But them, a lot~" Ohno chuckled, pointing two shadows in the stairs.
"Wh..." Ichirou gasped when a bullet touched his leg, making him fall on the ground.
"It's over now." Ohno smiled, stroking Nino's hair. “Kazunari?” Ohno stared at Nino with worried eyes. The younger’s face was closed, his eyes darks and cold. The host’s body had stopped to shake and a dangerous aura was emanating from it. “Kazu… don’t do that.” Satoshi whispered, understanding in one second what his friend was about to do.
"No. It's not over." Nino pushed him away and limped toward Ichirou, taking the gun on the ground.
"You won't dare." Ichirou smirked. "You're mine. Just an ass good to be fucked. Let's leave now and I'll forgive you everything."
"I'm not your toy. Not anymore." Nino snapped with cold eyes before shooting Ichirou right between his eyes without any hesitation. His lover’s corpse fell on the ground silently, a cold silence invading the room before everybody blinked and rushed toward them.
"Kazu... Give me that gun..." Ohno said softly, putting his hand on Nino's arm. The younger stared at him with lost eyes and let the gun fall on the ground before collapsing, unconscious. Ohno raised him in his arms and left the house, followed by Nagase and the men. Without a word, Satoshi laid Nino in the car and turned toward the others. "Thank you. Because of you, he is finally free. I... Thank you so much..."
"You're welcome. I'll send you my personal doctor to examine him..." Nagase smiled. "And... Why have you let him kill this bastard? My men will cover everything but it maybe would have been better if Ichirou had been sent in jail...."
"Because Kazu would have never lived in peace if Ichirou had survived. He would have lived in the fear that maybe someday, this bastard would find him again. Now, he will be able to start over... With some help of course..."
"We will come to see him..." Jun said softly, looking calm since the little group had joined them and Ohno wondered what had happened to put him in this state and what Aiba had done to appease him.
"Thank you... And good luck to you two..." Ohno smiled before climbing in the car.
"Do you think Nino will be okay?" Aiba asked.
"With what he went through, it's gonna be very hard for him to overcome his traumas... I don’t even understand what really happened to him." Jun sighed. "Let's go home, Sho is waiting for me." The younger added before climbing in the car.
Nagase patted Aiba's shoulder with an apologetic smile. "He made a crisis again... I think this time he is going to find out the truth... maybe we should tell him…"
"Can't we force him to forget this idea of wanting to remember?"
"It's impossible and you know it. We can't protect him forever..." Nagase sighed.
"He can't find out the truth. I refuse to lose him once again." Aiba snapped and climbed in the car.
Nagase sighed and shook his head. This situation was going to turn very bad for sure. Soon, Jun would remember and the truth behind this mess was going to destroy everybody definitely this time. “If only I had protected you… I’m so sorry Souta…”
****
Ohno stroked Nino's hair, singing softly. He had spent the night holding his hand and watching over him after the doctor's start. The man had given Nino a sedative to stop his crisis and let him take some rest since the host couldn't stop screaming and crying in his sleep. What were they going to do now? Nino was so broken, so fragile that Ohno wondered if it would ever be possible to appease him. And if the younger didn't manage to overcome his traumas? If he tried to stop his life? If Nino didn’t forgive him and decided to disappear of his life…
“You are the one boy, and you know that it's true; I'm feeling younger, every time that I'm alone with you. We were sitting in a parked car, stealing kisses in the front yard; we got questions we should not ask but… How would you feel, if I told you I loved you? It's just something that I want to do, I'll be taking my time, spending my life; falling deeper in love with you… So tell me that you love me too..." Ohno sang softly, stroking Nino's arm tenderly. Exhausted, the older fell asleep, hugging his friend tightly as if he wanted to protect him from everything.
****
"Listen to me. Close your eyes and concentrate on my voice." Sho said softly. Jun nodded and obeyed, trying to follow the older's orders as much as possible. They had spent a torrid night after Jun had ran to him, feeling too bad to stay alone. The bartender couldn't stop thinking about Nino's kidnapping, his head almost exploding in pain and his body shaking in fear. It had taken hours for Sho to calm down the younger and Jun had almost jumped on him to have sex. The psychologist knew it was only a way to release his stress but had agreed to follow Jun's wish if it could appease him.
After some hours of sleep, Jun had implored him to hypnotize him, wanting to understand what everybody seemed to hide him.
"Now, just concentrate on my voice, nothing else. I'll ask you to think about the past, when you were a child. Remember your mother, your father. Think about their faces... How they were with you..."
"My mother... She was... Very soft... Her hair was long... It looked like silk... I loved to stroke it... She loved to kiss me and hug me... I loved her..."
"Good. Now, your father. Tell me about him..."
"He was severe... But kind... He was strict about politeness... Every Sunday, he took me with him to play baseball... It was fun... And... There was my sister... We got along very well... She was kind... And shy..."
"Tell me how your life with them was."
"Happy... I felt loved... Until they all died..." Tears started to roll down Jun's cheeks.
"How?"
"There was a bus... The driver had fallen asleep and the bus crashed into our car... I... I cried... It hurt... There was blood everywhere... I... My mother was laid on the road... She was... Bleeding so much... My father... His arm was on the ground... His body in the car... I..."
"Okay it's enough for today." Sho said softly. "Now, you're going to open your eyes and concentrate on the present. Here. Now."
Jun opened his eyes, sobbing. "Why did you want to make me remember this scene?! It haunts me since I’m a child!"
"It's needed. I'm sorry it was a bit too much."
"You better be." Jun snapped. "I need some air." The bartender stood up and left quickly, taking his keys and running to Aiba's apartment. His ex-lover wouldn't be here but he needed a place where he felt good and appeased. Yuki barked at the noise of the door and jumped happily when Jun's face appeared.
"Hey my baby..." Jun raised him in his arms, laughing when the puppy licked his face. "You've grown up, boy." Yuki whined and stroked his head against Jun's hand, shaking his fluffy tail. "I missed you too." The bartender laid on Aiba's bed, diving his head in his pillow, Yuki coming and curling against him in a ball of hair. Jun smiled and stroked him softly, his eyes scanning the bedroom. Since their break up, Aiba hadn't touched to Jun's belongings, as if the younger was still living here. As if they were still a couple. In a way, it made Jun happy but it was also painful because it meant Aiba hadn't turned the page of their story too. After having cried too much, Jun fell asleep, appeased.
****
Nino woke up with a moan, his head aching painfully as if he had drunk too much the previous night.
"Hey... You're awake..." Nino turned his head to discover a tired Ohno staring at him worriedly.
"I... Where am I?"
"In my apartment..."
"What..." Nino froze as pictures of the previous night started to come back, getting tears in his eyes, his body shaking in fear. "I've killed him."
"I..." Ohno bit his lip and nodded. "He deserved it... If you hadn't, I would have done it anyway. Kazu... You really don't remember anything?"
"What do you mean?" Nino frowned.
"About what really happened to you ten years ago. About your kidnapping by Ichirou."
"What? I wasn't kidnapped, Ichirou found me after my parents abandoned me."
"Your parents never abandoned you. Ichirou kidnapped you when you were alone at home."
"It's impossible! I remembered the whole scene!" Nino exclaimed angrily. "And why would I trust you?! You have always lied to me and now you want me to swallow everything you say?!"
"I lied to protect you. Because the first time we met, you didn't remember me. I thought taking it slow would help you to remember me. I thought being soft would help you to realize how this bastard was wrong to treat you like that. Do you think it wasn't a torture for me to let my boyfriend go back everyday to this asshole after not having seen him for ten years?! It was horrible but I hadn't the choice! I had to be patient not to make you hate me even if letting you go back to this monster was as if someone stabbed me anytime you left!"
"I can't." Nino stood up. "I can't believe in you. You would have called the police. You wouldn't have let me with him if you really loved me."
"And what would have I told them? That after ten years and a closed case, I had found you? Imaging if they had listened to me. They would have contacted you and what would you have told them? The same thing that you repeat for years! 'I'm fine, don't worry, he makes me happy' and after that, Ichirou would have taken you away from me again! You think I didn't think about everything?! The only option I had to be sure not to let you disappear again was to win your trust and make you remember." Ohno cried.
"I don't remember what you say. And after all your lies I can't trust you. You said your lover was dead!"
"And what could I say?! That you were my lover???"
"Yes."
"I did my best. You don't know what it is to go through what I did. Looking for you everywhere, praying everyday to find you, to find just a little proof you were alive. To find you and discover you didn't remember me and was abused."
"Sorry to not understand what it is. It's true that being raped and hit is easier!"
"You perfectly know I don't mean that!"
"It doesn't matter anyway." Nino put his shoes.
"Kazu, don't leave please!"
"I need to." Nino closed the door, leaving a crying Ohno.
Ten years ago...
Ohno smiled when he entered his apartment, hearing a beautiful melody played by his young lover in the living room. Like always, he was sure Nino had again spent the whole day working on a new song for him instead of doing his homework.
Satoshi chuckled at how concentrated Nino looked. His boyfriend was playing as if he was going to die, like these great pianist who played during a concert. Silently, Ohno walked toward him and sat next to him, Nino not even seeing him, too focused on the keys, his eyes closed and his mouth slightly open to whisper the notes. The older didn't move, letting his lover enjoy this moment and knowing Nino would kill him if he dared to stop his inspiration. At 15 years old, the younger was promised to a great future as a pianist and maybe a singer if he finally agreed one day to sing in front of someone else than Ohno.
After some minutes, Nino's fingers stopped and the teenager panted, sweat rolling down his temples like anytime he played with everything he had inside.
"Very good." Ohno nodded, making him jump.
"Ohchan! I hadn't seen you, you've scared me!"
"You were too focused on the piano to pay attention to me." Ohno smirked.
"Baka..." Nino pouted. "I think I've finished this one. Do you like it?"
"Yup, a lot. It will suit my voice. Thank you." Ohno kissed the younger's cheek.
"Will you give me a gift in exchange?" Nino asked innocently.
"I have already said no, Kazu..." Ohno sighed.
"But I'm ready! And I'm old enough!"
"No. You're only 15 years old. And I have promised your parents that we would wait some years. Be patient, baby." Ohno pecked the pouty lips despite his will to satisfy Nino's wish. They were dating for two years and Ohno was 3 years older than the younger, a situation that had worried a lot his lover's parents who didn't want their baby to become an adult so quickly. That's why Ohno had promised them to wait at least Nino's 17th birthday. It was hard because he wanted to form one with his boyfriend and Nino always tried to make him give up anytime he could. He had already managed to have blowjobs so, Ohno tried to resist as much as possible to hold his promise.
"The letters are on the table." Nino muttered.
"Don't be jealous, you know I won't answer." Ohno chuckled, kissing his lover's cheek.
"Maybe you will find someone better than me. An adult with whom you can sleep and have better conversations." Nino sighed.
"Kazunari..." Ohno sat next to him to hug him. "I love you so much. And forever. No one can replace you in my heart. I would die or look for you until the end of the world if I had to." Satoshi stroked Nino's cheek with a loving smile. Kazunari smiled weakly before kissing his lover with passion. Soon, the younger climbed on the older's lap and started to undulate, making Ohno gasp and pull away. "Kazu! I told you no!"
"I still could try." Nino smirked.
"Horny baka..." Ohno sighed and stood up to prepare the dinner, opening one of the envelopes left on the counter.
Ohno-san,
Thank you for your work, you always make me feel good when you sing. I love you so much! Would you like to meet me? Maybe we could try to date? <3
With love,
Your biggest fan,
Ichirou
Ohno sighed and threw the letter in the bin. He was used to receive this kind of letter and if he always tried to answer to the soft ones, he couldn't stand the letters like this one. Luckily, Nino hadn’t read it or his lover would have killed this man and him.
Weeks passed and Ohno tried to ignore the insistent letters of this Ichirou that became more and more weird. Even if the passionate words of this fan scared him a bit, what did he risk? The man didn’t know him and it was only stupid letters from a person who couldn’t make the difference between dream and reality.
But Ohno hadn’t realized that ignoring this fan would be the biggest mistake of his life and would totally destroy his heart.
A/N: Hi! Again, I’m posting late but I don’t even know if someone is still reading this fic :/ So, now, we can say Nino is completely safe with Ichirou’s death (and yes, Ohno decided to let Kazunari kill the bastard because he thought he needed it). I had some problems to write this chapter because it was hard to describe the kidnapping scene in the house. I have lost my inspiration for this story and it’s complicated to end it ><
So, Nino doesn’t remember despite Ohno’s words, that’s why he doesn’t trust him (who would? It’s really hard to discover all that). In the next chapter, you will know everything about what happened to Nino ten years ago and why Ohno and the parents didn’t manage to find our dear gamer. I don’t know if you will have Junba back or if it will be a full Ohmiya chapter but I hope there are still some readers who follow this fic, if not, I’m writing it for nothing and it would be sad xD See you soon for the next chapter J