Crush
Title: Crush
Author: Matsuaurore
Pairing: Sakuraiba
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, angst, romance, comedy
Summary: Sho is a true seducer who puts any man he likes in his bed to throw him away the day after. When his way crosses Aiba's a beautiful dancer, Sho thinks the younger will be in his bed in the blink of an eye. But things won't happen like he predicted and maybe Sho will finally taste his own medicine.
Disclaimer: For my dear Medium-chan's birthday, Antimiya88, sorry for being so late, I hope you will like this sexy Sakuraiba <3
Based on the song, Crush
Sho's pov:
I love to seduce. Whatever the gender is. Boy or girl. I love to play. I can't stay a week without getting laid at least six times. I'm not a nymphomaniac. I just love to find a prey every night to get it in my bed. Or mostly in a hotel. I like sex, don't misunderstand me but what I like the most is this whole game you create to trick and end with what you want. Some of you would call me a bastard or even an asshole but I would just tell you I can't stand all these sappy couples who swear those fake 'forever' to their lover just to leave them or cheat on them the next day. So, maybe I play but I don't hurt the person I sleep with. No strings, just pure hot sex.
So, this is my hidden facet. The dark Sho if you prefer. The Sho by night. Because by day, I am a famous lawyer who will succeed to his respected father in the biggest lawyer's company of Japan. Sakurai&co. I'm a very good lawyer. Don't see it like arrogance but I know my strengths and my weaknesses. And in this middle, I'm a true shark. I don't care if I save someone from jail, I just want to win. Just the pleasure of winning a game. Like when I fuck. Again, some of you will say I'm a heartless person but I would just answer I'm a winner. Someone who loves challenges and always gets what he wants. I always get what I want. In bed like in work. Of course, daddy Sakurai doesn't know the Sho by night, he would kill me for daring dive my dick in an ass and believe me, my father is maybe the only person I'm scared of. And also maybe my mother. But she is like a ninja, I don't think she is really human so, it doesn't count. That's why I am always very discreet when I go out. I only choose bars whose anonymity is the master word. It's normal clubs where you meet people and fuck but without revealing the name. Like a contract. I'm known in these kinds of places but people still wants me. Well, I'm not ugly. I know it. I work hard to have a good body and to make dream. Okay, maybe I am a bit arrogant but who does it hurt? Certainly not me.
Tonight, I go to my favorite bar with my best friends, Nino, Ohno, Jun and Toma. Nino and Ohno are together since something like forever. Always in love and all lovey-dovey. Erk. And Jun and Toma for seven years. Do I envy them? No way. Being all creepy and having to sleep everyday with the same person is just... I wouldn't bear it. So, tonight we go out together, planning to drink, dance and for me, fuck random guys. For them.... I don't want to imagine what they do in their bedroom. Mostly with Nino and Ohchan who are just professional perverts.
I order my drink and sit on my favorite spot to scan the room. The club is already full but my expert eyes can always find my new prey of the night easily. I soon locate a man whose butt would turn gay a hetero. He is cute. No. Wait. Beautiful. Handsome. He has long brown hair, a cute piercing on his left ear and a pair of lips... Mama mia. I would kill to have those lips around my dick! I want him. And before the end of the night, I'll get him in my bed with my cock diving in his ass. I lick my lips in lust and make my way to the dancefloor, starting to dance with a man next to him. I catch his eyes on me for a brief second and smirk. Bingo. He has spotted me. Well, who wouldn't have? I'm sexy like hell in my black ripped jeans and my white tank top. I start to dance, moving my hips suggestively against the man-whose-name-I-don't-know-and-don't-care in front of me, throwing glances toward the beauty. A smile stretches his lips and I understand I have won. He wants me at the way his tongue runs on his full lips. I quickly forget the man who dances for me and approach the beauty.
"Hey~"
"Hello."
"Want to dance?"
"Why not~"
Oh my Goddess... He dances like a professional. Is he a stripper or what??? I stick my cock against his perfect ass, making him chuckle and start to move in a suggestive way, wrapping my arms around his thin waist. He is my apple in the Eden garden. I need to fuck him. And hard.
"What's your name, cutie?" I whisper in his ear.
"Masaki and you?" I'm surprised he doesn't know me yet. Well, you'll soon know my big dick, babe, don't worry.
"Sho."
"Nice to meet you, Sho-chan." How innocent my name sounds in his mouth... I would almost believe he is a virgin.
"Me too, cutie." I smirk when he turns around and I feel his hardness. Already so hard for me. Baby, you'll kill me tonight~ I grip his butt, palping his ass to make my claim, stroking our erections together. Our lips play, teasing each other without clearly meeting, our breaths making us shiver. He is damn hot.
"I'm thirsty."
"Come on, I'll pay you a drink." I take his hand and lead him toward the counter, devouring his neck from behind as he orders a beer. We sit on a little sofa and as he drinks, I keep discovering some parts of his skin. He has a big birthmark on his shoulder and it's sexy. "You're so hot babe~"
"You're not bad yourself..." I turn him around to make him ride me, my hands traveling from his nape to the small of his back. His lips approach mines and his teeth come to nibble my lower lip. Shit, I want to kiss him so badly. I grab his nape to catch his mouth but he pulls away as someone calls him.
"Masaki, it's time!"
"I'm coming!"
"What?" I gasp as he leaves my legs.
"Sorry, work." He kisses my forehead and leaves under my shocked eyes.
What. The. Fuck????
Holy shit, he is kidding me?!! Leaving me hard and without even a blowjob!!! But I quickly blink as the lights turn off and everybody goes next to the stage in the background of the room. My eyes widen when I see Masaki starting to dance around a barre. A stripper??!! My eyes meet his and a mischievous smile spreads his lips as he starts to undulate his body like a God. Fucking shit. I have to get him in my bed. I need his butt more than ever. I stare at him like a lion would eye its prey, almost drooling when he ends in boxer and dances against the barre. I try to catch him at the end of the show but he disappears in the blink of an eye.
I have to find him.
****
It takes me one week to find him again. I was starting to think I would never have him in my bed. It's tonight or never. My dick will finally dive in his butt!
"Masaki..." I gasp, attacking his lips. He is on my lap, undulating his hips as I finally taste his mouth. And believe me, it is worth it. They are so kissable. So...hum... A pure wonder! I grab his nape and catch his mouth properly, diving my tongue inside. He kisses like a God. I guess he also sucks like a God... My hand grabs his hair to press him against me and we kiss something like 30 minutes, ending out of breath. He is the first one I haven't put in my bed at the first meeting but it's even more exciting.
"Baby, come on, I want to fuck you..."
"Nope, I have to leave."
"What???"
"Work. Bye~" He kisses me a last time and leaves me hard again.
After that, Masaki becomes an obsession. I go to my club every night to see him but when he is here, we don't do more than kiss because he always leaves quickly. I'm becoming crazy and decide to stop this game two weeks later because yes, for once, I wonder if I'm the player or if it's him...
"Masaki, it's enough I..."
"Shttt... Come with me." He whispers while sucking my earlobe. I take his hand and follow him as we leave the club. Finally. I'll fuck him!
We stop in front of a hotel and Masaki grabs the wallet in my pocket to pay.
"Oi!"
"What? You really think I'm going to pay?" He looks at me, arching an eyebrow. Does his ass is worth 7000 ¥? I throw a last glance toward his butt. Fuck, yes. I give him my gold master card and he pays after choosing a bedroom. We almost run to the room and once inside, start to kiss with passion, my hands taking his clothes off while his almost rip my shirt. We are both so eager to form one that we skip the foreplays and I slip inside him after throwing him on the bed.
"You're big..." He whines.
"You'll get used." I pump his member to make him relax his muscles and start to fuck him hard and fast, his legs wrapping my waist while loud moans leave his mouth. He is so loud but I love it. I make him scream and beg, his nails diving in my skin, his body arching on the mattress. I won't last long. He is as tight as a virgin and drives me crazy. I have slept with lots of men but he is clearly the sexiest and the prettiest.
"Sho... Make me come... Please..."
"Masaki... You're so damn sexy!" I pump his member while taking him hard until we both come in loud moans. I collapse on my back, out of breath. Woah. Amazing. I jump when I feel him climbing on me.
"Again." His eyes are full of lust and just his look gets me hard in one second.
"Ride me." I have just the time to finish my sentence that my dick dives in his ass. I was right, his butt is wonderful. A heaven.
We spend the whole night fucking like rabbits. We have done it in many positions in the whole bedroom. I have never fucked so much and now I'm empty. I hope he didn't break my junior. But I'm just in paradise. Masaki is just a God in bed.
I wake up alone, not used to be the left one in the morning. Usually, it's me who leaves discreetly to escape to a pitiful speech about the principle of a one night-stand. I take a shower and leave to go to work, exhausted.
But something feels wrong. Yes. It's not like usually. Because even at work, I can't stop thinking about Masaki. What the fuck... All day and night, I think about him, his body, his face as he comes. And believe me, he is damn beautiful when he comes. I have to see him again.
But what a fool I was to think my usual game would work forever.
I become addicted to him. After our first night, we meet again and fuck again. Everyday. What was meant to be a night becomes more. A lot more. We don't just fuck. We talk. A lot. We go sometimes to the restaurant or the cinema, we take a cup of coffee together, laugh, talk about our lives. Masaki is fascinating. He has an incredible view of the world. He makes me laugh like no one and makes my days a lot less boring. Without realizing it, I grow attached to him. And sex with Masaki is always so wonderful. I thought I would get tired in one week but after six months, I still want him so much.
****
I touch the place next to me, still asleep and realize he has left a long moment ago.
"Masaki?" I scan my bedroom. Because yes, for several months, we fuck in my apartment. I stand up and check the rooms but he is already gone. Without knowing why, my heart tightens and I send him a message.
From: Sho
Good morning to you too!
I quickly tape my message and receive his answer almost immediately.
From: Masaki
Good morning sleeping beauty. Last night was great, see you soon for another round~
I growl at his words. Yes. ‘Fuck’.
I spend my day working on new cases but can't stay concentrate, thinking about Aiba. Anytime I think about him, I feel a deep pain piercing my heart. I don't understand why, I have never felt that before... But we need to talk. I can't stand this situation anymore.
At the end of the day, I buy something to eat at the conbini before going to the club and freeze in the middle of the shop. There is Aiba buying two bento and holding the hand of a guy I don't know.
"Hello Masaki..." I say coldly. Aiba turns toward me and smiles.
"Who is he baby?"
Baby?!
"A friend of the club. Hiroshi, this is Sho. Sho, this is Hiroshi, my boyfriend."
"Your boyfriend?" I pale at his words.
"Hum. See you later~" He smiles and leaves with the man. Is he kidding me?! He didn't even seem uncomfortable!! That bitch!
I take a quick shower at home and run to the club to get some explanations. I find him talking with a guy and grab his hand to take him to the toilets where I slam him against the door.
"Are you crazy?!"
"No, angry if you want to know. Who was this guy at the conbini?!"
"My boyfriend like I said."
"And you have a boyfriend while we date?!"
"I think you've misunderstood something, Sho. We don't date, we fuck. I am with Hiro and I fuck with you, it's as simple as that." He chuckles.
"And does he know?"
"No but it doesn't matter as it's just sex between us. I love him, not you." He shrugs.
"You're a bastard."
"Say the man who fucks different guys every night." Aiba smirks.
"I..."
"What? You were thinking we were more than sex friends? You're stupid then. You're a good fuck Sho but don't be too arrogant, you're nothing to me. Now excuse me but I have work." He smiles and leaves me under my shocked eyes. I join the room and sit in front of the scene until the music starts and Aiba appears, sexy like hell. My heart freezes when he starts to dance and sing while throwing me looks. I just feel so stupid.
I see ya blowin' me a kiss
It doesn't take a scientist
To understand what's going on baby
If you see something in my eye
Let's not over analyze
Don't go too deep with it baby
So let it be what it'll be
Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here's what I'll do
I'll play loose
Not like we have a day with destiny
And now, I understand. I was a complete fool. He used me. All these months I was just a cock on legs for him. I was here to give him orgasms, not more. And I thought there was something else between us... All these hours together were just... Nothing. I clench my fists as he looks at me with a mocking smile, happy to see me like that. Son of a bitch.
It's just a little crush (crush)
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing (crush)
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha-la-la-la, sha-la-la-la
I have never cried. Or at least never in front of someone but right now, I feel tears winning my eyes and take all my strength not to let them fall. He is making fun of me and seems to love it. I just want to disappear in a hole and to escape to his smirk. For the first time in my life, I understand I have lost. He beat me on my own game and I hate it.
It's raising my adrenaline
You're banging on a heart of tin
Please don't make too much of it baby
You say the word "forevermore"
That's not what I'm looking for
All I can commit to is "maybe"
So let it be what it'll be
Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here's what I'll do
I'll pay loose
Run like we have a day with destiny
But I discover the meaning of 'hell' when Aiba leaves the stage to go toward me. My jaw clenches when he comes to dance on me, undulating his hips on my lap like when he rides me. Of course, I end hard in the blink of an eye in front of everybody.
"You're having fun?" I hiss as he keeps dancing.
"A lot." He smirks. I throw him a death glare and grab his hips to press him against me under his gasp.
"Bitch."
"Oh, does mister Sakurai Sho is offended because he has found better than him?"
"What?!"
"You really believed I didn't know you? People talks, Sho and I knew how you act with men so don't pretend to be the hurt one."
"I'm not. I just thought..."
"You thought what? That I would be another of your toys? That you would fuck me and throw me away like some kind of garbage? I know how guys like you work. You are all so arrogant, thinking you own the world and have the right to use people. Don't be a bad looser, you have found better at your own game."
It's just a little crush (crush)
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing (crush)
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha-la-la-la, sha-la-la-la
Vanilla skies (vanilla skies)
White picket fences in your eyes
A vision of you and me
"You're not better than me..." I growl.
"A lot better than you honey. You really thought I would crawl at your feet like some kind of puppy? Too bad, you're nothing to me."
"Really? So, in six months I was just some kind of game?"
"Exactly." He smirks and bites my earlobe before whispering the end of the song. I grab his wrist before he can leave.
"Just a game. Nothing more?"
"Are you deaf or don't you understand Japanese?"
It's just a little crush (crush)
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing (crush)
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha-la-la-la
"I just thought we were more... After all, we didn't just fuck all this time. We went out, talked, and spent time together... Does it mean nothing too?"
"I..." He stops, lost for words and I understand he is not as insensitive as he pretends.
"It's sad I was just a sex toy because sex was great. A lot more than with your boyfriend I guess as you always came back to me every night. But now you help me a lot, I didn't know how to stop this game between us without breaking your poor little heart. I'm fed up to pretend being interested in what you babble everyday. I can fuck someone else in peace now." Everybody gasps when a hard slap meets my cheek. Okay, maybe I went too far but he made a fool of me...
"You really are just a big asshole Sakurai Sho. You know what? You'll end up alone. Like the piece of shit you are." His eyes are full of tears and he stands up to run away.
"Masaki!!!" I try to follow him but a hand stops me and I cry out as a fist meets my face. Does the world is against me tonight? "Bastard!!! You..." My eyes widen when I see Aiba's boyfriend looking at me with furious eyes.
"I was right since the beginning, he is too good for you."
"What?"
"I warned him. I knew you would use him like you use the others!"
"Wait... I don't understand... You're his boyfriend, no?"
"Moron! Of course I'm not! It was to make you jealous and confess! Masaki is crazy of you since forever. He wanted to try to get you to love him by playing the same game but he was wrong. You're so heartless that you just can love yourself. Now that you have broken his heart, leave our bar and don't ever come back."
"You two are just crazy!" I snap and leave the club angrily.
*****
I thought forgetting Aiba would be as easy as all the men I fucked but I was terribly wrong. Because I couldn't even stop thinking about him. Even for a second. He was always in my thoughts. Everything around me reminded me him. Because I had made the mistake to bring him to all my favorites places. I missed him. A lot. I try to keep fucking random guys but they weren't Aiba. I hadn't gone to the club for two months, thinking it would pass. But I was just trying to convince myself I didn't need him. My pride was hurt. Nobody had ever made me feel that. Nobody had ever tamed me. But I was starting to realize Aiba had already made his way in the smallest personal parts of my life. When we fucked at my apartment, he was always making the breakfast, wearing only my shirt in the morning, humming happily. Now, the mornings were only bad coffee and a poor melon pan. When we were too tired to go out, I would sit on my sofa and would read while he laid, his head on my lap, watching the TV. Now, I was alone on my big sofa. My apartment seemed emptier. I hated it. I had to do something. Because staying stubborn and not trying anything would leave me always alone and full of regrets.
I went to the club, anxious. I wasn't welcomed anymore but I wanted to try. I watched Aiba's show but he wasn't as good as before. He was thinner and his eyes reflected sadness.
"Masaki..." I caught him as he was heading to the lodges. His eyes widened and hardened after some seconds.
"What do you want?" His cold tone made me shiver.
"I want to talk...."
"I won't be your sex toy anymore, find someone else."
"Masaki, please. Let me explain!" I followed him in the lodge.
"Get out!"
"Masa..."
"Get out!!!" He yelled, tears rolling down his cheeks. "What do you want?" His voice shook. He looked so fragile right now. "You have won, isn't it enough? You want to humiliate me even more?"
"No..."
"You have won again Sakurai. But I pity you, you can't even see all the persons ready to give you their heart. You'll end alone. It's sad. I really pity you..."
"I love you."
Aiba froze, not moving for some seconds.
"What?"
"I love you Masaki."
"Are you kidding me?!" He laughed bitterly. "You're unable to love. You don't even know what this word means. Get out please."
"No. I'm sincere. I would have never guessed I would feel that one day... I haven't won this game. You have. I've got you under my skin. My life is so empty without you. I need you. I miss you. And mostly, I want you."
"I..."
"We weren't playing during these six months. I know you love me. We... Without realizing it, I... I started to be a boyfriend. We were acting like a couple and today, I miss that a lot. Forgive me, Masaki. Give me a chance. I'm ready to crawl at your feet if it can help..."
"Are you really sincere?" His eyes scanned me, staring intensively at mines.
"I have never been so honest in my whole life." I approached him with hope.
"If you give me a good kiss, maybe I'll think about it."
"Thank you." I grinned and caught his lips hungrily. I had missed them so much! I savored them, played with them until we made love on the sofa of the lodge. If being in love made you feel like that everyday, I was ready to sign now!
"I thought I was just a little crush~" I asked when we went home.
"Mmm... You are~"
"Oi!"
"But I almost faint anytime we touch~" Aiba winked, making me laugh.
Owari~
A/N: So, this OS was for my dear Medium-chan's birthday~ I'm so sorry for being so late dear but I wanted to write something nice and ideas took a moment to come xD I hope you liked it even if it wasn't really sexy, I'm sorry T-T L'année prochaine, je serai à l'heure pour ton anniversaire ma chérie, reviens vite me voir en France <3
Author: Matsuaurore
Pairing: Sakuraiba
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, angst, romance, comedy
Summary: Sho is a true seducer who puts any man he likes in his bed to throw him away the day after. When his way crosses Aiba's a beautiful dancer, Sho thinks the younger will be in his bed in the blink of an eye. But things won't happen like he predicted and maybe Sho will finally taste his own medicine.
Disclaimer: For my dear Medium-chan's birthday, Antimiya88, sorry for being so late, I hope you will like this sexy Sakuraiba <3
Based on the song, Crush
Sho's pov:
I love to seduce. Whatever the gender is. Boy or girl. I love to play. I can't stay a week without getting laid at least six times. I'm not a nymphomaniac. I just love to find a prey every night to get it in my bed. Or mostly in a hotel. I like sex, don't misunderstand me but what I like the most is this whole game you create to trick and end with what you want. Some of you would call me a bastard or even an asshole but I would just tell you I can't stand all these sappy couples who swear those fake 'forever' to their lover just to leave them or cheat on them the next day. So, maybe I play but I don't hurt the person I sleep with. No strings, just pure hot sex.
So, this is my hidden facet. The dark Sho if you prefer. The Sho by night. Because by day, I am a famous lawyer who will succeed to his respected father in the biggest lawyer's company of Japan. Sakurai&co. I'm a very good lawyer. Don't see it like arrogance but I know my strengths and my weaknesses. And in this middle, I'm a true shark. I don't care if I save someone from jail, I just want to win. Just the pleasure of winning a game. Like when I fuck. Again, some of you will say I'm a heartless person but I would just answer I'm a winner. Someone who loves challenges and always gets what he wants. I always get what I want. In bed like in work. Of course, daddy Sakurai doesn't know the Sho by night, he would kill me for daring dive my dick in an ass and believe me, my father is maybe the only person I'm scared of. And also maybe my mother. But she is like a ninja, I don't think she is really human so, it doesn't count. That's why I am always very discreet when I go out. I only choose bars whose anonymity is the master word. It's normal clubs where you meet people and fuck but without revealing the name. Like a contract. I'm known in these kinds of places but people still wants me. Well, I'm not ugly. I know it. I work hard to have a good body and to make dream. Okay, maybe I am a bit arrogant but who does it hurt? Certainly not me.
Tonight, I go to my favorite bar with my best friends, Nino, Ohno, Jun and Toma. Nino and Ohno are together since something like forever. Always in love and all lovey-dovey. Erk. And Jun and Toma for seven years. Do I envy them? No way. Being all creepy and having to sleep everyday with the same person is just... I wouldn't bear it. So, tonight we go out together, planning to drink, dance and for me, fuck random guys. For them.... I don't want to imagine what they do in their bedroom. Mostly with Nino and Ohchan who are just professional perverts.
I order my drink and sit on my favorite spot to scan the room. The club is already full but my expert eyes can always find my new prey of the night easily. I soon locate a man whose butt would turn gay a hetero. He is cute. No. Wait. Beautiful. Handsome. He has long brown hair, a cute piercing on his left ear and a pair of lips... Mama mia. I would kill to have those lips around my dick! I want him. And before the end of the night, I'll get him in my bed with my cock diving in his ass. I lick my lips in lust and make my way to the dancefloor, starting to dance with a man next to him. I catch his eyes on me for a brief second and smirk. Bingo. He has spotted me. Well, who wouldn't have? I'm sexy like hell in my black ripped jeans and my white tank top. I start to dance, moving my hips suggestively against the man-whose-name-I-don't-know-and-don't-care in front of me, throwing glances toward the beauty. A smile stretches his lips and I understand I have won. He wants me at the way his tongue runs on his full lips. I quickly forget the man who dances for me and approach the beauty.
"Hey~"
"Hello."
"Want to dance?"
"Why not~"
Oh my Goddess... He dances like a professional. Is he a stripper or what??? I stick my cock against his perfect ass, making him chuckle and start to move in a suggestive way, wrapping my arms around his thin waist. He is my apple in the Eden garden. I need to fuck him. And hard.
"What's your name, cutie?" I whisper in his ear.
"Masaki and you?" I'm surprised he doesn't know me yet. Well, you'll soon know my big dick, babe, don't worry.
"Sho."
"Nice to meet you, Sho-chan." How innocent my name sounds in his mouth... I would almost believe he is a virgin.
"Me too, cutie." I smirk when he turns around and I feel his hardness. Already so hard for me. Baby, you'll kill me tonight~ I grip his butt, palping his ass to make my claim, stroking our erections together. Our lips play, teasing each other without clearly meeting, our breaths making us shiver. He is damn hot.
"I'm thirsty."
"Come on, I'll pay you a drink." I take his hand and lead him toward the counter, devouring his neck from behind as he orders a beer. We sit on a little sofa and as he drinks, I keep discovering some parts of his skin. He has a big birthmark on his shoulder and it's sexy. "You're so hot babe~"
"You're not bad yourself..." I turn him around to make him ride me, my hands traveling from his nape to the small of his back. His lips approach mines and his teeth come to nibble my lower lip. Shit, I want to kiss him so badly. I grab his nape to catch his mouth but he pulls away as someone calls him.
"Masaki, it's time!"
"I'm coming!"
"What?" I gasp as he leaves my legs.
"Sorry, work." He kisses my forehead and leaves under my shocked eyes.
What. The. Fuck????
Holy shit, he is kidding me?!! Leaving me hard and without even a blowjob!!! But I quickly blink as the lights turn off and everybody goes next to the stage in the background of the room. My eyes widen when I see Masaki starting to dance around a barre. A stripper??!! My eyes meet his and a mischievous smile spreads his lips as he starts to undulate his body like a God. Fucking shit. I have to get him in my bed. I need his butt more than ever. I stare at him like a lion would eye its prey, almost drooling when he ends in boxer and dances against the barre. I try to catch him at the end of the show but he disappears in the blink of an eye.
I have to find him.
****
It takes me one week to find him again. I was starting to think I would never have him in my bed. It's tonight or never. My dick will finally dive in his butt!
"Masaki..." I gasp, attacking his lips. He is on my lap, undulating his hips as I finally taste his mouth. And believe me, it is worth it. They are so kissable. So...hum... A pure wonder! I grab his nape and catch his mouth properly, diving my tongue inside. He kisses like a God. I guess he also sucks like a God... My hand grabs his hair to press him against me and we kiss something like 30 minutes, ending out of breath. He is the first one I haven't put in my bed at the first meeting but it's even more exciting.
"Baby, come on, I want to fuck you..."
"Nope, I have to leave."
"What???"
"Work. Bye~" He kisses me a last time and leaves me hard again.
After that, Masaki becomes an obsession. I go to my club every night to see him but when he is here, we don't do more than kiss because he always leaves quickly. I'm becoming crazy and decide to stop this game two weeks later because yes, for once, I wonder if I'm the player or if it's him...
"Masaki, it's enough I..."
"Shttt... Come with me." He whispers while sucking my earlobe. I take his hand and follow him as we leave the club. Finally. I'll fuck him!
We stop in front of a hotel and Masaki grabs the wallet in my pocket to pay.
"Oi!"
"What? You really think I'm going to pay?" He looks at me, arching an eyebrow. Does his ass is worth 7000 ¥? I throw a last glance toward his butt. Fuck, yes. I give him my gold master card and he pays after choosing a bedroom. We almost run to the room and once inside, start to kiss with passion, my hands taking his clothes off while his almost rip my shirt. We are both so eager to form one that we skip the foreplays and I slip inside him after throwing him on the bed.
"You're big..." He whines.
"You'll get used." I pump his member to make him relax his muscles and start to fuck him hard and fast, his legs wrapping my waist while loud moans leave his mouth. He is so loud but I love it. I make him scream and beg, his nails diving in my skin, his body arching on the mattress. I won't last long. He is as tight as a virgin and drives me crazy. I have slept with lots of men but he is clearly the sexiest and the prettiest.
"Sho... Make me come... Please..."
"Masaki... You're so damn sexy!" I pump his member while taking him hard until we both come in loud moans. I collapse on my back, out of breath. Woah. Amazing. I jump when I feel him climbing on me.
"Again." His eyes are full of lust and just his look gets me hard in one second.
"Ride me." I have just the time to finish my sentence that my dick dives in his ass. I was right, his butt is wonderful. A heaven.
We spend the whole night fucking like rabbits. We have done it in many positions in the whole bedroom. I have never fucked so much and now I'm empty. I hope he didn't break my junior. But I'm just in paradise. Masaki is just a God in bed.
I wake up alone, not used to be the left one in the morning. Usually, it's me who leaves discreetly to escape to a pitiful speech about the principle of a one night-stand. I take a shower and leave to go to work, exhausted.
But something feels wrong. Yes. It's not like usually. Because even at work, I can't stop thinking about Masaki. What the fuck... All day and night, I think about him, his body, his face as he comes. And believe me, he is damn beautiful when he comes. I have to see him again.
But what a fool I was to think my usual game would work forever.
I become addicted to him. After our first night, we meet again and fuck again. Everyday. What was meant to be a night becomes more. A lot more. We don't just fuck. We talk. A lot. We go sometimes to the restaurant or the cinema, we take a cup of coffee together, laugh, talk about our lives. Masaki is fascinating. He has an incredible view of the world. He makes me laugh like no one and makes my days a lot less boring. Without realizing it, I grow attached to him. And sex with Masaki is always so wonderful. I thought I would get tired in one week but after six months, I still want him so much.
****
I touch the place next to me, still asleep and realize he has left a long moment ago.
"Masaki?" I scan my bedroom. Because yes, for several months, we fuck in my apartment. I stand up and check the rooms but he is already gone. Without knowing why, my heart tightens and I send him a message.
From: Sho
Good morning to you too!
I quickly tape my message and receive his answer almost immediately.
From: Masaki
Good morning sleeping beauty. Last night was great, see you soon for another round~
I growl at his words. Yes. ‘Fuck’.
I spend my day working on new cases but can't stay concentrate, thinking about Aiba. Anytime I think about him, I feel a deep pain piercing my heart. I don't understand why, I have never felt that before... But we need to talk. I can't stand this situation anymore.
At the end of the day, I buy something to eat at the conbini before going to the club and freeze in the middle of the shop. There is Aiba buying two bento and holding the hand of a guy I don't know.
"Hello Masaki..." I say coldly. Aiba turns toward me and smiles.
"Who is he baby?"
Baby?!
"A friend of the club. Hiroshi, this is Sho. Sho, this is Hiroshi, my boyfriend."
"Your boyfriend?" I pale at his words.
"Hum. See you later~" He smiles and leaves with the man. Is he kidding me?! He didn't even seem uncomfortable!! That bitch!
I take a quick shower at home and run to the club to get some explanations. I find him talking with a guy and grab his hand to take him to the toilets where I slam him against the door.
"Are you crazy?!"
"No, angry if you want to know. Who was this guy at the conbini?!"
"My boyfriend like I said."
"And you have a boyfriend while we date?!"
"I think you've misunderstood something, Sho. We don't date, we fuck. I am with Hiro and I fuck with you, it's as simple as that." He chuckles.
"And does he know?"
"No but it doesn't matter as it's just sex between us. I love him, not you." He shrugs.
"You're a bastard."
"Say the man who fucks different guys every night." Aiba smirks.
"I..."
"What? You were thinking we were more than sex friends? You're stupid then. You're a good fuck Sho but don't be too arrogant, you're nothing to me. Now excuse me but I have work." He smiles and leaves me under my shocked eyes. I join the room and sit in front of the scene until the music starts and Aiba appears, sexy like hell. My heart freezes when he starts to dance and sing while throwing me looks. I just feel so stupid.
I see ya blowin' me a kiss
It doesn't take a scientist
To understand what's going on baby
If you see something in my eye
Let's not over analyze
Don't go too deep with it baby
So let it be what it'll be
Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here's what I'll do
I'll play loose
Not like we have a day with destiny
And now, I understand. I was a complete fool. He used me. All these months I was just a cock on legs for him. I was here to give him orgasms, not more. And I thought there was something else between us... All these hours together were just... Nothing. I clench my fists as he looks at me with a mocking smile, happy to see me like that. Son of a bitch.
It's just a little crush (crush)
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing (crush)
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha-la-la-la, sha-la-la-la
I have never cried. Or at least never in front of someone but right now, I feel tears winning my eyes and take all my strength not to let them fall. He is making fun of me and seems to love it. I just want to disappear in a hole and to escape to his smirk. For the first time in my life, I understand I have lost. He beat me on my own game and I hate it.
It's raising my adrenaline
You're banging on a heart of tin
Please don't make too much of it baby
You say the word "forevermore"
That's not what I'm looking for
All I can commit to is "maybe"
So let it be what it'll be
Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here's what I'll do
I'll pay loose
Run like we have a day with destiny
But I discover the meaning of 'hell' when Aiba leaves the stage to go toward me. My jaw clenches when he comes to dance on me, undulating his hips on my lap like when he rides me. Of course, I end hard in the blink of an eye in front of everybody.
"You're having fun?" I hiss as he keeps dancing.
"A lot." He smirks. I throw him a death glare and grab his hips to press him against me under his gasp.
"Bitch."
"Oh, does mister Sakurai Sho is offended because he has found better than him?"
"What?!"
"You really believed I didn't know you? People talks, Sho and I knew how you act with men so don't pretend to be the hurt one."
"I'm not. I just thought..."
"You thought what? That I would be another of your toys? That you would fuck me and throw me away like some kind of garbage? I know how guys like you work. You are all so arrogant, thinking you own the world and have the right to use people. Don't be a bad looser, you have found better at your own game."
It's just a little crush (crush)
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing (crush)
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha-la-la-la, sha-la-la-la
Vanilla skies (vanilla skies)
White picket fences in your eyes
A vision of you and me
"You're not better than me..." I growl.
"A lot better than you honey. You really thought I would crawl at your feet like some kind of puppy? Too bad, you're nothing to me."
"Really? So, in six months I was just some kind of game?"
"Exactly." He smirks and bites my earlobe before whispering the end of the song. I grab his wrist before he can leave.
"Just a game. Nothing more?"
"Are you deaf or don't you understand Japanese?"
It's just a little crush (crush)
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just some little thing (crush)
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha-la-la-la
"I just thought we were more... After all, we didn't just fuck all this time. We went out, talked, and spent time together... Does it mean nothing too?"
"I..." He stops, lost for words and I understand he is not as insensitive as he pretends.
"It's sad I was just a sex toy because sex was great. A lot more than with your boyfriend I guess as you always came back to me every night. But now you help me a lot, I didn't know how to stop this game between us without breaking your poor little heart. I'm fed up to pretend being interested in what you babble everyday. I can fuck someone else in peace now." Everybody gasps when a hard slap meets my cheek. Okay, maybe I went too far but he made a fool of me...
"You really are just a big asshole Sakurai Sho. You know what? You'll end up alone. Like the piece of shit you are." His eyes are full of tears and he stands up to run away.
"Masaki!!!" I try to follow him but a hand stops me and I cry out as a fist meets my face. Does the world is against me tonight? "Bastard!!! You..." My eyes widen when I see Aiba's boyfriend looking at me with furious eyes.
"I was right since the beginning, he is too good for you."
"What?"
"I warned him. I knew you would use him like you use the others!"
"Wait... I don't understand... You're his boyfriend, no?"
"Moron! Of course I'm not! It was to make you jealous and confess! Masaki is crazy of you since forever. He wanted to try to get you to love him by playing the same game but he was wrong. You're so heartless that you just can love yourself. Now that you have broken his heart, leave our bar and don't ever come back."
"You two are just crazy!" I snap and leave the club angrily.
*****
I thought forgetting Aiba would be as easy as all the men I fucked but I was terribly wrong. Because I couldn't even stop thinking about him. Even for a second. He was always in my thoughts. Everything around me reminded me him. Because I had made the mistake to bring him to all my favorites places. I missed him. A lot. I try to keep fucking random guys but they weren't Aiba. I hadn't gone to the club for two months, thinking it would pass. But I was just trying to convince myself I didn't need him. My pride was hurt. Nobody had ever made me feel that. Nobody had ever tamed me. But I was starting to realize Aiba had already made his way in the smallest personal parts of my life. When we fucked at my apartment, he was always making the breakfast, wearing only my shirt in the morning, humming happily. Now, the mornings were only bad coffee and a poor melon pan. When we were too tired to go out, I would sit on my sofa and would read while he laid, his head on my lap, watching the TV. Now, I was alone on my big sofa. My apartment seemed emptier. I hated it. I had to do something. Because staying stubborn and not trying anything would leave me always alone and full of regrets.
I went to the club, anxious. I wasn't welcomed anymore but I wanted to try. I watched Aiba's show but he wasn't as good as before. He was thinner and his eyes reflected sadness.
"Masaki..." I caught him as he was heading to the lodges. His eyes widened and hardened after some seconds.
"What do you want?" His cold tone made me shiver.
"I want to talk...."
"I won't be your sex toy anymore, find someone else."
"Masaki, please. Let me explain!" I followed him in the lodge.
"Get out!"
"Masa..."
"Get out!!!" He yelled, tears rolling down his cheeks. "What do you want?" His voice shook. He looked so fragile right now. "You have won, isn't it enough? You want to humiliate me even more?"
"No..."
"You have won again Sakurai. But I pity you, you can't even see all the persons ready to give you their heart. You'll end alone. It's sad. I really pity you..."
"I love you."
Aiba froze, not moving for some seconds.
"What?"
"I love you Masaki."
"Are you kidding me?!" He laughed bitterly. "You're unable to love. You don't even know what this word means. Get out please."
"No. I'm sincere. I would have never guessed I would feel that one day... I haven't won this game. You have. I've got you under my skin. My life is so empty without you. I need you. I miss you. And mostly, I want you."
"I..."
"We weren't playing during these six months. I know you love me. We... Without realizing it, I... I started to be a boyfriend. We were acting like a couple and today, I miss that a lot. Forgive me, Masaki. Give me a chance. I'm ready to crawl at your feet if it can help..."
"Are you really sincere?" His eyes scanned me, staring intensively at mines.
"I have never been so honest in my whole life." I approached him with hope.
"If you give me a good kiss, maybe I'll think about it."
"Thank you." I grinned and caught his lips hungrily. I had missed them so much! I savored them, played with them until we made love on the sofa of the lodge. If being in love made you feel like that everyday, I was ready to sign now!
"I thought I was just a little crush~" I asked when we went home.
"Mmm... You are~"
"Oi!"
"But I almost faint anytime we touch~" Aiba winked, making me laugh.
Owari~
A/N: So, this OS was for my dear Medium-chan's birthday~ I'm so sorry for being so late dear but I wanted to write something nice and ideas took a moment to come xD I hope you liked it even if it wasn't really sexy, I'm sorry T-T L'année prochaine, je serai à l'heure pour ton anniversaire ma chérie, reviens vite me voir en France <3