Lili (2/2)
Title: Lili
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairing: Ohmiya
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Au, angst, romance, drama and a bit of fantasy I guess xD
Summary: One of them is a cold cruel yakuza, the other is an orphan who lost his way in this unfair world. Their path seemed already drawn but what if tomorrow, something changed their fate?
A/N: This Os is for my dear Lilisan31's birthday. I hope you will like it my dear Sis' witch <3
Based on the song Lili, from Aaron.
part 2/2
"My sister is dead, Ninomiya-san."
"What?!" My eyes widened in shock.
"I don't know where you found this tale about her helping you but she died one year ago. It's impossible that you know her."
"I do! She was here this morning! I swear!!" I grabbed his hand and ran toward Lili's bedroom to prove him I was telling the truth. But my eyes widened when I saw the dark empty room. Dirt was covering the furniture's as if nobody had cleaned for a long time.
"I told you so. Nobody is living here, I don't know how you managed to enter this house but I left it last year when she died... She..." For the first time, Ohno looked fragile, his cold face vanishing. "She was the little sun of this house. I couldn't live here without her. I came back to sell this house. I can't keep a so painful memory."
"Lili is alive. I know it! She helped me! She said we never should listen to people's nasty words. She said I could make my dreams come true!!" I cried.
"She always tried to find the best in every people she met. She was very brave. She always fought to live and to make her dreams come true. She wanted to be a singer, did you know?" Ohno smiled weakly.
"A singer?"
"She wrote her own songs. She had a so beautiful voice, like an angel. But she died before she could release her first song."
"I..."
"You have to leave. You can stay for the night but I want you gone tomorrow." Ohno said, his cold tone back.
"Ohno-sama, Kitama-san is waiting for you." A man in black came to us.
"I'm coming." Ohno nodded, adjusting his tie. It's at this moment I saw the gun tied on his belt.
"You're a yakuza." I whispered.
"And you're lucky I haven't the time to kill you. Goodbye, Ninomiya." Ohno turned on his heels but I stopped him.
"She loved you. She always talked about you, saying you did everything to take care of her but that you also forgot to take care about yourself. I swear she is alive, I..."
"Ninomiya!" Ohno snapped, looking at me with angry eyes. "She is dead. I don't need your stupid tale, leave before I lose my patience and rip your balls with my own teeth."
I stared at him leaving before collapsing on my knees, tears rolling down my cheeks. What was happening, I didn't understand the situation anymore. Lili died last year? But it was impossible, she was alive this morning.
I stayed on the sofa all day, crying softly. Did I dream about her? Was I crazy?
I gave up on everything, stopping to compose, to sing, barely eating. I was again diving in this scaring loneliness that Lili had taken me out of. I was again alone, without any family. And it was so painful that I became a wreck, like before. Ohno didn't come back and I stayed in the house, drinking all day, sometimes even smoking but it wasn't tobacco. I was the shadow of myself. The only person who had loved me was dead and just existed in my imagination. I was simply crazy. People were right after all, our path was drawn since our birth and you couldn't change it no matter what.
"Shit..." I collapsed on the sofa, feeling sick after all the vodka I had drunk. I was rotten in the house for two months and had lost lots of weight.
"Kazu-kun..." I raised my face and blinked, seeing her in front of me. She was so pale and looked so fragile.
"Lili! What's happening, what..."
"You're not crazy." She smiled softly.
"But you are here and your brother said..."
"I died a year ago, it's true. My heart wasn't enough strong anymore to beat."
"Then, I'm crazy or too drunk to think properly."
"I'm here. Or at least, my soul is still here."
"I don't believe in ghost." I snapped.
"I'm not a ghost. I'm...my body is dead but my soul didn't leave like it should have. I'm stuck between Life and Death."
"Why?"
"Because you can't leave when your soul isn't in peace."
"What do you mean?"
"I was here, Kazu. I really spent all this time with you. I saw you changing, taking a new beginning, smiling, laughing, realizing your dreams. Until two months ago." Her looked darkened in sadness.
"You abandoned me."
"You gave up on all your dreams like Satoshi did one year ago."
"Satoshi?"
"We both knew I was going to die but he always hoped doctors could save me. When I died, he never overcome my start. He became someone nobody knows, building a wall between his heart and the world. He became cold. He forgot to be happy like he promised me."
"Your brother is a yakuza, Lili. He will never be a kind person."
"He was! He was the most sensitive and kindest man I knew... He changed... He is living through this hatred against life and medicine. When I saw you in this street, I immediately saw him through your eyes. The same pain, the same sadness eating your heart. The way people predicted what you would be or how you would be. He tries to look strong but like you, he is fragile and lonely. I tried to make you both understand life could be beautiful even if we lose the person we love. You are the only one able to understand him and make him happy."
"So, you used me all this time." I whispered.
"No. I love you like a brother, Kazunari. You're an amazing person and you can't give up on your dreams..."
"I'm sorry but I don't believe in anything now. Your brother will have to stay alone." I looked away, ashamed. "He doesn't even believe me when I tell him I know you."
"You have to find a way to convince him. You know, I wanted to be a singer but life didn't let me the time to. Toshi always listened to my songs before going to bed. He gave me lots of precious advices. I love you two so much. Please, Kazu-chan, don't let him and your happiness go. Fight. Live your dreams."
"I'm sorry." I shook my head. She smiled sadly and put something around my neck.
"It's my mother's necklace. Her own mother gave it to her. It's to bring you luck and courage. Don't lose it." She kissed my cheek and I stared at the necklace with wide eyes. It was so beautiful. A blue tear wrapped in a silver string.
"Lili, I..." I raised my face but she was already gone. I sighed, closing my eyes and keeping the necklace against my chest. What could I do?
Maybe I should follow her advice because she deserved it. She did so much for me. "Alright." I clenched my fist with determined eyes and took my guitar to compose.
Lili,
Take another walk out of your fake world
Please put all the drugs out of your hand
You'll see that you can breathe without no back up
So much stuff you've got to understand
For every step in any walk
Any town of any thought
I'll be your guide
For every street of any scene
Any place you've never been
I'll be your guide
"I thought I told you to leave!" A cold voice snapped. I raised my face and smiled, discovering an angry Ohno. He looked so thin and fragile despite his will to look strong and cold. I could see a piece of the man Lili talked about.
"Yes. But I don't care." I shrugged, deciding to provoke him. Ohno's eyes flashed in anger and he grabbed my collar.
"Get out, piece of shit!"
"She is still here."
"What?"
"Lili. She is stuck here because of you. Because you can't move on and be happy."
"You're crazy!"
"If I was a liar, how would I know all these personal things about you? She helped me so much and today, I have to do the same for her. By helping you."
"I don't need your fucking help!"
"So stubborn. Do you think she is happy to see you in this state. Killing people, making traffic?"
"She can't see me."
"Even if you don't believe me, do you think you are honoring her memory by living like that? Do you think you are respecting her?"
"Shut up!!" Ohno grabbed my collar roughly, slamming me against the wall. "I have no advices to receive from a piece of shit like you who uses people."
"It's so easy to talk like that. We didn't born in the same world, Ohno-san. You were lucky to have a loving family when mine abandoned me when I was 8 months old." I smiled weakly under Ohno's surprise. "Maybe I was homeless, jobless but I always fought to be a better man. I grew up in the street while you were surrounded by luxury. Don't judge people so easily."
"Growing up in luxury doesn't mean you're happier."
"At least, you have a home, someone who loves and cares about you, a future while people bet on when I will die from a disease or an overdose. You don't know what it is to be alone since you're born. To be rejected by everybody. You had Lili, she died but you weren't alone all your life and living like that is spitting at her face." I pushed Ohno's hands away and took off the necklace.
"This is..."
"She gave it to me, saying it would bring me luck and courage but today, you're the one who needs it." I put the necklace around Ohno's neck. "She would be so sad to see her lovely brother suffering and making people suffer like that."
"Shut up!" Ohno growled, grabbing my nape to smack our lips together. I moaned, wrapping my arms around his neck to press our bodies even more. Ohno's hands slipped under my shirt to stroke my cold pale chest, teasing my sensitive nipples.
"Stop..." I moaned.
"No." Ohno replied, opening his belt.
****
When I opened my eyes, the right side of the bed was empty and cold, the sign Ohno had left a long time ago. We had spent an amazing night, both trying to forget our pains in each other's arms.
"So, it seems he left too." I whispered, my hands clenching the sheets tightly. "I should be used of that now." I stood up and after taking a shower and my belongings, closed the door of the big house for the last time. "I'm sorry, Lili, I wasn't able to help your brother. Thank you for everything." I said sadly.
Finding an apartment wasn't complicated now I was a bit famous and had money. I chose something not too big but with enough space to put all my instruments. I would soon sing my new single that I was currently writing. It was a thanks for what she did for me and also my last try to help Ohno. Maybe I was really crazy and Lili didn't even exist but she still saved me. I would also realized her dream to be a singer. I would be her guide in the life she hadn't had the time to live.
****
I felt so scared. I had already sung in front of a public but this time, I would sing something that I wrote with my soul, something that talked about Lili but also about what I went through. This song would stay the mirror of my heart.
Taking a deep breath, I walked on the stage of the Music station and sat on the chair, my guitar in my arms. Little blue lights lit the background as if it was a dark sky full of stars.
"Satoshi!!!" I raised my face to see my best friend bursting in my office with an excited face.
"Jun, I'm busy." I sighed.
"Shut up and come with me!" Jun grabbed my arm and pushed me toward the living room where the TV was showing the last Music station.
"What?" I groaned, annoyed.
"Look!!" Jun pointed the TV and after some seconds, my eyes widened. It was Nino. He was on the stage, a guitar in his arms.
"This..."
"You should listen, it's his new song." Jun patted my shoulder.
"I don't care about him." I replied.
"If you really did, you would have stopped listening to his songs." Jun smirked.
"I don't!" I blushed deeply.
"Mmm strangely, I found his album and singles in your cupboard."
"I..." I stopped when I heard Nino talking.
"This song is very important for me. I wrote it for someone very special in my eyes. This person was an amazing friend. The only family I've ever had. Without her, I wouldn't be here today." Nino explained before starting to play.
I sat on the sofa and listened.
Lili, you know there's still a place for people like us
The same blood runs in every hand
You see it's not the wings that make the angel
Just have to move the bat out of your head
For every step in any walk
Any town of any thought
I'll be your guide
For every street of any scene
Any place you've never been
I'll be your guide
My eyes widened when he started to sing. Lili. My sister's name. I bit my lower lip, listening to the lyrics. The music was simple, yet, beautiful and the words sank in my heart like a knife. It was exactly what I lived with her. The crisis, the pills for her heart that she called 'her drugs'. The way she was living for music to hold on and survive. The way she fought because she wanted to be a singer. But I could see some parts of the song were talking about Nino. And some were talking about them. Was he telling the truth? Does Lili never completely left because of me? Did she save him?
I tightened my grip around the necklace against my skin. He had our mother's necklace after all.
Tears started to roll down my cheeks at the same time than Nino. His voice shook a bit, the sign emotion was overwhelming his heart.
At the end of the song, Nino bowed deeply and joined the MC who welcomed him, probably crying behind his sunglasses.
"What a song, Ninomiya-kun! I think you made everybody cry."
"I'm sorry." I smiled.
"It was a very beautiful song. Could you tell us more about it?"
"Unfortunately, this song's story is very personal. I just can tell you that the person who inspired me the lyrics saved me when everything was...dark. She taught me not to listen to what people can say and to fight for my dreams. Whatever the life we born in is, nothing is written as long as we change. I wasn't born lucky, I went through very hard things and people always said I would die before my 30th years old. But I'm here today. Because the person of this song proved me people were wrong. You write your own future. The only difference is how you fight for your happiness. And..." Nino looked at the camera with a soft smile. "Satoshi, if you listen to me, I want to tell you her biggest wish was to see you happy. And it's mine too. She was right, you're an amazing person. Your path is not all drawn." I looked down, clenching my fists.
"What a clever boy!" Jun smirked.
"Shut up." I replied.
Lili, easy as a kiss we'll find an answer
Put all your fears back in the shade
Don't become a ghost without no colors
'Cause you're the best paint, life ever made
For every step in any walk
Any town of any thought
I'll be your guide
For every street of any scene
Any place you've never been
I'll be your guide
My single worked very well. I was happy because it meant my words touched people's hearts.
I didn't care about the success as long as I could sing my compositions. I never forgot what I was before I met Lili and sometimes, I came back to the place where I lived, in the street and sang. I took my guitar and sang. People stopped to listen to me and thanked me for this good moment. Despite my success, I didn't want to forget where I was from. I wasn't ashamed of my past but proud of the path I had made.
One day, I stopped in front of a library where a poster caught my attention. There was an exhibition on the afternoon. But what caught my attention was the name of the artist. Ohno Satoshi. I smiled happily. Had he finally find his own path?
I went to the exhibition to be sure it was the same Ohno that I knew. The paintings were wonderful and people seemed to like it.
But I stopped in front of the biggest one. Tears started to roll down my cheeks when I saw Lili's face laughing, a guitar in her arms and me next to her. What the...
"I'm sure she laughed like that when she was with you." A soft voice said behind me.
"She had a beautiful smile." I nodded, my eyes not leaving the painting.
"Life is unfair. She didn't deserve to end like that."
"Yes. But she was so happy despite the sickness. She never cried in front of someone else."
"She was very brave. But her death brought me one happy thing."
"Eh?" I turned my head to look at Ohno. He was even more beautiful when he smiled. He had changed a lot in these past months. His hair was longer and brown now and he was wearing black jeans with a tee-shirt where you could read 'Impossible is nothing'. He wasn't the same man than eight months ago.
"I met you." He simply said, looking at the painting with pink cheeks. Where was the cold yakuza I met a year ago?
"Well, people always feel lucky to meet me." I smirked under his laugh.
"Kazu?"
"Hun?"
"Thank you." Two simple words that meant everything. I grinned, taking his hand and we both looked at Lili's portrait.
I gasped when I saw her winking before shaking my head with a soft laugh.
"What?" Ohno asked.
"Nothing." I laid my head on his shoulder with a smile.
I had certainly dreamt. Ghost didn't exist after all....
Owari ;)
A/N: Okay, it was a complete weird OS, I'm so sorry xD I hoped you enjoyed it a bit at least despite my weird ideas xD
Lili, désolée pour ça, je voulais utiliser cette chanson pour que ça rend l'os original et que tu aies un petit hommage en même temps ;) mais ça a tourné bizarre xD j'aurais peut-être dû écrire quelque chose de plus classique xD Anyway, bon anniversaire ma soeur sorcière, I wish you all the best (mais je garde l'Ohmiya par contre :P) XOXO et à Didou la grosse aussi ;)
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairing: Ohmiya
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Au, angst, romance, drama and a bit of fantasy I guess xD
Summary: One of them is a cold cruel yakuza, the other is an orphan who lost his way in this unfair world. Their path seemed already drawn but what if tomorrow, something changed their fate?
A/N: This Os is for my dear Lilisan31's birthday. I hope you will like it my dear Sis' witch <3
Based on the song Lili, from Aaron.
part 2/2
"My sister is dead, Ninomiya-san."
"What?!" My eyes widened in shock.
"I don't know where you found this tale about her helping you but she died one year ago. It's impossible that you know her."
"I do! She was here this morning! I swear!!" I grabbed his hand and ran toward Lili's bedroom to prove him I was telling the truth. But my eyes widened when I saw the dark empty room. Dirt was covering the furniture's as if nobody had cleaned for a long time.
"I told you so. Nobody is living here, I don't know how you managed to enter this house but I left it last year when she died... She..." For the first time, Ohno looked fragile, his cold face vanishing. "She was the little sun of this house. I couldn't live here without her. I came back to sell this house. I can't keep a so painful memory."
"Lili is alive. I know it! She helped me! She said we never should listen to people's nasty words. She said I could make my dreams come true!!" I cried.
"She always tried to find the best in every people she met. She was very brave. She always fought to live and to make her dreams come true. She wanted to be a singer, did you know?" Ohno smiled weakly.
"A singer?"
"She wrote her own songs. She had a so beautiful voice, like an angel. But she died before she could release her first song."
"I..."
"You have to leave. You can stay for the night but I want you gone tomorrow." Ohno said, his cold tone back.
"Ohno-sama, Kitama-san is waiting for you." A man in black came to us.
"I'm coming." Ohno nodded, adjusting his tie. It's at this moment I saw the gun tied on his belt.
"You're a yakuza." I whispered.
"And you're lucky I haven't the time to kill you. Goodbye, Ninomiya." Ohno turned on his heels but I stopped him.
"She loved you. She always talked about you, saying you did everything to take care of her but that you also forgot to take care about yourself. I swear she is alive, I..."
"Ninomiya!" Ohno snapped, looking at me with angry eyes. "She is dead. I don't need your stupid tale, leave before I lose my patience and rip your balls with my own teeth."
I stared at him leaving before collapsing on my knees, tears rolling down my cheeks. What was happening, I didn't understand the situation anymore. Lili died last year? But it was impossible, she was alive this morning.
I stayed on the sofa all day, crying softly. Did I dream about her? Was I crazy?
I gave up on everything, stopping to compose, to sing, barely eating. I was again diving in this scaring loneliness that Lili had taken me out of. I was again alone, without any family. And it was so painful that I became a wreck, like before. Ohno didn't come back and I stayed in the house, drinking all day, sometimes even smoking but it wasn't tobacco. I was the shadow of myself. The only person who had loved me was dead and just existed in my imagination. I was simply crazy. People were right after all, our path was drawn since our birth and you couldn't change it no matter what.
"Shit..." I collapsed on the sofa, feeling sick after all the vodka I had drunk. I was rotten in the house for two months and had lost lots of weight.
"Kazu-kun..." I raised my face and blinked, seeing her in front of me. She was so pale and looked so fragile.
"Lili! What's happening, what..."
"You're not crazy." She smiled softly.
"But you are here and your brother said..."
"I died a year ago, it's true. My heart wasn't enough strong anymore to beat."
"Then, I'm crazy or too drunk to think properly."
"I'm here. Or at least, my soul is still here."
"I don't believe in ghost." I snapped.
"I'm not a ghost. I'm...my body is dead but my soul didn't leave like it should have. I'm stuck between Life and Death."
"Why?"
"Because you can't leave when your soul isn't in peace."
"What do you mean?"
"I was here, Kazu. I really spent all this time with you. I saw you changing, taking a new beginning, smiling, laughing, realizing your dreams. Until two months ago." Her looked darkened in sadness.
"You abandoned me."
"You gave up on all your dreams like Satoshi did one year ago."
"Satoshi?"
"We both knew I was going to die but he always hoped doctors could save me. When I died, he never overcome my start. He became someone nobody knows, building a wall between his heart and the world. He became cold. He forgot to be happy like he promised me."
"Your brother is a yakuza, Lili. He will never be a kind person."
"He was! He was the most sensitive and kindest man I knew... He changed... He is living through this hatred against life and medicine. When I saw you in this street, I immediately saw him through your eyes. The same pain, the same sadness eating your heart. The way people predicted what you would be or how you would be. He tries to look strong but like you, he is fragile and lonely. I tried to make you both understand life could be beautiful even if we lose the person we love. You are the only one able to understand him and make him happy."
"So, you used me all this time." I whispered.
"No. I love you like a brother, Kazunari. You're an amazing person and you can't give up on your dreams..."
"I'm sorry but I don't believe in anything now. Your brother will have to stay alone." I looked away, ashamed. "He doesn't even believe me when I tell him I know you."
"You have to find a way to convince him. You know, I wanted to be a singer but life didn't let me the time to. Toshi always listened to my songs before going to bed. He gave me lots of precious advices. I love you two so much. Please, Kazu-chan, don't let him and your happiness go. Fight. Live your dreams."
"I'm sorry." I shook my head. She smiled sadly and put something around my neck.
"It's my mother's necklace. Her own mother gave it to her. It's to bring you luck and courage. Don't lose it." She kissed my cheek and I stared at the necklace with wide eyes. It was so beautiful. A blue tear wrapped in a silver string.
"Lili, I..." I raised my face but she was already gone. I sighed, closing my eyes and keeping the necklace against my chest. What could I do?
Maybe I should follow her advice because she deserved it. She did so much for me. "Alright." I clenched my fist with determined eyes and took my guitar to compose.
Lili,
Take another walk out of your fake world
Please put all the drugs out of your hand
You'll see that you can breathe without no back up
So much stuff you've got to understand
For every step in any walk
Any town of any thought
I'll be your guide
For every street of any scene
Any place you've never been
I'll be your guide
"I thought I told you to leave!" A cold voice snapped. I raised my face and smiled, discovering an angry Ohno. He looked so thin and fragile despite his will to look strong and cold. I could see a piece of the man Lili talked about.
"Yes. But I don't care." I shrugged, deciding to provoke him. Ohno's eyes flashed in anger and he grabbed my collar.
"Get out, piece of shit!"
"She is still here."
"What?"
"Lili. She is stuck here because of you. Because you can't move on and be happy."
"You're crazy!"
"If I was a liar, how would I know all these personal things about you? She helped me so much and today, I have to do the same for her. By helping you."
"I don't need your fucking help!"
"So stubborn. Do you think she is happy to see you in this state. Killing people, making traffic?"
"She can't see me."
"Even if you don't believe me, do you think you are honoring her memory by living like that? Do you think you are respecting her?"
"Shut up!!" Ohno grabbed my collar roughly, slamming me against the wall. "I have no advices to receive from a piece of shit like you who uses people."
"It's so easy to talk like that. We didn't born in the same world, Ohno-san. You were lucky to have a loving family when mine abandoned me when I was 8 months old." I smiled weakly under Ohno's surprise. "Maybe I was homeless, jobless but I always fought to be a better man. I grew up in the street while you were surrounded by luxury. Don't judge people so easily."
"Growing up in luxury doesn't mean you're happier."
"At least, you have a home, someone who loves and cares about you, a future while people bet on when I will die from a disease or an overdose. You don't know what it is to be alone since you're born. To be rejected by everybody. You had Lili, she died but you weren't alone all your life and living like that is spitting at her face." I pushed Ohno's hands away and took off the necklace.
"This is..."
"She gave it to me, saying it would bring me luck and courage but today, you're the one who needs it." I put the necklace around Ohno's neck. "She would be so sad to see her lovely brother suffering and making people suffer like that."
"Shut up!" Ohno growled, grabbing my nape to smack our lips together. I moaned, wrapping my arms around his neck to press our bodies even more. Ohno's hands slipped under my shirt to stroke my cold pale chest, teasing my sensitive nipples.
"Stop..." I moaned.
"No." Ohno replied, opening his belt.
****
When I opened my eyes, the right side of the bed was empty and cold, the sign Ohno had left a long time ago. We had spent an amazing night, both trying to forget our pains in each other's arms.
"So, it seems he left too." I whispered, my hands clenching the sheets tightly. "I should be used of that now." I stood up and after taking a shower and my belongings, closed the door of the big house for the last time. "I'm sorry, Lili, I wasn't able to help your brother. Thank you for everything." I said sadly.
Finding an apartment wasn't complicated now I was a bit famous and had money. I chose something not too big but with enough space to put all my instruments. I would soon sing my new single that I was currently writing. It was a thanks for what she did for me and also my last try to help Ohno. Maybe I was really crazy and Lili didn't even exist but she still saved me. I would also realized her dream to be a singer. I would be her guide in the life she hadn't had the time to live.
****
I felt so scared. I had already sung in front of a public but this time, I would sing something that I wrote with my soul, something that talked about Lili but also about what I went through. This song would stay the mirror of my heart.
Taking a deep breath, I walked on the stage of the Music station and sat on the chair, my guitar in my arms. Little blue lights lit the background as if it was a dark sky full of stars.
"Satoshi!!!" I raised my face to see my best friend bursting in my office with an excited face.
"Jun, I'm busy." I sighed.
"Shut up and come with me!" Jun grabbed my arm and pushed me toward the living room where the TV was showing the last Music station.
"What?" I groaned, annoyed.
"Look!!" Jun pointed the TV and after some seconds, my eyes widened. It was Nino. He was on the stage, a guitar in his arms.
"This..."
"You should listen, it's his new song." Jun patted my shoulder.
"I don't care about him." I replied.
"If you really did, you would have stopped listening to his songs." Jun smirked.
"I don't!" I blushed deeply.
"Mmm strangely, I found his album and singles in your cupboard."
"I..." I stopped when I heard Nino talking.
"This song is very important for me. I wrote it for someone very special in my eyes. This person was an amazing friend. The only family I've ever had. Without her, I wouldn't be here today." Nino explained before starting to play.
I sat on the sofa and listened.
Lili, you know there's still a place for people like us
The same blood runs in every hand
You see it's not the wings that make the angel
Just have to move the bat out of your head
For every step in any walk
Any town of any thought
I'll be your guide
For every street of any scene
Any place you've never been
I'll be your guide
My eyes widened when he started to sing. Lili. My sister's name. I bit my lower lip, listening to the lyrics. The music was simple, yet, beautiful and the words sank in my heart like a knife. It was exactly what I lived with her. The crisis, the pills for her heart that she called 'her drugs'. The way she was living for music to hold on and survive. The way she fought because she wanted to be a singer. But I could see some parts of the song were talking about Nino. And some were talking about them. Was he telling the truth? Does Lili never completely left because of me? Did she save him?
I tightened my grip around the necklace against my skin. He had our mother's necklace after all.
Tears started to roll down my cheeks at the same time than Nino. His voice shook a bit, the sign emotion was overwhelming his heart.
At the end of the song, Nino bowed deeply and joined the MC who welcomed him, probably crying behind his sunglasses.
"What a song, Ninomiya-kun! I think you made everybody cry."
"I'm sorry." I smiled.
"It was a very beautiful song. Could you tell us more about it?"
"Unfortunately, this song's story is very personal. I just can tell you that the person who inspired me the lyrics saved me when everything was...dark. She taught me not to listen to what people can say and to fight for my dreams. Whatever the life we born in is, nothing is written as long as we change. I wasn't born lucky, I went through very hard things and people always said I would die before my 30th years old. But I'm here today. Because the person of this song proved me people were wrong. You write your own future. The only difference is how you fight for your happiness. And..." Nino looked at the camera with a soft smile. "Satoshi, if you listen to me, I want to tell you her biggest wish was to see you happy. And it's mine too. She was right, you're an amazing person. Your path is not all drawn." I looked down, clenching my fists.
"What a clever boy!" Jun smirked.
"Shut up." I replied.
Lili, easy as a kiss we'll find an answer
Put all your fears back in the shade
Don't become a ghost without no colors
'Cause you're the best paint, life ever made
For every step in any walk
Any town of any thought
I'll be your guide
For every street of any scene
Any place you've never been
I'll be your guide
My single worked very well. I was happy because it meant my words touched people's hearts.
I didn't care about the success as long as I could sing my compositions. I never forgot what I was before I met Lili and sometimes, I came back to the place where I lived, in the street and sang. I took my guitar and sang. People stopped to listen to me and thanked me for this good moment. Despite my success, I didn't want to forget where I was from. I wasn't ashamed of my past but proud of the path I had made.
One day, I stopped in front of a library where a poster caught my attention. There was an exhibition on the afternoon. But what caught my attention was the name of the artist. Ohno Satoshi. I smiled happily. Had he finally find his own path?
I went to the exhibition to be sure it was the same Ohno that I knew. The paintings were wonderful and people seemed to like it.
But I stopped in front of the biggest one. Tears started to roll down my cheeks when I saw Lili's face laughing, a guitar in her arms and me next to her. What the...
"I'm sure she laughed like that when she was with you." A soft voice said behind me.
"She had a beautiful smile." I nodded, my eyes not leaving the painting.
"Life is unfair. She didn't deserve to end like that."
"Yes. But she was so happy despite the sickness. She never cried in front of someone else."
"She was very brave. But her death brought me one happy thing."
"Eh?" I turned my head to look at Ohno. He was even more beautiful when he smiled. He had changed a lot in these past months. His hair was longer and brown now and he was wearing black jeans with a tee-shirt where you could read 'Impossible is nothing'. He wasn't the same man than eight months ago.
"I met you." He simply said, looking at the painting with pink cheeks. Where was the cold yakuza I met a year ago?
"Well, people always feel lucky to meet me." I smirked under his laugh.
"Kazu?"
"Hun?"
"Thank you." Two simple words that meant everything. I grinned, taking his hand and we both looked at Lili's portrait.
I gasped when I saw her winking before shaking my head with a soft laugh.
"What?" Ohno asked.
"Nothing." I laid my head on his shoulder with a smile.
I had certainly dreamt. Ghost didn't exist after all....
Owari ;)
A/N: Okay, it was a complete weird OS, I'm so sorry xD I hoped you enjoyed it a bit at least despite my weird ideas xD
Lili, désolée pour ça, je voulais utiliser cette chanson pour que ça rend l'os original et que tu aies un petit hommage en même temps ;) mais ça a tourné bizarre xD j'aurais peut-être dû écrire quelque chose de plus classique xD Anyway, bon anniversaire ma soeur sorcière, I wish you all the best (mais je garde l'Ohmiya par contre :P) XOXO et à Didou la grosse aussi ;)