Breaking chains (12/16)
Title: Breaking chains
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairings: Sakumoto, Ohmiya, Junba
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst, BDSM
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: If I owned Sakumoto they would already be tied up on my bed xD
Summary: I was 18 years old the first time I met him. I was a student, he was my teacher. Our relationship was forbidden but it didn't stop us to fall in love. But what I hadn't planned was the dark part of his life that would make me feel alive and free but at the same time, would tie me up to a dangerous relationship.
A/N: Jun and Aiba are 18 years old, Sho is 30 in this story.
Chapter 12:
"How did you get that?" I asked softly.
"It doesn't matter how I did! Fuck, Jun, do you realize how I feel?!!!" Masaki cried, hitting the table with his fist.
"I want to know how!"
“Sasuke from class B saw you and took these pictures! He bought it to him not to let him give them to the principal because I wanted your explanations!”
“I…”
"I trusted you! I thought you really loved me and would wait for me!! I look like an idiot, now! After all I said to Sakurai-sensei! I'm so stupid!!" Aiba buried his face in his hands, crying. I tried to approach him but he pushed my hand away. "Don't touch me!!"
"Masaki, please... I can explain!" I implored.
"And what will you say?! That you lied? That you never loved me and were fucking him while you were dating me?!"
"Masaki, please..."
"What?! Isn't it the truth?"
"I never cheated on you. I swear we weren't together when it started between us."
"Should it make me feel better?" Aiba asked sarcastically.
"Please, I know you're angry and sad and it's normal but let me explain." I kneeled down and bowed.
"Okay..." Aiba sat down on the sofa, hugging his knees against him.
"If I have to be honest, I wasn't in love with you when you asked me out."
"I feel even better now."
"Let me finish. I didn't love you but then, it changed. I loved you as a friend but as a lover it was amazing. Everything was easy with you, it was so simple to love you. I was sincere when I told you that I would wait for our graduation before dating you. I was sure of this promise."
"Then, why?" Aiba sobbed, my heart tightening in front of the pain I was causing to him.
"Sho started to seduce me when we broke up. Of course, I rejected him but anytime he was trying to approach me, it was harder to push him away. He was attracting me. And without knowing it, I fell in love with him."
"Why? He is 12 years older and he is your teacher."
"I don't know. It's like... I was attracted to him and... I just love him."
"Why not me?"
"I don't know. I can't even explain it. I don't know why I fell for him. Maybe because of his two sides."
"His two sides?"
"It's special..." I looked away. Why did I say that?! Baka me!
"I think you owe me the truth, Jun!"
"We... We are in BDSM..." I said shyly.
"WHAT?! Have you lost your mind?! In BDSM?!"
"Don't worry, Sho doesn't force me and takes care of me."
"He is just a pervert who takes advantage of you! You have to stop that, Jun!"
"Masaki, try to understand..."
"What?! Are you serious?! I’m discovering that you are in a relationship with our teacher when you had promised me to wait for me. And plus, that this pervert dragged you in BDSM! How do you want I understand?!"
"I know it's horrible what I did to you but I'm happy with Sho. Of course it was hard at the beginning but I really love him and our relationship is special but strong and Sho makes me happy. He doesn't force me nor harm me."
"So, you don't love me..." Aiba's voice broke, killing my heart.
"I do love you, Ma-chan but..."
"You love him more." Aiba whispered, tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Masaki, don't cry please." I implored.
"Why? Because it makes you feel guilty?! I think I have the right to cry, you've betrayed me and you’ve broken my heart!" Aiba sobbed.
"I... I hate making you cry... I... You're so precious for me, it's the worst punishment for me to see you crying." I cried.
"You should have thought about it before betraying me!"
"Ma-chan..." I pulled him in a hug and despite his resistance, tightened my grip around him.
"I don't need your pity..."
"I don't feel any pity for you. I told you, you are precious to me."
"What does he have that I don't?" Aiba sobbed.
"Nothing. It's just that I feel safe in his arms."
"And not with me?"
"With you it's different, I can't compare."
"Do you realize that I can break your couple? I can tell everything to your father and the director."
"Masaki..."
"I won't do it. Even if you've broken my heart, I can't hurt you like that because I love you too much..."
"Thank you Masaki!"
"But I can't face you anymore. I don't want to see you again except in class. You're nothing to me."
"No! Please, Masaki! Don't do that! I need you!" I begged.
"You're an egoist and a hypocrite! How can you ask me to be your friend after what you did to me?!"
"I..."
"Leave. Leave, please."
"Masa..."
"Get out!!! And don't call me like that ever again!" Aiba yelled, pushing my hand away. I lowered my head and left, my heart tightening when I heard his cries. I didn't want to hurt him when things started with Sho but how would have been able to fight my feelings for him to preserve Aiba?
"Where were you, I was worried sick?!" Sho yelled when I rang.
"Sorry, I talked with my mom." I lied. I should have canceled our meeting, it was stupid to go to him after what happened with Aiba.
"Send me a message the next time you do that."Sho calmed down a bit.
"Hun." I nodded.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes." I forced a smile. I didn't want to worry him or make him feel guilty by talking about Aiba.
"Okay. Do you want to drink something?"
"A beer."
"Eh?!"
"I'm 18 years old, I'm not a baby and it's not with a beer that I'll end drunk." I replied.
"Just one, then." Sho agreed but I saw in his eyes he was wondering what was happening to me. I wasn't the type of man who liked to drink but right now, I needed it. I needed to forget.
"Thank you." I sat on his sofa, drinking and staring at the wall with empty eyes.
"Jun, what's wrong, baby?"
"Just thinking about school and work." I smiled.
"I can make you think about something better."Sho smirked and pushed me on the big sofa, climbing on top of me. I let him do without any resistance, not even trying to hug him.
"Sho..." I finally moaned when his hand stroked my member.
"Come on." My lover led me to the bedroom and tied my hands to the bed before putting a blindfold on my eyes. Usually, I loved that. It felt even more amazing not to see anything and being tied up but right now, I didn't even want to fuck. I wanted to hide myself in my bedroom and to cry alone. I also wanted to go back to Aiba to apologize and stop the pain I threw in his face.
I gasped when I felt Sho's mouth playing with my balls. I could feel the pleasure but I hadn't the pleasure in mind, just a physical pleasure.
"I want to spank you. Would you be okay with that?"
"Yes." I whispered. At least, if he could have his pleasure, I would feel a bit better.
"I'll use a whip. Turn around." Sho untied me and I ended on my four. His tongue licked my skin and his hand stroked my balls before I gasped, feeling the first hit. Then, Sho stroked my butt cheek before hitting me again.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes." I bit my lip. I think I would have liked it if I hadn't had Aiba in my mind. I screamed when another hit came with a stroke after. I could feel Sho's hard member against my leg and it gave me the strength to support. Because even if nothing could please me right now, I wanted him to have his orgasm.
"You're so beautiful like that, Jun. I love it. I love you!" Sho groaned, hitting my butt again. I screamed, my arms shaking because of the pain. It was too much. I couldn't handle it while I was in this state.
"Please, Sho..." I begged.
"Did I tell you to speak?!" Sho scowled, hitting me again. Please, Sho, stop that! I can't bear it anymore! Please!
"CHIPMUNK!!" I screamed. I felt Sho freezing. "Chipmunk, please." I sobbed.
"Baby!" Sho gasped and took my blindfold off, turning me. "Jun!" My lover hugged me tightly when he saw my tears that weren't tears of pleasure but of pain.
"I'm so-rry." I sobbed against his chest.
"Don't be, baby. What's wrong, I knew you were weird. Why did you use the safety word? Was I too rough?!"
"No... I... It's not your fault or the spank... I just don't feel well, today..." I whispered.
"Oh, Jun, why didn't you tell me from the beginning, we would have just watched a movie."
"I... I'm sorry. I wanted to please you."
"Baka, I won't have any pleasure if you haven't or if you are in pain!"
"Sorry..."
"You're burning." Sho frowned when he touched my forehead. "What have you done to be in this state? I'll take care of you." My lover laid me on the bed and put a fresh patch on my forehead. "I'll prepare you something." I smiled weakly but didn't say I wasn't sick. My fever was psychological. I was shivering despite the hot temperature and sweat was covering my body.
"Here, baby." Sho came back with a bowl.
"I'm not hungry." I protested.
"You have to eat to get better." Sho replied.
"Sho, I want to go home."
"Why? Aren't you fine, here?" Sho asked with a hurt look.
"I am. But I want prefer to go home, I need to think a bit."
"Are you breaking up with me?"
"No. But I... Please, Sho, I just want to be in my house, it's not against you. You know how much I love you."
"Are you afraid of me because of the last session?"
"No. I swear I'm not afraid, I know you would never hurt me on purpose."
"Okay. Come on, then." Sho lifted me in his arms and carried me to his car. We stayed silent in the car before Sho stopped in front of my house. "I'll call you tonight." My lover kissed me and I nodded before leaving.
When Sho called me, I didn't answer. In fact, I didn't give him any news for the rest of the vacations. I had tried to see Aiba but my friend had always refused to see me. It was killing me inside. I wasn't even afraid that Masaki could tell the truth to someone, I was just suffering because I had hurt him and made him cry. And I was also suffering because he didn't want to ever see me again. I stayed in my bedroom for 7 days before school started again. I was scared to see Sho because I had ignored his calls during all this time.
Aiba ignored me when I entered the classroom. I sat on my chair and stared at the sky through the window. When Sho arrived, I kept my eyes on my notebook, not daring to look at him.
Sho didn't ask me any questions during the lesson. I also didn't raise my head from by notebook. Aiba hadn't talk to me either and I wondered why I was staying here. Maybe I just should leave.
"Matsumoto-kun, stay, please." Sho ordered when the bell rang. I ignored him under my classmates shocked eyes and left the class.
"Jun!!" I walked faster, trying to escape from him but a strong hand caught me. "Jun, what the hell are you doing?!"Sho yelled.
"I...."
"You're ignoring me for one week and disobey me!"
"Sorry, I have to go, my father is waiting for me." I pushed his hand away and ran.
As my father refused when I asked to stay at home because I didn't feel well, I had to go to school and concentrated on my studies to stand up everyday. I wasn't hungry and didn't eat a lot. Maybe I was overreacting for Masaki but this story was eating me from inside. Aiba was my best friend since forever, we grew together, did many things together, shared our first kisses and mostly, made love together for the first time. Aiba was a precious person for me and I had betrayed him. He was right to hate me because I was the worst friend someone could have. I didn't deserve him but at the same time, I couldn't live without him. I needed him so much. He was my little sun when I felt bad. I was so selfish to think that when I had hurt him so much. His rejection was the worst thing he could do to me.
****
"Matsumoto, the answer, please." Sho said coldly. I stood up, my legs shaking. I wasn't feeling well since one week and had lost lots of weight.
"Sensei... I don't feel well..." I said weakly.
"Don't start again. Come on, you're strong enough to answer." Sho snapped. I nodded but as I was reaching the blackboard, my legs gave up and I collapsed on the ground under my classmates screams.
I opened my eyes with a moan of pain and found Masaki holding my hand and Sho in the corner of the room. Where was I? What happened?
"Jun, are you okay?!" Aiba asked when he saw I was awake.
"Hurt... Where am I?"
"At hospital. You fainted in the classroom. What have you done, you had a high fever and was too weak to stay stood because of a bad anemia! When was your last lunch?!" Sho snapped but I saw tears in his eyes.
"I... Three days ago." I whispered.
"What?! Are you crazy?! Three days without eating?!" Sho yelled.
"Calm down, Sakurai-sensei." Aiba snapped. "Jun is weak, he needs calm and you are yelling!"
"Sorry. I thought I had lost him... You were in a very bad state, Jun." Sho looked at me with sad eyes.
"I'm sorry." I lowered my eyes, staring at my hands.
"Sakurai-sensei, I would like to talk with Jun, alone." Aiba said softly.
"I need a coffee." Sho nodded and kissed my forehead before leaving.
"He seems to love you deeply." Aiba said sadly.
"Hun."
"Did you think stopping to eat would make me forgive you?"
"No. I... I just can't... Masaki, I know I am selfish and horrible but I need you in my life." I whispered.
"You've hurt me."
"I know. But... Leave it. I'm fine now, you can go home."
"And you're going not to eat again? You want we pity you?" Aiba snapped.
"No. I just don't want to hurt you more and I want you to smile again."
"I don't know what to tell you, Jun but these days without you were very hard. I... I miss you and even if it hurts to see you with someone else, I don't want to lose you." Aiba whispered, sitting on the edge of my bed to take my hand.
"Me too."
"I... It's very painful to know that you belong to someone else but Sakurai really cares about you and I don't want you to lose your smile because of me. I can try to be your friend again but it will be hard."
"Really?! Thank you, Masaki!!"
"But I don't want to be the third wheel."
"You won't be! Thank you for giving me another chance!" I hugged him tightly with happiness, all the pain I had vanishing.
"You'll have to help me to find a boyfriend who will be better than you." Aiba smiled sadly.
"I will. I promise I'll do everything to make you happy and to repair the pain I caused to you!" I whispered, stroking his cheek softly.
"I love you, Jun."
"Me too."
"And one condition, you'll have to spend some time with me because since you're with Sakurai, we don't see each other a lot."
"No problem." I grinned.
"And be careful with Sakurai, you would have lots of problems if someone discovered you."
"Hun." I nodded and turned my head when we heard someone entering the room.
"I let you two." Aiba kissed my forehead and stopped next to Sakurai. "I warn you, I've decided to accept your relationship with Jun because he is my best friend but we will spend time together and if you hurt him.... I swear you'll regret it for the rest of your life." Aiba said coldly.
"Yes." Sho nodded seriously. "Thank you for doing that."
"I'm doing that for Jun. Because he looks happy with you." Aiba muttered before leaving.
I stared at my hands, not daring to look at Sho after what I had done to him.
"He is a wonderful friend." Sho whispered.
"Hun."
"Jun?" Sho took my chin to raise my face.
"Sorry."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I was scared. Masaki is very precious for me and knowing I had hurt him like that and he refused to talk to me again... It drove me crazy. I know I've been unfair with you and I apologize for that."
"I just want you to tell me when something happens to you, don't push me away and suffer alone. I thought you hated me and didn't want to date me anymore."
"No. I was lost. I didn't know how to react."
"It's okay, now." Sho sat on my bed and hugged me in his arms.
"I'm sorry." I looked at him with teary eyes and with a smile, Sho cupped my face to kiss me hungrily, climbing on top of me. I didn't realize his hands had taken off my boxer and were stroking my thigh. "Sho... Not here..." I moaned.
"Tsss, let me do, baby." Sho unzipped his jeans and lifting my butt, entered me. I gasped, my nails sinking in his shoulder. "I've missed you so much, baby." Sho whispered, thrusting wildly inside me. I bit my lip not to scream in both pleasure and pain. Fucking teacher, he knew how to drive me crazy and submit me.
"Sho... Sho... Harder!"
"Did I allow you to order?!" Sho slapped my face. I whined but didn't say anything not to disappoint him. "Baby... So tight..." Sho thrusted harder, the bed cracking in protestation before releasing inside me, making me come some seconds later."I have to go. I'll see you at school tomorrow." Sho kissed me softly and stood up, zipping his jeans back.
"Okay." I smiled.
****
Masaki kept his promise and didn't tell anything. We decided to work together for our exams and spend some hours at playing and talking like before. The atmosphere between us was still a bit awkward but we managed to rebuild our friendship and Masaki even found someone else. I discovered his new crush with happiness and even if it was just a crush, I wanted it to become more because Masaki deserved to be happy.
I made lots of progress with Nino, my favorite actor becoming a real friend for me with Ohchan. Kazunari was someone very clever and funny with his sharp tongue and his jokes. Ohchan was calmer but I knew he was listening carefully to what happened around him.
"Is it okay?" Sho whispered when we entered my house.
"Yes, my father had a meeting and my mother isn't here." I chuckled.
"Perfect." Sho kissed me and we managed to join the living room between our rough kisses, laughing happily.
"Sho..."
"I want to fuck you hard." Sho opened my shirt while I was taking his belt off, our mouths never leaving each other.
"What the hell?!" We both jumped and screamed in fear, seeing my father next to the door.
"Papa!" I gasped, buttoning my shirt back.
"What the hell is happening here?!"My father yelled.
"I can explain!" I panicked as my father was glaring at us. If a look could kill, Sho would be dead.
"You've raped my son, I'm going to send you in jail for that!" Matsumoto yelled.
"Papa, he hasn't raped me!"
"Shut up, Jun!" My father snapped.
"But dad..."
"I haven't raped your son, Matsumoto-san." Sho said calmly. I was surprised by the visible calm on his face. How could he do not to yell at my father who was accusing him of rape?
"And what is it, then?! He is 18 years and you are 30! It's disgusting, you've taken advantage of a teenager!"
"STOP!!!!" I yelled, making my father jump and getting a surprised look on Sho's face. "He hasn't forced me, dad! I AM GAY!!!"
"What?! Have you lost your mind, Jun?!" My father shouted.
"No! I love men! I was already sucking Masaki when you thought I was working!" I gasped my father's hand hit my cheek violently and made me fall on the ground.
"Jun..."
"Don't approach him!" My father yelled as Sho was about to touch me.
"I am gay, dad. I've always been. And Sho never forced me, I love him. He is the only one I need to be happy!"
"You're disgusting! My son can't be a fag!"
"I am. Why would it be disgusting?! I don't harm anyone, I just love a man! Outside, there are persons who kill or steal, why being gay would you make you treat me like a criminal?!" I cried.
"Sakurai, get out, I need to talk with my son." My father said coldly.
"I..."
"Leave or I'll call the police."
"I'll see you tomorrow." Sho whispered to me.
"Dad..."
"In your bedroom, now! We'll talk when your mother will be back. I'm sure she knew but allowed her baby to date this pervert! She has protected you too much and now, this is the result! A fag!" I clenched my fists and climbed the stairs, slamming my door behind me. Grabbing my phone, I called Sho immediately, trying not to sob too much.
"Baby, are you okay?!"
"My father wants my mother to be here to talk."
"It's my fault. If I had been more careful..."
"It was mine, Sho. I didn't think my dad would come back earlier. I'm so sorry..." I sobbed.
"Hey, baby, everything will be all right. I'm sure we'll resolve that quickly."
"I'm scared, Sho. My father is scaring, have you seen his eyes when he...hit me?"
"I promise I won't let him hurt you again, baby. If he touches you, I'll kill him."
"I have to go. I love you, Sho. So much." I whispered.
"Me too, my angel. I'll see you tomorrow."
"Bye."
"Bye, baby."
When I joined the living room, I saw my mother crying and she hugged me tightly, whispering apologies.
"Enough, Hanako! Your protective role is over from now on! Jun, I forbid you to see this man again!"
"But..."
"If you disobey, I'll disown you and you'll leave this house." I clenched my jaw but nodded. If he thought he could prevent me to see Sho, he was wrong. "Be careful, if you disobey, I'll know it immediately and you'll end in the street. I'll arrange a meeting with Takeru-san, you'll meet his daughter and will marry her."
"But dad..."
"Shut up! And you can forget your dreams about being an actor, it will be Keio, nothing else and when you'll pass, you'll be the next CEO of my company, understood?"
"Yes."
"That's my son. You have a duty toward me, Jun and I want you to become a man worth of our family. I count on you."
"Yes, father. I'll do my best to get you proud of me." I smiled.
"Perfect. Go to study, now."
"Yes." I bowed and joined my bedroom. Stupid bastard! You really think I am going to follow your stupid rules like a good dog? You really are an idiot. I sent a message to Sho, telling him everything was all right and that I would see him tomorrow and would let him make love to me as he wanted. Now, we just had to be very careful.
****
"Baby..." Sho moaned between two hungry kisses. As soon as my classmates had left the room to eat, Aiba understanding I wouldn't stay with him today, Sho had pulled me in passionate kisses, devouring my lips as if there was no tomorrow.
"Sho!" I arched my head back when I felt his hard length against my thigh.
"I want you... I need you..." Sho took our clothes off and with his belt, tied my wrists up. "I've always dreamed to fuck you here. On this desk." My teacher slipped two fingers inside me, making me gasp but the cold wood under my cheek, helped me to relax. After a quick preparation, Sho entered me from behind and didn't wait to thrust wildly inside me. I was biting my lip so hard not to scream that I pierced it, blood invading my throat.
"Sho... Please..."
"Quiet, baby or I'll have to punish you." Sho slapped my butt, getting a loud moan from me. Shit, it was too good to stay silent. "Turn around." Sho pulled out and laid me on the desk to take me again, wrapping my legs around his waist. I wrapped his neck with my tied hands to steal his lips because I knew he wouldn't punish me for that as we had to stay quiet. "Jun... My angel, you're so perfect... So tight... I love you... You're mine... Forever..." I moaned at his sweet words that were accompanying his so rough thrusts.
"I love you too, Sho... Forever..." His hand grabbed my dripping length and pumped it quickly, bringing me over the edge as his flesh was hitting my sweet spot again and again.
"Jun!!!" Sho bit my lip while coming inside me, his body sticking mine hard against the desk. Panting, my master laid kisses on my skin, his hips stopping its moves and Sho untied my hands to hug me tightly against him. "You're so precious for me, Jun." I smiled, feeling his hand stroking my hair softly. It was what I loved about Sho. He could be so rough and so sweet at the same time, giving a perfect balance in our couple, never falling into stupid sappiness.
"Don't ever let me go, Sho." I whispered.
"Never." Sho grinned, kissing my lips tenderly. God, I loved him so damn much. He was everything to me. My everything. Nothing would ever be able to separate us.
Or it was what I stupidly thought...
When I came back home, my world collapsed. All my dreams vanished and reality hit me right in the heart. I think I really died inside, this day.
To be continued...
A/N: Ouch, this chapter was mean xD everything is happening at the same time to our Sakumoto xD My poor Masaki, I felt so bad for hurting him TT But he will be all right, he is a great friend, after all <3 But it won’t be the same with papa Jun, I really hate this bastard ><
I don’t know when I’ll be able to update as my mother will soon give birth *I’m so happy* but I’ll try not to forget you with this fic, just 4 chapters left after all xD
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairings: Sakumoto, Ohmiya, Junba
Genre: Au, drama, romance, angst, BDSM
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: If I owned Sakumoto they would already be tied up on my bed xD
Summary: I was 18 years old the first time I met him. I was a student, he was my teacher. Our relationship was forbidden but it didn't stop us to fall in love. But what I hadn't planned was the dark part of his life that would make me feel alive and free but at the same time, would tie me up to a dangerous relationship.
A/N: Jun and Aiba are 18 years old, Sho is 30 in this story.
Chapter 12:
"How did you get that?" I asked softly.
"It doesn't matter how I did! Fuck, Jun, do you realize how I feel?!!!" Masaki cried, hitting the table with his fist.
"I want to know how!"
“Sasuke from class B saw you and took these pictures! He bought it to him not to let him give them to the principal because I wanted your explanations!”
“I…”
"I trusted you! I thought you really loved me and would wait for me!! I look like an idiot, now! After all I said to Sakurai-sensei! I'm so stupid!!" Aiba buried his face in his hands, crying. I tried to approach him but he pushed my hand away. "Don't touch me!!"
"Masaki, please... I can explain!" I implored.
"And what will you say?! That you lied? That you never loved me and were fucking him while you were dating me?!"
"Masaki, please..."
"What?! Isn't it the truth?"
"I never cheated on you. I swear we weren't together when it started between us."
"Should it make me feel better?" Aiba asked sarcastically.
"Please, I know you're angry and sad and it's normal but let me explain." I kneeled down and bowed.
"Okay..." Aiba sat down on the sofa, hugging his knees against him.
"If I have to be honest, I wasn't in love with you when you asked me out."
"I feel even better now."
"Let me finish. I didn't love you but then, it changed. I loved you as a friend but as a lover it was amazing. Everything was easy with you, it was so simple to love you. I was sincere when I told you that I would wait for our graduation before dating you. I was sure of this promise."
"Then, why?" Aiba sobbed, my heart tightening in front of the pain I was causing to him.
"Sho started to seduce me when we broke up. Of course, I rejected him but anytime he was trying to approach me, it was harder to push him away. He was attracting me. And without knowing it, I fell in love with him."
"Why? He is 12 years older and he is your teacher."
"I don't know. It's like... I was attracted to him and... I just love him."
"Why not me?"
"I don't know. I can't even explain it. I don't know why I fell for him. Maybe because of his two sides."
"His two sides?"
"It's special..." I looked away. Why did I say that?! Baka me!
"I think you owe me the truth, Jun!"
"We... We are in BDSM..." I said shyly.
"WHAT?! Have you lost your mind?! In BDSM?!"
"Don't worry, Sho doesn't force me and takes care of me."
"He is just a pervert who takes advantage of you! You have to stop that, Jun!"
"Masaki, try to understand..."
"What?! Are you serious?! I’m discovering that you are in a relationship with our teacher when you had promised me to wait for me. And plus, that this pervert dragged you in BDSM! How do you want I understand?!"
"I know it's horrible what I did to you but I'm happy with Sho. Of course it was hard at the beginning but I really love him and our relationship is special but strong and Sho makes me happy. He doesn't force me nor harm me."
"So, you don't love me..." Aiba's voice broke, killing my heart.
"I do love you, Ma-chan but..."
"You love him more." Aiba whispered, tears rolling down his cheeks.
"Masaki, don't cry please." I implored.
"Why? Because it makes you feel guilty?! I think I have the right to cry, you've betrayed me and you’ve broken my heart!" Aiba sobbed.
"I... I hate making you cry... I... You're so precious for me, it's the worst punishment for me to see you crying." I cried.
"You should have thought about it before betraying me!"
"Ma-chan..." I pulled him in a hug and despite his resistance, tightened my grip around him.
"I don't need your pity..."
"I don't feel any pity for you. I told you, you are precious to me."
"What does he have that I don't?" Aiba sobbed.
"Nothing. It's just that I feel safe in his arms."
"And not with me?"
"With you it's different, I can't compare."
"Do you realize that I can break your couple? I can tell everything to your father and the director."
"Masaki..."
"I won't do it. Even if you've broken my heart, I can't hurt you like that because I love you too much..."
"Thank you Masaki!"
"But I can't face you anymore. I don't want to see you again except in class. You're nothing to me."
"No! Please, Masaki! Don't do that! I need you!" I begged.
"You're an egoist and a hypocrite! How can you ask me to be your friend after what you did to me?!"
"I..."
"Leave. Leave, please."
"Masa..."
"Get out!!! And don't call me like that ever again!" Aiba yelled, pushing my hand away. I lowered my head and left, my heart tightening when I heard his cries. I didn't want to hurt him when things started with Sho but how would have been able to fight my feelings for him to preserve Aiba?
"Where were you, I was worried sick?!" Sho yelled when I rang.
"Sorry, I talked with my mom." I lied. I should have canceled our meeting, it was stupid to go to him after what happened with Aiba.
"Send me a message the next time you do that."Sho calmed down a bit.
"Hun." I nodded.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes." I forced a smile. I didn't want to worry him or make him feel guilty by talking about Aiba.
"Okay. Do you want to drink something?"
"A beer."
"Eh?!"
"I'm 18 years old, I'm not a baby and it's not with a beer that I'll end drunk." I replied.
"Just one, then." Sho agreed but I saw in his eyes he was wondering what was happening to me. I wasn't the type of man who liked to drink but right now, I needed it. I needed to forget.
"Thank you." I sat on his sofa, drinking and staring at the wall with empty eyes.
"Jun, what's wrong, baby?"
"Just thinking about school and work." I smiled.
"I can make you think about something better."Sho smirked and pushed me on the big sofa, climbing on top of me. I let him do without any resistance, not even trying to hug him.
"Sho..." I finally moaned when his hand stroked my member.
"Come on." My lover led me to the bedroom and tied my hands to the bed before putting a blindfold on my eyes. Usually, I loved that. It felt even more amazing not to see anything and being tied up but right now, I didn't even want to fuck. I wanted to hide myself in my bedroom and to cry alone. I also wanted to go back to Aiba to apologize and stop the pain I threw in his face.
I gasped when I felt Sho's mouth playing with my balls. I could feel the pleasure but I hadn't the pleasure in mind, just a physical pleasure.
"I want to spank you. Would you be okay with that?"
"Yes." I whispered. At least, if he could have his pleasure, I would feel a bit better.
"I'll use a whip. Turn around." Sho untied me and I ended on my four. His tongue licked my skin and his hand stroked my balls before I gasped, feeling the first hit. Then, Sho stroked my butt cheek before hitting me again.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes." I bit my lip. I think I would have liked it if I hadn't had Aiba in my mind. I screamed when another hit came with a stroke after. I could feel Sho's hard member against my leg and it gave me the strength to support. Because even if nothing could please me right now, I wanted him to have his orgasm.
"You're so beautiful like that, Jun. I love it. I love you!" Sho groaned, hitting my butt again. I screamed, my arms shaking because of the pain. It was too much. I couldn't handle it while I was in this state.
"Please, Sho..." I begged.
"Did I tell you to speak?!" Sho scowled, hitting me again. Please, Sho, stop that! I can't bear it anymore! Please!
"CHIPMUNK!!" I screamed. I felt Sho freezing. "Chipmunk, please." I sobbed.
"Baby!" Sho gasped and took my blindfold off, turning me. "Jun!" My lover hugged me tightly when he saw my tears that weren't tears of pleasure but of pain.
"I'm so-rry." I sobbed against his chest.
"Don't be, baby. What's wrong, I knew you were weird. Why did you use the safety word? Was I too rough?!"
"No... I... It's not your fault or the spank... I just don't feel well, today..." I whispered.
"Oh, Jun, why didn't you tell me from the beginning, we would have just watched a movie."
"I... I'm sorry. I wanted to please you."
"Baka, I won't have any pleasure if you haven't or if you are in pain!"
"Sorry..."
"You're burning." Sho frowned when he touched my forehead. "What have you done to be in this state? I'll take care of you." My lover laid me on the bed and put a fresh patch on my forehead. "I'll prepare you something." I smiled weakly but didn't say I wasn't sick. My fever was psychological. I was shivering despite the hot temperature and sweat was covering my body.
"Here, baby." Sho came back with a bowl.
"I'm not hungry." I protested.
"You have to eat to get better." Sho replied.
"Sho, I want to go home."
"Why? Aren't you fine, here?" Sho asked with a hurt look.
"I am. But I want prefer to go home, I need to think a bit."
"Are you breaking up with me?"
"No. But I... Please, Sho, I just want to be in my house, it's not against you. You know how much I love you."
"Are you afraid of me because of the last session?"
"No. I swear I'm not afraid, I know you would never hurt me on purpose."
"Okay. Come on, then." Sho lifted me in his arms and carried me to his car. We stayed silent in the car before Sho stopped in front of my house. "I'll call you tonight." My lover kissed me and I nodded before leaving.
When Sho called me, I didn't answer. In fact, I didn't give him any news for the rest of the vacations. I had tried to see Aiba but my friend had always refused to see me. It was killing me inside. I wasn't even afraid that Masaki could tell the truth to someone, I was just suffering because I had hurt him and made him cry. And I was also suffering because he didn't want to ever see me again. I stayed in my bedroom for 7 days before school started again. I was scared to see Sho because I had ignored his calls during all this time.
Aiba ignored me when I entered the classroom. I sat on my chair and stared at the sky through the window. When Sho arrived, I kept my eyes on my notebook, not daring to look at him.
Sho didn't ask me any questions during the lesson. I also didn't raise my head from by notebook. Aiba hadn't talk to me either and I wondered why I was staying here. Maybe I just should leave.
"Matsumoto-kun, stay, please." Sho ordered when the bell rang. I ignored him under my classmates shocked eyes and left the class.
"Jun!!" I walked faster, trying to escape from him but a strong hand caught me. "Jun, what the hell are you doing?!"Sho yelled.
"I...."
"You're ignoring me for one week and disobey me!"
"Sorry, I have to go, my father is waiting for me." I pushed his hand away and ran.
As my father refused when I asked to stay at home because I didn't feel well, I had to go to school and concentrated on my studies to stand up everyday. I wasn't hungry and didn't eat a lot. Maybe I was overreacting for Masaki but this story was eating me from inside. Aiba was my best friend since forever, we grew together, did many things together, shared our first kisses and mostly, made love together for the first time. Aiba was a precious person for me and I had betrayed him. He was right to hate me because I was the worst friend someone could have. I didn't deserve him but at the same time, I couldn't live without him. I needed him so much. He was my little sun when I felt bad. I was so selfish to think that when I had hurt him so much. His rejection was the worst thing he could do to me.
****
"Matsumoto, the answer, please." Sho said coldly. I stood up, my legs shaking. I wasn't feeling well since one week and had lost lots of weight.
"Sensei... I don't feel well..." I said weakly.
"Don't start again. Come on, you're strong enough to answer." Sho snapped. I nodded but as I was reaching the blackboard, my legs gave up and I collapsed on the ground under my classmates screams.
I opened my eyes with a moan of pain and found Masaki holding my hand and Sho in the corner of the room. Where was I? What happened?
"Jun, are you okay?!" Aiba asked when he saw I was awake.
"Hurt... Where am I?"
"At hospital. You fainted in the classroom. What have you done, you had a high fever and was too weak to stay stood because of a bad anemia! When was your last lunch?!" Sho snapped but I saw tears in his eyes.
"I... Three days ago." I whispered.
"What?! Are you crazy?! Three days without eating?!" Sho yelled.
"Calm down, Sakurai-sensei." Aiba snapped. "Jun is weak, he needs calm and you are yelling!"
"Sorry. I thought I had lost him... You were in a very bad state, Jun." Sho looked at me with sad eyes.
"I'm sorry." I lowered my eyes, staring at my hands.
"Sakurai-sensei, I would like to talk with Jun, alone." Aiba said softly.
"I need a coffee." Sho nodded and kissed my forehead before leaving.
"He seems to love you deeply." Aiba said sadly.
"Hun."
"Did you think stopping to eat would make me forgive you?"
"No. I... I just can't... Masaki, I know I am selfish and horrible but I need you in my life." I whispered.
"You've hurt me."
"I know. But... Leave it. I'm fine now, you can go home."
"And you're going not to eat again? You want we pity you?" Aiba snapped.
"No. I just don't want to hurt you more and I want you to smile again."
"I don't know what to tell you, Jun but these days without you were very hard. I... I miss you and even if it hurts to see you with someone else, I don't want to lose you." Aiba whispered, sitting on the edge of my bed to take my hand.
"Me too."
"I... It's very painful to know that you belong to someone else but Sakurai really cares about you and I don't want you to lose your smile because of me. I can try to be your friend again but it will be hard."
"Really?! Thank you, Masaki!!"
"But I don't want to be the third wheel."
"You won't be! Thank you for giving me another chance!" I hugged him tightly with happiness, all the pain I had vanishing.
"You'll have to help me to find a boyfriend who will be better than you." Aiba smiled sadly.
"I will. I promise I'll do everything to make you happy and to repair the pain I caused to you!" I whispered, stroking his cheek softly.
"I love you, Jun."
"Me too."
"And one condition, you'll have to spend some time with me because since you're with Sakurai, we don't see each other a lot."
"No problem." I grinned.
"And be careful with Sakurai, you would have lots of problems if someone discovered you."
"Hun." I nodded and turned my head when we heard someone entering the room.
"I let you two." Aiba kissed my forehead and stopped next to Sakurai. "I warn you, I've decided to accept your relationship with Jun because he is my best friend but we will spend time together and if you hurt him.... I swear you'll regret it for the rest of your life." Aiba said coldly.
"Yes." Sho nodded seriously. "Thank you for doing that."
"I'm doing that for Jun. Because he looks happy with you." Aiba muttered before leaving.
I stared at my hands, not daring to look at Sho after what I had done to him.
"He is a wonderful friend." Sho whispered.
"Hun."
"Jun?" Sho took my chin to raise my face.
"Sorry."
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"I was scared. Masaki is very precious for me and knowing I had hurt him like that and he refused to talk to me again... It drove me crazy. I know I've been unfair with you and I apologize for that."
"I just want you to tell me when something happens to you, don't push me away and suffer alone. I thought you hated me and didn't want to date me anymore."
"No. I was lost. I didn't know how to react."
"It's okay, now." Sho sat on my bed and hugged me in his arms.
"I'm sorry." I looked at him with teary eyes and with a smile, Sho cupped my face to kiss me hungrily, climbing on top of me. I didn't realize his hands had taken off my boxer and were stroking my thigh. "Sho... Not here..." I moaned.
"Tsss, let me do, baby." Sho unzipped his jeans and lifting my butt, entered me. I gasped, my nails sinking in his shoulder. "I've missed you so much, baby." Sho whispered, thrusting wildly inside me. I bit my lip not to scream in both pleasure and pain. Fucking teacher, he knew how to drive me crazy and submit me.
"Sho... Sho... Harder!"
"Did I allow you to order?!" Sho slapped my face. I whined but didn't say anything not to disappoint him. "Baby... So tight..." Sho thrusted harder, the bed cracking in protestation before releasing inside me, making me come some seconds later."I have to go. I'll see you at school tomorrow." Sho kissed me softly and stood up, zipping his jeans back.
"Okay." I smiled.
****
Masaki kept his promise and didn't tell anything. We decided to work together for our exams and spend some hours at playing and talking like before. The atmosphere between us was still a bit awkward but we managed to rebuild our friendship and Masaki even found someone else. I discovered his new crush with happiness and even if it was just a crush, I wanted it to become more because Masaki deserved to be happy.
I made lots of progress with Nino, my favorite actor becoming a real friend for me with Ohchan. Kazunari was someone very clever and funny with his sharp tongue and his jokes. Ohchan was calmer but I knew he was listening carefully to what happened around him.
"Is it okay?" Sho whispered when we entered my house.
"Yes, my father had a meeting and my mother isn't here." I chuckled.
"Perfect." Sho kissed me and we managed to join the living room between our rough kisses, laughing happily.
"Sho..."
"I want to fuck you hard." Sho opened my shirt while I was taking his belt off, our mouths never leaving each other.
"What the hell?!" We both jumped and screamed in fear, seeing my father next to the door.
"Papa!" I gasped, buttoning my shirt back.
"What the hell is happening here?!"My father yelled.
"I can explain!" I panicked as my father was glaring at us. If a look could kill, Sho would be dead.
"You've raped my son, I'm going to send you in jail for that!" Matsumoto yelled.
"Papa, he hasn't raped me!"
"Shut up, Jun!" My father snapped.
"But dad..."
"I haven't raped your son, Matsumoto-san." Sho said calmly. I was surprised by the visible calm on his face. How could he do not to yell at my father who was accusing him of rape?
"And what is it, then?! He is 18 years and you are 30! It's disgusting, you've taken advantage of a teenager!"
"STOP!!!!" I yelled, making my father jump and getting a surprised look on Sho's face. "He hasn't forced me, dad! I AM GAY!!!"
"What?! Have you lost your mind, Jun?!" My father shouted.
"No! I love men! I was already sucking Masaki when you thought I was working!" I gasped my father's hand hit my cheek violently and made me fall on the ground.
"Jun..."
"Don't approach him!" My father yelled as Sho was about to touch me.
"I am gay, dad. I've always been. And Sho never forced me, I love him. He is the only one I need to be happy!"
"You're disgusting! My son can't be a fag!"
"I am. Why would it be disgusting?! I don't harm anyone, I just love a man! Outside, there are persons who kill or steal, why being gay would you make you treat me like a criminal?!" I cried.
"Sakurai, get out, I need to talk with my son." My father said coldly.
"I..."
"Leave or I'll call the police."
"I'll see you tomorrow." Sho whispered to me.
"Dad..."
"In your bedroom, now! We'll talk when your mother will be back. I'm sure she knew but allowed her baby to date this pervert! She has protected you too much and now, this is the result! A fag!" I clenched my fists and climbed the stairs, slamming my door behind me. Grabbing my phone, I called Sho immediately, trying not to sob too much.
"Baby, are you okay?!"
"My father wants my mother to be here to talk."
"It's my fault. If I had been more careful..."
"It was mine, Sho. I didn't think my dad would come back earlier. I'm so sorry..." I sobbed.
"Hey, baby, everything will be all right. I'm sure we'll resolve that quickly."
"I'm scared, Sho. My father is scaring, have you seen his eyes when he...hit me?"
"I promise I won't let him hurt you again, baby. If he touches you, I'll kill him."
"I have to go. I love you, Sho. So much." I whispered.
"Me too, my angel. I'll see you tomorrow."
"Bye."
"Bye, baby."
When I joined the living room, I saw my mother crying and she hugged me tightly, whispering apologies.
"Enough, Hanako! Your protective role is over from now on! Jun, I forbid you to see this man again!"
"But..."
"If you disobey, I'll disown you and you'll leave this house." I clenched my jaw but nodded. If he thought he could prevent me to see Sho, he was wrong. "Be careful, if you disobey, I'll know it immediately and you'll end in the street. I'll arrange a meeting with Takeru-san, you'll meet his daughter and will marry her."
"But dad..."
"Shut up! And you can forget your dreams about being an actor, it will be Keio, nothing else and when you'll pass, you'll be the next CEO of my company, understood?"
"Yes."
"That's my son. You have a duty toward me, Jun and I want you to become a man worth of our family. I count on you."
"Yes, father. I'll do my best to get you proud of me." I smiled.
"Perfect. Go to study, now."
"Yes." I bowed and joined my bedroom. Stupid bastard! You really think I am going to follow your stupid rules like a good dog? You really are an idiot. I sent a message to Sho, telling him everything was all right and that I would see him tomorrow and would let him make love to me as he wanted. Now, we just had to be very careful.
****
"Baby..." Sho moaned between two hungry kisses. As soon as my classmates had left the room to eat, Aiba understanding I wouldn't stay with him today, Sho had pulled me in passionate kisses, devouring my lips as if there was no tomorrow.
"Sho!" I arched my head back when I felt his hard length against my thigh.
"I want you... I need you..." Sho took our clothes off and with his belt, tied my wrists up. "I've always dreamed to fuck you here. On this desk." My teacher slipped two fingers inside me, making me gasp but the cold wood under my cheek, helped me to relax. After a quick preparation, Sho entered me from behind and didn't wait to thrust wildly inside me. I was biting my lip so hard not to scream that I pierced it, blood invading my throat.
"Sho... Please..."
"Quiet, baby or I'll have to punish you." Sho slapped my butt, getting a loud moan from me. Shit, it was too good to stay silent. "Turn around." Sho pulled out and laid me on the desk to take me again, wrapping my legs around his waist. I wrapped his neck with my tied hands to steal his lips because I knew he wouldn't punish me for that as we had to stay quiet. "Jun... My angel, you're so perfect... So tight... I love you... You're mine... Forever..." I moaned at his sweet words that were accompanying his so rough thrusts.
"I love you too, Sho... Forever..." His hand grabbed my dripping length and pumped it quickly, bringing me over the edge as his flesh was hitting my sweet spot again and again.
"Jun!!!" Sho bit my lip while coming inside me, his body sticking mine hard against the desk. Panting, my master laid kisses on my skin, his hips stopping its moves and Sho untied my hands to hug me tightly against him. "You're so precious for me, Jun." I smiled, feeling his hand stroking my hair softly. It was what I loved about Sho. He could be so rough and so sweet at the same time, giving a perfect balance in our couple, never falling into stupid sappiness.
"Don't ever let me go, Sho." I whispered.
"Never." Sho grinned, kissing my lips tenderly. God, I loved him so damn much. He was everything to me. My everything. Nothing would ever be able to separate us.
Or it was what I stupidly thought...
When I came back home, my world collapsed. All my dreams vanished and reality hit me right in the heart. I think I really died inside, this day.
To be continued...
A/N: Ouch, this chapter was mean xD everything is happening at the same time to our Sakumoto xD My poor Masaki, I felt so bad for hurting him TT But he will be all right, he is a great friend, after all <3 But it won’t be the same with papa Jun, I really hate this bastard ><
I don’t know when I’ll be able to update as my mother will soon give birth *I’m so happy* but I’ll try not to forget you with this fic, just 4 chapters left after all xD