All these things we don't tell each other (chapter 4)
Title: All these things we don't tell each other
Author: MatsuAurore
Banner: Lilisan31 <3
Pairings: Yama, Ohmiya
Rating: R
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: Bad for me, only own the plot T.T
Summary: What can you do when the person you love more than your own life is only looking at your best friend? What can you do when you know this person would never see you like you see her? And if your biggest wish came true but at the same time, getting close to her also meant pushing her farther from you...
Chapter 4:
"I lost myself when I've lost you..."
Kazunari
"No, please, no!!" I begged.
"Shut up brat, you're just such a little shit!!" The man hit my face and I collapsed on the ground, blood invading my mouth.
"Please, stop that!" I cried but He hit my face again.
"NOOOO!!!" I screamed.
"Kazu!!!!" I blinked, seeing Jun on top of me. I was holding a broken bottle of beer and was about to cut my throat but Jun was holding my wrist, some blood on his arm.
"J?" I gasped.
"Yes, baby, you made a crisis but I'm here." Jun hugged me in his arms and I started to cry against his chest.
"I'm so sorry, Jun."
"It's okay babe, it's only a small cut. Calm down, Kazu, I'm here." Jun rocked me in his arms, whispering comforting words. I fell asleep, exhausted.
A kiss on my nose made me open my eyes and I saw a smiling Jun with a tray of food.
"J..."
"I made you your breakfast, do you feel better?"
"Yes, thanks for being here." I whispered. "I'm not hungry." I pouted, pushing the tray away.
"I don't care, eat, you're too thin." J brought the tray back on my lap but I crossed my arms against my chest childishly.
"Kaz'..." Jun sighed.
"I wish I could die." I mumbled.
"Why?"
"Because I'm such a burden for my friends and my little brother. I spoil your lives of Masaki and you. I spoil Toshi and Sho's relationship. He was right, after all, I'm only a little shit that deserves to die." I sighed.
I raised my eyes when Jun didn't answer and blinked when I saw him crying.
"J..."
"Did you really mean what you just said?" Jun cut me off.
"I... Yes..." I lowered my eyes.
"Kazu... We know each other for 22 years now. We grew together, slept together, played and lived together but mostly, we went through hard things together. You helped me when I needed you and I helped you when this bastard destroyed your life. You know everything about me, more than my own boyfriend. I trust you, I could let my life in your hands and I know you trust me too. You're not a burden, Kazu, if you were, Ohchan wouldn't try to help you nor me but we do it because we love you and you need to overcome your trauma." Jun told me in a soft voice.
"J..." I whispered, tears rolling down my cheeks.
"We love you. You helped Satoshi when he felt bad, you helped me too and today, it's our turn to save you." I looked at my brother and hugged him tightly.
"Thank you, J." I said against his skin making him tightening his grip around me.
"You'll success to forget Him and what he did to you, just, be patient." Jun told me with a sad voice.
I wasn't as sure as he was...
Aiba came back from Chiba two days later and I was very happy when I saw Jun hugging and kissing him deeply, saying he had missed Aiba so bad. They were so cute together. Masaki hugged me too, he brought us some things from Chiba and I thought it would be silly things as always. He offered me a pink tee-shirt with a monkey on the front and I pouted, refusing to take that.
"Do you really think I'll wear this thing? It's ugly." I smirked making my best friend frown.
"You're so nasty, Nino." Aiba pouted, crossing his arms on his chest.
"You deserve it. Why did you bring him this so beautiful necklace?" I asked, pointing the silver necklace around Jun's neck who smirked and hugged his boyfriend from behind.
"Because he knows how I'll reward him tonight in our bed." Jun chuckled, sucking Aiba's neck who moaned.
"Oi, I don't want to know your sex life, perverts!" I exclaimed. "I could thank you too, Masaki, you know." I teased him, playing with the lock of his hair.
"Oi, don't you dare touching my boyfriend, brat! And you, don't you dare looking at him with these interesting eyes!" Jun smacked Aiba's neck who pouted childishly.
"I'm only seeing my JunJun." Aiba chuckled and wrapped his arms around the younger's neck. "I love when my JunJun is jealous." Jun laughed and caught his lips lovingly.
Sometimes, they were boring too...
"Kazu, are you sure, I don't want to leave you alone." Jun sighed.
"It's okay, J. I'll call Ohchan and plus, Aiba came back this morning, he needs his boyfriend and you owe him something for the necklace if I remember well." I smirked, making Jun blush deeply.
"Sure?" Jun asked me with worried eyes.
"Yes."
"Promise me you'll call Satoshi."
"Yes." I pushed him toward the door and when he left, I collapsed on the ground.
Satoshi came the afternoon to eat with me but when he asked me to stay for the night, I waved my head with a fake smile.
"It's okay, Toshi, J will come tonight." I lied.
"Jun will come? Sure?" Ohno raised his eyebrows with disbelief.
"Yes. Don't worry, I'm not a baby." I pouted.
"I know but I'm worried, I can't help it if I love my Kazu so much." I froze when he said that. Ohchan, do you realize how much your words are hurting me? Do you realize these words mean so much more for me?
"I'm alright, go back to Shoko, I'm sure he misses you." I smiled and made him leave.
I felt guilt for lying to my best friend but despite Jun's words, I hated spoiling their couples and their lives. I had to change. I had to overcome my trauma. That's why I took a lot of pills this night, to sleep peacefully without any nightmare. I laid down on my bed and closed my eyes, exhausted.
Some hours later, I stood up to drink something and walked in my kitchen. I opened my fridge and took a beer. It was weird at 3 a.m but I needed something fresh. I drank my beer but stopped when I heard a strange noise. I put my can on the table and walked toward the living room, my heart fluttering. The noise resounded again and I started to panic.
"Is anybody here?" I asked, feeling stupid for asking that in my own apartment. The noise resounded again and I took a knife, walking silently in my living room. I froze when I saw a man towards the T.V.
"It's been a while, Nino." The man said and my heart stopped at the same time of my scream invaded my whole apartment...
Satoshi
To be honest, I thought Nino was acting weirdly when he told me Jun would come to stay with him. I knew my Kazu and I was sure he was hiding something to me. His attitude was strange and his smile looked fake. I came back at Sho's apartment and prepared our dinner, lost in my thoughts. My hands were shaking but I tried to stay calm and ignored this feeling.
"You seem far, babe." Sho said, hugging me tightly.
"Sorry, I was thinking." I lied, making a fake smile.
After the dinner, Sho pushed me on the bed before taking my clothes off and sucked my neck, making me moan when I felt his hard member pocking my leg.
"Not tonight, Sho, I'm tired." I pushed him delicately but my boyfriend frowned.
"You're always tired, baby but tonight I want you so bad." Sho swallowed my cock and I gasped, feeling his wonderful lips around me.
"Sho..." I moaned, starting to thrust in his mouth, my shaft hardening. He knew how to make me give up into his wishes. He knew I couldn't resist to him and took advantage of my weakness.
Sho prepared me and made love to me roughly, making me scream in pleasure, my nails scratching his back. When he collapsed next to me, I looked at the clock and, forgetting it was 3 a.m, I grabbed my phone and called Jun, knowing he always had his phone next to him.
"Moshi mosh..." A panting voice answered.
"Jun.."
"Ah, Sato, I'm kind of busy." Jun chuckled and I heard a loud moan behind him. "Ma-chan, be quiet." Jun giggled making me freeze.
"Jun... You're with Masaki?" I asked with a panicked voice.
"Of course. Kazu told me he'll call you." Jun chuckled, another moan resounding.
"He didn't call me."
"W... What?!" Jun gasped, silence suddenly invading the room where he was.
"He told me you'll stay with him tonight." I whispered, panicked.
"What?!!! Shit!! You mean he is alone??!" Jun screamed in the phone, killing my eardrum.
"Yes."
"Fuck, I'm going to his apartment!" Jun yelled.
"Wait, Jun, I want too."
"Okay, I'll pick you up in five minutes." Jun said and hung up.
I grabbed my clothes, fear invading my body.
"Where are you going?" Sho asked in a sleepy voice.
"I' m coming back, sleep." I kissed his lips and Sho yawned before closing his eyes again.
Jun picked me up two minutes later and drove us to Kazu's apartment.
My heart stopped when I heard a big noise inside of the apartment and Jun opened the door quickly. We ran into the living room and I screamed, seeing Kazu on the ground with a knife in his hand and lots of blood on his body.
"Kazu!!!!" I screamed and lifted him in my arms. "Kazu, wake up, babe!" I started to cry loudly while Jun was calling an ambulance. "Kazu, please, don't leave me!" I cried, hugging him against me.
The doctors brought him to the hospital and we followed them in Jun's car. We waited in the corridor, panicked.
"Don't cry, Satoshi, he'll be fine." Jun hugged me, making me cry even louder.
"He told me you were staying with him and I didn't call you to be sure. It's my fault!" I cried in Jun's neck.
"He told me the same, it's not your fault." Jun stroked my hair.
"I knew, I knew there was something wrong but...but I stayed with Sho..." I sobbed against his skin.
"Hey, dear, Kazu isn't dead, he'll be all right." I knew Jun was trying to stay calm and to reassure me but I could see how afraid and panicked he was because of the tears rolling down his cheeks.
We waited for one or two hours when a doctor came toward us.
"Are you Ninomiya-san's family?"
"Yes, I'm his brother." Jun said.
"It wasn't a fatal injury, Ninomiya-san only cut his arm but we gave him some sedatives because he was making crisis. You can see him, he is asleep." The doctor bowed.
"Thank you, sensei."
"I would like to have a word with you about your brother." The doctor told Jun who nodded.
"You can join Kazu first." I nodded and walked toward Kazu's bedroom.
My Kazu was laid down on a bed, a bandage around his arm and was sleeping peacefully. I took his hand and kissed his palm, crying.
"You really scared me, Kazu, I believed I had lost you." I whispered. Kazu's face was very pale with big dark shadows under his eyes. I laid my head on the edge of the bed and fell asleep.
I opened my eyes, feeling something stroking my cheek and smiled, seeing Kazu was awake. I climbed on the bed and hugged him tightly.
"Don't ever do that again!" I exclaimed.
"Sorry, Toshi." Nino smiled, hugging me back.
"I believed I had lost you." I mumbled against his neck.
"I'm so sorry." Nino whispered, stroking my skin and sending me shivers in my spine. I cupped his face in my hands and wiped his tears with my thumbs though I was the one who was crying loudly.
"You're such a crybaby, Toshi." Nino chuckled and I smacked his head with a smile.
"It's your own fault, baka." I laughed softly.
Nino hugged me again and we stayed like that when Jun entered the bedroom and made us break apart, coughing. Jun and Nino looked at each other for a while before my friend walked toward us and slapped Nino's cheek who gasped.
"Jun!" I yelled.
"How did you dare doing that?!! Didn't I tell you we would always be here for you and you weren't a burden?! And how did you dare lying to me??!!!!" Jun shouted, ignoring me. Nino looked at him, his hand on his cheek and tears filled his eyes but he lowered his head quickly.
"I'm sorry..." Nino whispered.
"I... It's better if I leave because I'll say things I don't mean." Jun said coldly and left the bedroom.
"Kazu..."
"He is right." Nino cut me off.
"I'm going after him." I stood up and left the bedroom.
Jun was in the corridor, his face in his knees and I understood he was crying when I saw his body trembling. I kneeled down next to him and put my hand on his shoulder.
"I know it was wrong to yell at him and hit him." Jun mumbled.
"Jun, you were angry and worried." I sighed.
"He lied to me. In twenty years he never lied to me, we always trusted each other." Jun sobbed.
"He lied to me too."
"It's not the same! He is like my brother, Satoshi! I was here when this bastard..." Jun stopped.
"What? This bastard?" I asked.
"Forget. I mean, he was here for me and I was here for him, why did he lie to me?!"
"Because he thinks he is spoiling our lives."
"But it's false! I need him, Satoshi! I need him in my life to survive!"
"I need him too." I sighed, wrapping my arm around Jun's shoulder.
Suddenly, we heard a loud noise and looking at each other for a second, stood up quickly and opened the bedroom. Kazu was screaming and fell on the ground.
"Kazu!!!" I shook him violently, making Nino open his eyes. He was breathing heavily, his body shivering in fear.
"To... Toshi?"
"Yes, I'm here." I hugged him tightly but he pushed me away, afraid.
"Babe..." Jun whispered, Nino looked at him with teary eyes and Jun ran toward him to wrap him in his arms. Nino grabbed his shirt and burst into tears.
"He... He was there..." Nino stammered in psychical pang.
"I know, dear, I know but I'm here now, calm down." Jun repeated, stroking his hair and jealousy invaded me. Why does Kazu was letting Jun hug him? Why did he push me away? What did Kazu mean by "He"? Why couldn't I help him too??!
Jun kept stroking Nino's hair and whispering comforting words before calling the doctor. He gave Nino some sedative and smiled to me sadly.
"Think about it, Matsumoto-san."
"Thank you sensei." Jun bowed and the doctor left.
"What did he mean?" I asked, curious.
"He wants to intern Kazu." Jun sighed.
"WHAT?! But Kazu isn't insane!" I almost yelled.
"I know. It's only for his own security and he said Kazu should see a psychologist." Jun whispered.
"But..."
"I said no, don't worry but I want Kazu sees a psychologist, he is dangerous for himself when he makes his nightmares." Jun cut me off.
When Kazu left the hospital, he refused to see a psychologist, saying he wasn't insane. We made a planning with Jun to know who will sleep next to him during the week. I asked four days per week because I wanted to be next to him. I was too afraid even if Jun was there for Nino. I needed to be sure he was safe. I saw Sho was angry and I understood his feelings but I couldn't leave Kazu alone, I needed him too much in my life. But one day, my phone rang when Sho was about to make love to me.
"Moshi mosh?" I asked, panting.
"Satoshi..." Nino sobbed.
"Kazu?! What happened, isn't Jun with you?!" I panicked.
"He is here but... I made a night terror and... I... I want you... I can't let him approach. Toshi... I need you..." Nino cried through the line.
"Don't panic, Kazu, I'll be there in ten minutes!"
"Sato?"
"I'm sorry, Sho I have to go, Kazu is panicking." I apologized, taking my clothes.
"Are you serious, Satoshi? It's 00 a.m and we were about to make love and now, you are telling me your best friend needs you?!!!" Sho shouted.
"Kazu isn't well, he is making serious night terrors for two weeks." I said.
"Satoshi... I didn't say anything during these seven past months because I love you but I'm fed up. You're more with Nino than with your own boyfriend!" Sho snapped, getting angry.
"I'm sorry but he needs me, he tries not to sleep to prevent his nightmares but he is exhausted, he needs to sleep." I protested.
"Babe, I know how much he needs you but Nino has to understand you have a life and a boyfriend. I need you too. I need to be with my lover the day but the night too, to spend time with you." Sho tried to stay calm but it was very hard for someone like him.
"I know, Sho, but please, be patient. It's a phase, Kazu should overcome it."
"I don't care Satoshi!!! You always have 'Kazu' in your mouth but how do you want I react?! He looks like your boyfriend more than me!" Sho screamed.
"But Sho..."
"If you leave this apartment tonight, it's over, Satoshi." My boyfriend said coldly.
To be continued...
A/N: yes, I'm stealing my mother's laptop to post but don't tell her ;) xD So, lots of things happened in this chapter with Kazu and his bad night terrors, poor baby T-T xD But even if Sho is possessive with Ohchan, it's because of certain reasons that you will know later xD So, he isn't the only one who makes mistakes, I think Ohchan is pretty blind or wants to play the blind man xD Kazu isn't the poor victim of this story, don't forget he has a past and even if he is fragile, he also acts wrongly (mostly later) xD So, even if you are for Ohmiya or Yama in this story, don't think Sho or Kazu will win Satoshi, because it's not really a game where you win your price at the end xDDD See you this week end for the next part ;)
Author: MatsuAurore
Banner: Lilisan31 <3
Pairings: Yama, Ohmiya
Rating: R
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: Bad for me, only own the plot T.T
Summary: What can you do when the person you love more than your own life is only looking at your best friend? What can you do when you know this person would never see you like you see her? And if your biggest wish came true but at the same time, getting close to her also meant pushing her farther from you...
Chapter 4:
"I lost myself when I've lost you..."
Kazunari
"No, please, no!!" I begged.
"Shut up brat, you're just such a little shit!!" The man hit my face and I collapsed on the ground, blood invading my mouth.
"Please, stop that!" I cried but He hit my face again.
"NOOOO!!!" I screamed.
"Kazu!!!!" I blinked, seeing Jun on top of me. I was holding a broken bottle of beer and was about to cut my throat but Jun was holding my wrist, some blood on his arm.
"J?" I gasped.
"Yes, baby, you made a crisis but I'm here." Jun hugged me in his arms and I started to cry against his chest.
"I'm so sorry, Jun."
"It's okay babe, it's only a small cut. Calm down, Kazu, I'm here." Jun rocked me in his arms, whispering comforting words. I fell asleep, exhausted.
A kiss on my nose made me open my eyes and I saw a smiling Jun with a tray of food.
"J..."
"I made you your breakfast, do you feel better?"
"Yes, thanks for being here." I whispered. "I'm not hungry." I pouted, pushing the tray away.
"I don't care, eat, you're too thin." J brought the tray back on my lap but I crossed my arms against my chest childishly.
"Kaz'..." Jun sighed.
"I wish I could die." I mumbled.
"Why?"
"Because I'm such a burden for my friends and my little brother. I spoil your lives of Masaki and you. I spoil Toshi and Sho's relationship. He was right, after all, I'm only a little shit that deserves to die." I sighed.
I raised my eyes when Jun didn't answer and blinked when I saw him crying.
"J..."
"Did you really mean what you just said?" Jun cut me off.
"I... Yes..." I lowered my eyes.
"Kazu... We know each other for 22 years now. We grew together, slept together, played and lived together but mostly, we went through hard things together. You helped me when I needed you and I helped you when this bastard destroyed your life. You know everything about me, more than my own boyfriend. I trust you, I could let my life in your hands and I know you trust me too. You're not a burden, Kazu, if you were, Ohchan wouldn't try to help you nor me but we do it because we love you and you need to overcome your trauma." Jun told me in a soft voice.
"J..." I whispered, tears rolling down my cheeks.
"We love you. You helped Satoshi when he felt bad, you helped me too and today, it's our turn to save you." I looked at my brother and hugged him tightly.
"Thank you, J." I said against his skin making him tightening his grip around me.
"You'll success to forget Him and what he did to you, just, be patient." Jun told me with a sad voice.
I wasn't as sure as he was...
Aiba came back from Chiba two days later and I was very happy when I saw Jun hugging and kissing him deeply, saying he had missed Aiba so bad. They were so cute together. Masaki hugged me too, he brought us some things from Chiba and I thought it would be silly things as always. He offered me a pink tee-shirt with a monkey on the front and I pouted, refusing to take that.
"Do you really think I'll wear this thing? It's ugly." I smirked making my best friend frown.
"You're so nasty, Nino." Aiba pouted, crossing his arms on his chest.
"You deserve it. Why did you bring him this so beautiful necklace?" I asked, pointing the silver necklace around Jun's neck who smirked and hugged his boyfriend from behind.
"Because he knows how I'll reward him tonight in our bed." Jun chuckled, sucking Aiba's neck who moaned.
"Oi, I don't want to know your sex life, perverts!" I exclaimed. "I could thank you too, Masaki, you know." I teased him, playing with the lock of his hair.
"Oi, don't you dare touching my boyfriend, brat! And you, don't you dare looking at him with these interesting eyes!" Jun smacked Aiba's neck who pouted childishly.
"I'm only seeing my JunJun." Aiba chuckled and wrapped his arms around the younger's neck. "I love when my JunJun is jealous." Jun laughed and caught his lips lovingly.
Sometimes, they were boring too...
"Kazu, are you sure, I don't want to leave you alone." Jun sighed.
"It's okay, J. I'll call Ohchan and plus, Aiba came back this morning, he needs his boyfriend and you owe him something for the necklace if I remember well." I smirked, making Jun blush deeply.
"Sure?" Jun asked me with worried eyes.
"Yes."
"Promise me you'll call Satoshi."
"Yes." I pushed him toward the door and when he left, I collapsed on the ground.
Satoshi came the afternoon to eat with me but when he asked me to stay for the night, I waved my head with a fake smile.
"It's okay, Toshi, J will come tonight." I lied.
"Jun will come? Sure?" Ohno raised his eyebrows with disbelief.
"Yes. Don't worry, I'm not a baby." I pouted.
"I know but I'm worried, I can't help it if I love my Kazu so much." I froze when he said that. Ohchan, do you realize how much your words are hurting me? Do you realize these words mean so much more for me?
"I'm alright, go back to Shoko, I'm sure he misses you." I smiled and made him leave.
I felt guilt for lying to my best friend but despite Jun's words, I hated spoiling their couples and their lives. I had to change. I had to overcome my trauma. That's why I took a lot of pills this night, to sleep peacefully without any nightmare. I laid down on my bed and closed my eyes, exhausted.
Some hours later, I stood up to drink something and walked in my kitchen. I opened my fridge and took a beer. It was weird at 3 a.m but I needed something fresh. I drank my beer but stopped when I heard a strange noise. I put my can on the table and walked toward the living room, my heart fluttering. The noise resounded again and I started to panic.
"Is anybody here?" I asked, feeling stupid for asking that in my own apartment. The noise resounded again and I took a knife, walking silently in my living room. I froze when I saw a man towards the T.V.
"It's been a while, Nino." The man said and my heart stopped at the same time of my scream invaded my whole apartment...
Satoshi
To be honest, I thought Nino was acting weirdly when he told me Jun would come to stay with him. I knew my Kazu and I was sure he was hiding something to me. His attitude was strange and his smile looked fake. I came back at Sho's apartment and prepared our dinner, lost in my thoughts. My hands were shaking but I tried to stay calm and ignored this feeling.
"You seem far, babe." Sho said, hugging me tightly.
"Sorry, I was thinking." I lied, making a fake smile.
After the dinner, Sho pushed me on the bed before taking my clothes off and sucked my neck, making me moan when I felt his hard member pocking my leg.
"Not tonight, Sho, I'm tired." I pushed him delicately but my boyfriend frowned.
"You're always tired, baby but tonight I want you so bad." Sho swallowed my cock and I gasped, feeling his wonderful lips around me.
"Sho..." I moaned, starting to thrust in his mouth, my shaft hardening. He knew how to make me give up into his wishes. He knew I couldn't resist to him and took advantage of my weakness.
Sho prepared me and made love to me roughly, making me scream in pleasure, my nails scratching his back. When he collapsed next to me, I looked at the clock and, forgetting it was 3 a.m, I grabbed my phone and called Jun, knowing he always had his phone next to him.
"Moshi mosh..." A panting voice answered.
"Jun.."
"Ah, Sato, I'm kind of busy." Jun chuckled and I heard a loud moan behind him. "Ma-chan, be quiet." Jun giggled making me freeze.
"Jun... You're with Masaki?" I asked with a panicked voice.
"Of course. Kazu told me he'll call you." Jun chuckled, another moan resounding.
"He didn't call me."
"W... What?!" Jun gasped, silence suddenly invading the room where he was.
"He told me you'll stay with him tonight." I whispered, panicked.
"What?!!! Shit!! You mean he is alone??!" Jun screamed in the phone, killing my eardrum.
"Yes."
"Fuck, I'm going to his apartment!" Jun yelled.
"Wait, Jun, I want too."
"Okay, I'll pick you up in five minutes." Jun said and hung up.
I grabbed my clothes, fear invading my body.
"Where are you going?" Sho asked in a sleepy voice.
"I' m coming back, sleep." I kissed his lips and Sho yawned before closing his eyes again.
Jun picked me up two minutes later and drove us to Kazu's apartment.
My heart stopped when I heard a big noise inside of the apartment and Jun opened the door quickly. We ran into the living room and I screamed, seeing Kazu on the ground with a knife in his hand and lots of blood on his body.
"Kazu!!!!" I screamed and lifted him in my arms. "Kazu, wake up, babe!" I started to cry loudly while Jun was calling an ambulance. "Kazu, please, don't leave me!" I cried, hugging him against me.
The doctors brought him to the hospital and we followed them in Jun's car. We waited in the corridor, panicked.
"Don't cry, Satoshi, he'll be fine." Jun hugged me, making me cry even louder.
"He told me you were staying with him and I didn't call you to be sure. It's my fault!" I cried in Jun's neck.
"He told me the same, it's not your fault." Jun stroked my hair.
"I knew, I knew there was something wrong but...but I stayed with Sho..." I sobbed against his skin.
"Hey, dear, Kazu isn't dead, he'll be all right." I knew Jun was trying to stay calm and to reassure me but I could see how afraid and panicked he was because of the tears rolling down his cheeks.
We waited for one or two hours when a doctor came toward us.
"Are you Ninomiya-san's family?"
"Yes, I'm his brother." Jun said.
"It wasn't a fatal injury, Ninomiya-san only cut his arm but we gave him some sedatives because he was making crisis. You can see him, he is asleep." The doctor bowed.
"Thank you, sensei."
"I would like to have a word with you about your brother." The doctor told Jun who nodded.
"You can join Kazu first." I nodded and walked toward Kazu's bedroom.
My Kazu was laid down on a bed, a bandage around his arm and was sleeping peacefully. I took his hand and kissed his palm, crying.
"You really scared me, Kazu, I believed I had lost you." I whispered. Kazu's face was very pale with big dark shadows under his eyes. I laid my head on the edge of the bed and fell asleep.
I opened my eyes, feeling something stroking my cheek and smiled, seeing Kazu was awake. I climbed on the bed and hugged him tightly.
"Don't ever do that again!" I exclaimed.
"Sorry, Toshi." Nino smiled, hugging me back.
"I believed I had lost you." I mumbled against his neck.
"I'm so sorry." Nino whispered, stroking my skin and sending me shivers in my spine. I cupped his face in my hands and wiped his tears with my thumbs though I was the one who was crying loudly.
"You're such a crybaby, Toshi." Nino chuckled and I smacked his head with a smile.
"It's your own fault, baka." I laughed softly.
Nino hugged me again and we stayed like that when Jun entered the bedroom and made us break apart, coughing. Jun and Nino looked at each other for a while before my friend walked toward us and slapped Nino's cheek who gasped.
"Jun!" I yelled.
"How did you dare doing that?!! Didn't I tell you we would always be here for you and you weren't a burden?! And how did you dare lying to me??!!!!" Jun shouted, ignoring me. Nino looked at him, his hand on his cheek and tears filled his eyes but he lowered his head quickly.
"I'm sorry..." Nino whispered.
"I... It's better if I leave because I'll say things I don't mean." Jun said coldly and left the bedroom.
"Kazu..."
"He is right." Nino cut me off.
"I'm going after him." I stood up and left the bedroom.
Jun was in the corridor, his face in his knees and I understood he was crying when I saw his body trembling. I kneeled down next to him and put my hand on his shoulder.
"I know it was wrong to yell at him and hit him." Jun mumbled.
"Jun, you were angry and worried." I sighed.
"He lied to me. In twenty years he never lied to me, we always trusted each other." Jun sobbed.
"He lied to me too."
"It's not the same! He is like my brother, Satoshi! I was here when this bastard..." Jun stopped.
"What? This bastard?" I asked.
"Forget. I mean, he was here for me and I was here for him, why did he lie to me?!"
"Because he thinks he is spoiling our lives."
"But it's false! I need him, Satoshi! I need him in my life to survive!"
"I need him too." I sighed, wrapping my arm around Jun's shoulder.
Suddenly, we heard a loud noise and looking at each other for a second, stood up quickly and opened the bedroom. Kazu was screaming and fell on the ground.
"Kazu!!!" I shook him violently, making Nino open his eyes. He was breathing heavily, his body shivering in fear.
"To... Toshi?"
"Yes, I'm here." I hugged him tightly but he pushed me away, afraid.
"Babe..." Jun whispered, Nino looked at him with teary eyes and Jun ran toward him to wrap him in his arms. Nino grabbed his shirt and burst into tears.
"He... He was there..." Nino stammered in psychical pang.
"I know, dear, I know but I'm here now, calm down." Jun repeated, stroking his hair and jealousy invaded me. Why does Kazu was letting Jun hug him? Why did he push me away? What did Kazu mean by "He"? Why couldn't I help him too??!
Jun kept stroking Nino's hair and whispering comforting words before calling the doctor. He gave Nino some sedative and smiled to me sadly.
"Think about it, Matsumoto-san."
"Thank you sensei." Jun bowed and the doctor left.
"What did he mean?" I asked, curious.
"He wants to intern Kazu." Jun sighed.
"WHAT?! But Kazu isn't insane!" I almost yelled.
"I know. It's only for his own security and he said Kazu should see a psychologist." Jun whispered.
"But..."
"I said no, don't worry but I want Kazu sees a psychologist, he is dangerous for himself when he makes his nightmares." Jun cut me off.
When Kazu left the hospital, he refused to see a psychologist, saying he wasn't insane. We made a planning with Jun to know who will sleep next to him during the week. I asked four days per week because I wanted to be next to him. I was too afraid even if Jun was there for Nino. I needed to be sure he was safe. I saw Sho was angry and I understood his feelings but I couldn't leave Kazu alone, I needed him too much in my life. But one day, my phone rang when Sho was about to make love to me.
"Moshi mosh?" I asked, panting.
"Satoshi..." Nino sobbed.
"Kazu?! What happened, isn't Jun with you?!" I panicked.
"He is here but... I made a night terror and... I... I want you... I can't let him approach. Toshi... I need you..." Nino cried through the line.
"Don't panic, Kazu, I'll be there in ten minutes!"
"Sato?"
"I'm sorry, Sho I have to go, Kazu is panicking." I apologized, taking my clothes.
"Are you serious, Satoshi? It's 00 a.m and we were about to make love and now, you are telling me your best friend needs you?!!!" Sho shouted.
"Kazu isn't well, he is making serious night terrors for two weeks." I said.
"Satoshi... I didn't say anything during these seven past months because I love you but I'm fed up. You're more with Nino than with your own boyfriend!" Sho snapped, getting angry.
"I'm sorry but he needs me, he tries not to sleep to prevent his nightmares but he is exhausted, he needs to sleep." I protested.
"Babe, I know how much he needs you but Nino has to understand you have a life and a boyfriend. I need you too. I need to be with my lover the day but the night too, to spend time with you." Sho tried to stay calm but it was very hard for someone like him.
"I know, Sho, but please, be patient. It's a phase, Kazu should overcome it."
"I don't care Satoshi!!! You always have 'Kazu' in your mouth but how do you want I react?! He looks like your boyfriend more than me!" Sho screamed.
"But Sho..."
"If you leave this apartment tonight, it's over, Satoshi." My boyfriend said coldly.
To be continued...
A/N: yes, I'm stealing my mother's laptop to post but don't tell her ;) xD So, lots of things happened in this chapter with Kazu and his bad night terrors, poor baby T-T xD But even if Sho is possessive with Ohchan, it's because of certain reasons that you will know later xD So, he isn't the only one who makes mistakes, I think Ohchan is pretty blind or wants to play the blind man xD Kazu isn't the poor victim of this story, don't forget he has a past and even if he is fragile, he also acts wrongly (mostly later) xD So, even if you are for Ohmiya or Yama in this story, don't think Sho or Kazu will win Satoshi, because it's not really a game where you win your price at the end xDDD See you this week end for the next part ;)