All these things we don't tell each other (chapter 3)
Title: All these things we don't tell each other
Author: MatsuAurore
Banner: Lilisan31 <3
Pairings: Yama, Ohmiya
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: Bad for me, only own the plot T.T
Summary: What can you do when the person you love more than your own life is only looking at your best friend? What can you do when you know this person would never see you like you see her? And if your biggest wish came true but at the same time, getting close to her also meant pushing her farther from you...
Chapter 3:
"Loving is always dangerous..."
Satoshi
When I slapped Sho's face, I just wanted to kill myself for doing that. I wasn't a violent person and never got angry easily but this time, Sho hurt me too much. I couldn't bear hearing my own boyfriend saying these horrible words. It was as if he didn't trust me, as if I was a bitch or a whore or even didn't love him. I loved Nino but as a brother or a best friend not as a lover. Kazu always said he needed me in his life to survive but it was false, I was the one who needed him to live. Kazunari helped me in my life like no one else did. He was there when my only wish was to die and every word of the world couldn't define how grateful I was toward him. If tomorrow, Sho asked me to choose between him and Kazu, I think I wouldn't be able to make a choice because I needed both of them in my life.
When I left our apartment, I ran to one of the only place where I felt in security, at Jun's apartment. When he opened his door, I saw immediately he understood there was a problem.
"Toshi..."
"Jun!" I hugged him tightly, crying in his neck.
"What happened, honey?" Jun stroked my hair and made us enter his apartment.
"I... I had a fight with Sho..." I stammered.
"What does this idiot did to you?!" Jun almost yelled.
"He thought I cheated on him with Kazu because I stayed with him yesterday night." I stammered.
"I knew I should have canceled this shooting." Jun sighed.
"No. It's not your fault, Kazu needed me and I thought about him before my own boyfriend." I whispered.
"Don't blame yourself, Kazunari always needs us..."
"Jun, what happened to Kazu this day? He told me he went through something at his 17 years old but didn't say what." I looked at Jun with teary eyes.
"I can't tell you, Satoshi, if he doesn't want you to know, I'm not in the right to do it." Jun brushed the bangs on my forehead with a sad smile.
"But..."
"It's his past, not mine, moreover, I would betray his trust toward me if I told you what happened this day." Jun cut me off.
"It's because of that he makes night terrors." It was more a reply than a question but Jun nodded sadly.
"How can I help him, Jun? How can I make him live peacefully again?" I gripped Jun's shirt who sighed deeply.
"His psychologist said he needed to face his past to stop these night terrors."
"So, why doesn't he do that?"
"You're naive, Satoshi. Facing your devils is not as easy as you think. Nino went through very hard things and it took him five years for him to live almost like a normal person." Jun hugged me against his chest.
"But I want to help him, he did so much for me therefore I want him to be happy."
"I know, dear but it's Kazu we are talking about, he is as proud and stubborn as a donkey." Jun chuckled making me laugh slightly.
"I'll talk to Sho." Jun added after a while.
"No, I'll do it myself, it's our problems not yours." I protested.
"I want Sho understands how much Kazu needs us and that it's not a caprice but the only way to prevent him to harm himself." Jun smiled.
"Okay." I sighed.
"Do you want me to stay with Kazu tonight? You should talk to Sho." Jun asked and I threw him a grateful look.
Jun
My parents died when I was two years old. I finished in an orphan with lots of children who also hadn't their parents but sometimes, for different reasons. Sometimes, the parents abandoned their children, sometimes they died like mines and sometimes nobody knew what the parents became. Everybody had different stories, however, we also were the same. We had lost our family, we were alone. I often wondered why I had to go through that but there always was none answer.
One day, when I was five years old, he appeared. He was different. So beautiful with his short black hair and his bright mischievous smile. His eyes were kind but naughty and I understood in one second he would become the most important person of my life. His name was Ninomiya Kazunari, five years old too. His parents abandoned him on the road on a winter day. Ninomiya was very thin, looked so fragile although so strong.
"Hello, my name is Jun Matsumoto." I smiled to him.
Ninomiya Kazunari but call me Nino." The boy smiled shyly. "Why are you here?"
"As almost everybody here. My parents are dead." I said softly.
"Oh, I'm sorry."
"And you?" I asked, curious.
"They have lots of work and sent me here."
"But..." I stopped when I saw his eyes. There was so much pain in those beautiful eyes that I stopped. I didn't want to hurt him by saying his own parents had abandoned him. "We could be friends." I added, making him grin happily.
"Yes." Nino nodded.
We became the best friends of the world, always together, like two brothers. We slept in the same bed, played together... Nobody could separate us, we were like an only person, like twins. At fifteen years old, we had our first kiss. At sixteen years old, we made love together. But it was our secret. Even Masaki doesn't know I've ever slept with Kazu when we were younger although I knew he wouldn't be angry. Kazu and I were sharing everything since our five years old and I knew him by heart.
Kazu seems strong but in fact, if you go further than what meet the eyes, you can see he is fragile. He is very sensitive and needs to feel loved by the others. I always have to show him how important he is to me. He has a so few self-confidence and plays the brat to look strong but it's his mask, his shell and I'm the only one with Ohchan to know that.
Even if it was hard to be an orphan, we were happy together, living from hand to mouth; but one day, everything changed. My Kazu started to change at 17 years old because of this day. Because of this bastard, my Kazu's beautiful eyes changed and his smile disappeared. My Kazu never has been the same because of this day and when he turned 17 years, he made his first crisis. I was sleeping in the next bedroom when I heard a scream and running in Nino's room, I saw him with scissors, trying to cut his wrist. I realized he was still sleeping because of his empty eyes and thought someone was attacking him. Since this day, Kazu is making these crises every night. Doctors called it 'night terrors' due to a big trauma and I understood his nightmares were because of Him. I had to sleep next to him because I was the only one able to calm him down, to appease his cries. His biggest fear was the night because he had to sleep and made his night terrors. Kazu lost his kind and bratty eyes and his smile disappeared. His pain was mine and sometimes, I asked myself if dying wasn't the best way to erase his grief forever.
At 19 years, we met Satoshi at a party, he was different with his cute chubby cheeks, his sleepy eyes and his small pink mouth. However, despite these qualities, I fell in love with his best friend, Masaki. Ohno loved my Kazu but was too shy to confess and aside of that, Nino wasn't better. But I understood how Kazu loved and trusted Ohchan because he asked him to stay with him to sleep, allowing me to spend some time with my own boyfriend. I was the only one able to appease my Kazu and felt so happy he fell for someone as kind as Satoshi. Nino's smile came back although it wasn't as bright as before and his eyes were shining again because of his love for my best friend. They were very close, sharing lots of things but Kazu didn't want to tell Ohchan his past. He was ashamed and didn't want to be rejected by the love of his life.
However, everything changed when we met Sho. Sho fell in love with Ohchan at first sight and tried to get close to him. After two years, hoping Kazu would make a step closer to him, Ohno gave up and started to fall in love with Sho. How couldn't he love him? Sho was treating him like a princess and always thought about Sato before himself. It hurt my Kazu when they started to date but it also hurt me, seeing the pain coming back in my brother's eyes. My Kazu was suffering again and I believed I would really lose him this time. Why does life was so unfair to him? Didn't he deserve to love and be loved too?
Sho
When Satoshi left, I almost tried to follow him. I hurt him, I knew that but... But he hurt me too. I was crazy about him and thinking he could kiss someone else just killed me. He didn't know how much I needed him. He didn't know how much I loved him. At 8 p.m, I heard a noise of keys and without thinking, I jumped in my boyfriend's arms, hugging him tightly. Satoshi blinked, surprised but hugged me back after a while.
"I'm sorry." I whispered.
"No, it's me who should apology for yelling and hitting you." Ohno said in my ear.
"I... I didn't mean my words but... I became crazy when I learned you slept with Nino... I..."
"Tsss. Stop hurting yourself, Sho. I should have told you about Kazu's problem." Ohno cut me off, putting his finger on my lips.
"His problem?"
"Kazu makes night terrors since his 17 years old."
"Night terrors?"
"Yes. It's like a nightmare but it's worse. Kazu dreams someone is trying to kill him and thinking it's real, he tries to harm himself." Ohno explained.
"How?"
"One day, Jun found him with a knife. Kazu thought someone was attacking him in his apartment and if Jun hadn't been here, I think he would have killed himself."
"It's... But it's only nightmares, why does he think it's real?"
"When he was 17 years old, something horrible happened to Kazu. Since this day, he makes these nightmares but it's so intense that he is sure it's real while he is only dreaming. His psychologist said these night terrors were because of his trauma and to stop it, Kazu must face his past." Ohno said sadly.
"What did he go through?"
"I don't know, Kazu doesn't want to tell me, Jun is the only one who knows the truth."
"And you sleep..."
"Before I dated you, I was sleeping next to him the whole week. When he was making night terrors, I was able to wake him up and Jun did the same the week end."
"I understand, now and I'm sorry for what I told you but... You won't always be there, he should learn to face his trauma." I said softly but Ohno frowned.
"Sho, Kazu helped me a lot before I met you, if today I'm here, it's because of him, I owe him so much. I can't leave him, he needs me."
"You mean you will never sleep with me?" I asked, a bit angry.
"I'll try to make a planning with Jun, to spend the night with you. You know, you think Kazu is just a brat but it's only a mask. He is very very sensitive and needs to feel loved by his friends. Moreover, his sharp tongue and brat's side are just a shell to protect himself from the pain." Ohno sighed.
"But..."
"Try to understand, Sho. Please, don't ask me to choose because I can't. I love you two. In different ways, it's true, but I need you both in my life." Ohno stroked my cheek and I nodded, giving up.
"Promise me you'll never leave me." I whispered.
"As long as you want me in your life, I can promise I'll always be here." Ohno smiled and I caught his lips.
I made love to him four times this night and my boyfriend didn't complain, begging me for more and we fell asleep at 4 a.m, exhausted. This day, we spent our first real night together and I wished I would stop the time to stay like that, Satoshi in my arms, our naked bodies pressed together. Even if I understood why Ohno was acting like that with Nino, I didn't accept it. Three times per week, my boyfriend joined Nino in his apartment to spend the night with him. It was so hard for me to let him go without saying a word but I tried to be strong, I didn't want to lose Satoshi and I knew it would be the case if I said something. However, this situation made me suffer but I respected Ohchan's wishes.
****
Today was Satoshi's birthday and I wanted to surprise him for this beautiful and amazing day. So, I left my work earlier, went to a flower shop, bought his present and joined him in my apartment.
"Tadaima." I said, taking my shoes off.
"Okaeri, Sho-chan." Ohno wrapped his arms around my neck allowing me to steal him a deep kiss.
"Take your stuff and come with me." I said between our lips.
"Where are we going?" Ohno looked at me with cute and curious eyes, making me chuckle and peck his lips.
"You'll see." I took his hand and led him in my car.
Ohno's eyes widened when he saw the villa in front of us.
"Sho?"
"Come on." I wrapped his waist and putting my hands on his eyes, led us inside. We walked in the bedroom and I released him with a nervous smile.
"...." Ohno's mouth was wide opened when he saw the roses on the ground and on the bed with one bottle of champagne.
"Otanjoubi omedetou, Satoshi." I whispered in his ear.
"It... It's amazing, Sho..." Ohno stammered and, turning on his heels, wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed me deeply. I smiled between our lips and tightened my grip on his hips.
"I love you, babe. I booked this house for two days, there are a Jacuzzi and a swimming pool too." I whispered.
"Me too. It's the most beautiful present I've ever had." My boyfriend smiled with tears in his eyes.
"Want to open your presents?" I asked and Ohno nodded happily.
I held him out a box and his eyes widened when he saw the silver ring inside.
Sho..."
"I just wanted something proving you belong to me, we can't get married but it will be a way to show your heart is mine; if you want of course." I said nervously.
"It's... It's... I'm very surprised..."
"If you don't want..."
"No, I mean... I'm just happy." Ohno smiled and slipped the ring on his long finger. "Thank you." He added before I hugged him and gave him another box.
"I want you to live with me in my apartment." I said when Ohno took the keys in his hand.
"Oh... I would like too." My boyfriend whispered.
"Sure?"
"Hun." Ohno smiled and, lifting him in my arms, I laid him down on the bed and started to kiss his neck while my hands were unbuttoning his shirt. His hands went through my hair and he moaned when I took his nipple in my mouth. This moment was just perfect, there wasn't Nino in his mind we were together, kissing each other and when I took him and saw his closed eyes and his red cheeks, joy invaded my heart.
"Satoshi..." I whispered, moving in and out of him. His nails were sank in my back because of the pleasure.
"Sho..." Ohno moaned and wrapped his arms around my neck to kiss me deeply.
****
When I woke up the next morning, Ohno was sleeping deeply, his face in the pillow and the sheets showing me his back and almost his butt. I laid many kisses on his back, my hand traveling and stroking his nape to his ass, my fingers flying on his white skin, drawing invisible circles.
"Sho?" Ohno yawned and turned his face with a cute sleepy look.
"Tsss, sleep babe, I wanted to kiss you." I whispered and put my lips on his shoulder, licking his skin. My boyfriend smiled and buried his face in his pillow again. I kissed his spine to his butt and pushed the sheets away to lick his buttock.
"I thought I should sleep." Ohno mumbled against his pillow.
"Yes. Sleep."
"How do you want I sleep when you are kissing and licking my body." Ohno moaned, shivering.
"I can't help it, you're too beautiful my love."
Satoshi smiled widely and turned on his back to hugged me, his legs wrapping my waist and making me feel his semi hard flesh. I moaned, pressing our lips together and pushed inside of him, stealing him a gasp. Ohno whined in pain at the beginning but then, moved his hips up and we moaned when my cock hit his secret spot making him tighten around me. I pumped faster, our skins slapping, drops of sweat rolling down our naked bodies. I attacked his neck, my hips undulating on top of him and my hand holding his right thigh in a possessive way.
"Oh... Sho..." Ohno hummed in our mouths. I fastened my movements, trying to make us reach our climax.
"Babe!" I moaned in his ear and grabbing his neglected cock, jerked him off roughly. Satoshi screamed and released in my hand, panting heavily while I was still thrusting inside of him. I smacked our lips when I came in his tight warm hole and collapsed on his body, out of breath. I could stay like that for the rest of our lives but I pulled out to lay down on the bed and hug him.
"Amazing." Ohno whispered.
"Yes." I smiled. "Happy birthday, puppy." I kissed his temple before we fell asleep again.
****
Time passed and after some months and as Satoshi was living with me, now, we got closer. Despite Nino, we were happy, sharing lots of things, spending lots of time together. However, one day, everything changed.
We were together for almost seven months when we had our biggest fight with Satoshi.
For two weeks, my boyfriend was spending a lot of time at Nino's apartment and I didn't know why. My jealousy came back again.
It was 00 a.m and I was kissing his neck, stroking our hard members against each other when Satoshi's phone rang, making us jump.
"Moshi mosh?" Ohno asked with a panting voice.
"...."
"Kazu?" I blinked when Sato said this word. Oh shit! Why does this brat was calling just when I wanted to make love to my boyfriend? I saw my lover frowning and a worried look settled his face. I knew this face by heart and it meant one thing...
"Don't panic, Kazu, I'll be there in ten minutes." Ohno said and I looked at him with furious eyes when he closed his phone.
"Sato?"
"I'm sorry, Sho I have to go, Kazu is panicking." Ohno apologized, taking his clothes.
"Are you serious, Satoshi? It's 00 a.m and we were about to make love and now, you are telling me your best friend needs you?!!!" I shouted.
"Kazu isn't well, he is making serious night terrors for two weeks." Ohno said.
"Satoshi... I didn't say anything during these seven past months because I love you but I'm fed up. You're more with Nino than with your own boyfriend!" I snapped, getting angry.
"I'm sorry but he needs me, he tries not to sleep to prevent his nightmares but he is exhausted, he needs to sleep." Ohno protested.
"Babe, I know how much he needs you but Nino has to understand you have a life and a boyfriend. I need you too. I need to be with my lover the day but the night too, to spend time with you." I tried to stay calm but it was very hard for someone like me.
"I know, Sho, but please, be patient. It's a phase, Kazu should overcome it."
"I don't care Satoshi!!! You always have 'Kazu' in your mouth but how do you want I react?! He looks like your boyfriend, more than me!" I screamed.
"But Sho..."
"If you leave this apartment tonight, it's over, Satoshi." I said coldly.
To be continued...
A/N: Sorry for this cut ^^ and as I have nothing to say, see you soon xDDDDDD
Author: MatsuAurore
Banner: Lilisan31 <3
Pairings: Yama, Ohmiya
Rating: NC-17
Genre: Au, romance, drama, angst
Disclaimer: Bad for me, only own the plot T.T
Summary: What can you do when the person you love more than your own life is only looking at your best friend? What can you do when you know this person would never see you like you see her? And if your biggest wish came true but at the same time, getting close to her also meant pushing her farther from you...
Chapter 3:
"Loving is always dangerous..."
Satoshi
When I slapped Sho's face, I just wanted to kill myself for doing that. I wasn't a violent person and never got angry easily but this time, Sho hurt me too much. I couldn't bear hearing my own boyfriend saying these horrible words. It was as if he didn't trust me, as if I was a bitch or a whore or even didn't love him. I loved Nino but as a brother or a best friend not as a lover. Kazu always said he needed me in his life to survive but it was false, I was the one who needed him to live. Kazunari helped me in my life like no one else did. He was there when my only wish was to die and every word of the world couldn't define how grateful I was toward him. If tomorrow, Sho asked me to choose between him and Kazu, I think I wouldn't be able to make a choice because I needed both of them in my life.
When I left our apartment, I ran to one of the only place where I felt in security, at Jun's apartment. When he opened his door, I saw immediately he understood there was a problem.
"Toshi..."
"Jun!" I hugged him tightly, crying in his neck.
"What happened, honey?" Jun stroked my hair and made us enter his apartment.
"I... I had a fight with Sho..." I stammered.
"What does this idiot did to you?!" Jun almost yelled.
"He thought I cheated on him with Kazu because I stayed with him yesterday night." I stammered.
"I knew I should have canceled this shooting." Jun sighed.
"No. It's not your fault, Kazu needed me and I thought about him before my own boyfriend." I whispered.
"Don't blame yourself, Kazunari always needs us..."
"Jun, what happened to Kazu this day? He told me he went through something at his 17 years old but didn't say what." I looked at Jun with teary eyes.
"I can't tell you, Satoshi, if he doesn't want you to know, I'm not in the right to do it." Jun brushed the bangs on my forehead with a sad smile.
"But..."
"It's his past, not mine, moreover, I would betray his trust toward me if I told you what happened this day." Jun cut me off.
"It's because of that he makes night terrors." It was more a reply than a question but Jun nodded sadly.
"How can I help him, Jun? How can I make him live peacefully again?" I gripped Jun's shirt who sighed deeply.
"His psychologist said he needed to face his past to stop these night terrors."
"So, why doesn't he do that?"
"You're naive, Satoshi. Facing your devils is not as easy as you think. Nino went through very hard things and it took him five years for him to live almost like a normal person." Jun hugged me against his chest.
"But I want to help him, he did so much for me therefore I want him to be happy."
"I know, dear but it's Kazu we are talking about, he is as proud and stubborn as a donkey." Jun chuckled making me laugh slightly.
"I'll talk to Sho." Jun added after a while.
"No, I'll do it myself, it's our problems not yours." I protested.
"I want Sho understands how much Kazu needs us and that it's not a caprice but the only way to prevent him to harm himself." Jun smiled.
"Okay." I sighed.
"Do you want me to stay with Kazu tonight? You should talk to Sho." Jun asked and I threw him a grateful look.
Jun
My parents died when I was two years old. I finished in an orphan with lots of children who also hadn't their parents but sometimes, for different reasons. Sometimes, the parents abandoned their children, sometimes they died like mines and sometimes nobody knew what the parents became. Everybody had different stories, however, we also were the same. We had lost our family, we were alone. I often wondered why I had to go through that but there always was none answer.
One day, when I was five years old, he appeared. He was different. So beautiful with his short black hair and his bright mischievous smile. His eyes were kind but naughty and I understood in one second he would become the most important person of my life. His name was Ninomiya Kazunari, five years old too. His parents abandoned him on the road on a winter day. Ninomiya was very thin, looked so fragile although so strong.
"Hello, my name is Jun Matsumoto." I smiled to him.
Ninomiya Kazunari but call me Nino." The boy smiled shyly. "Why are you here?"
"As almost everybody here. My parents are dead." I said softly.
"Oh, I'm sorry."
"And you?" I asked, curious.
"They have lots of work and sent me here."
"But..." I stopped when I saw his eyes. There was so much pain in those beautiful eyes that I stopped. I didn't want to hurt him by saying his own parents had abandoned him. "We could be friends." I added, making him grin happily.
"Yes." Nino nodded.
We became the best friends of the world, always together, like two brothers. We slept in the same bed, played together... Nobody could separate us, we were like an only person, like twins. At fifteen years old, we had our first kiss. At sixteen years old, we made love together. But it was our secret. Even Masaki doesn't know I've ever slept with Kazu when we were younger although I knew he wouldn't be angry. Kazu and I were sharing everything since our five years old and I knew him by heart.
Kazu seems strong but in fact, if you go further than what meet the eyes, you can see he is fragile. He is very sensitive and needs to feel loved by the others. I always have to show him how important he is to me. He has a so few self-confidence and plays the brat to look strong but it's his mask, his shell and I'm the only one with Ohchan to know that.
Even if it was hard to be an orphan, we were happy together, living from hand to mouth; but one day, everything changed. My Kazu started to change at 17 years old because of this day. Because of this bastard, my Kazu's beautiful eyes changed and his smile disappeared. My Kazu never has been the same because of this day and when he turned 17 years, he made his first crisis. I was sleeping in the next bedroom when I heard a scream and running in Nino's room, I saw him with scissors, trying to cut his wrist. I realized he was still sleeping because of his empty eyes and thought someone was attacking him. Since this day, Kazu is making these crises every night. Doctors called it 'night terrors' due to a big trauma and I understood his nightmares were because of Him. I had to sleep next to him because I was the only one able to calm him down, to appease his cries. His biggest fear was the night because he had to sleep and made his night terrors. Kazu lost his kind and bratty eyes and his smile disappeared. His pain was mine and sometimes, I asked myself if dying wasn't the best way to erase his grief forever.
At 19 years, we met Satoshi at a party, he was different with his cute chubby cheeks, his sleepy eyes and his small pink mouth. However, despite these qualities, I fell in love with his best friend, Masaki. Ohno loved my Kazu but was too shy to confess and aside of that, Nino wasn't better. But I understood how Kazu loved and trusted Ohchan because he asked him to stay with him to sleep, allowing me to spend some time with my own boyfriend. I was the only one able to appease my Kazu and felt so happy he fell for someone as kind as Satoshi. Nino's smile came back although it wasn't as bright as before and his eyes were shining again because of his love for my best friend. They were very close, sharing lots of things but Kazu didn't want to tell Ohchan his past. He was ashamed and didn't want to be rejected by the love of his life.
However, everything changed when we met Sho. Sho fell in love with Ohchan at first sight and tried to get close to him. After two years, hoping Kazu would make a step closer to him, Ohno gave up and started to fall in love with Sho. How couldn't he love him? Sho was treating him like a princess and always thought about Sato before himself. It hurt my Kazu when they started to date but it also hurt me, seeing the pain coming back in my brother's eyes. My Kazu was suffering again and I believed I would really lose him this time. Why does life was so unfair to him? Didn't he deserve to love and be loved too?
Sho
When Satoshi left, I almost tried to follow him. I hurt him, I knew that but... But he hurt me too. I was crazy about him and thinking he could kiss someone else just killed me. He didn't know how much I needed him. He didn't know how much I loved him. At 8 p.m, I heard a noise of keys and without thinking, I jumped in my boyfriend's arms, hugging him tightly. Satoshi blinked, surprised but hugged me back after a while.
"I'm sorry." I whispered.
"No, it's me who should apology for yelling and hitting you." Ohno said in my ear.
"I... I didn't mean my words but... I became crazy when I learned you slept with Nino... I..."
"Tsss. Stop hurting yourself, Sho. I should have told you about Kazu's problem." Ohno cut me off, putting his finger on my lips.
"His problem?"
"Kazu makes night terrors since his 17 years old."
"Night terrors?"
"Yes. It's like a nightmare but it's worse. Kazu dreams someone is trying to kill him and thinking it's real, he tries to harm himself." Ohno explained.
"How?"
"One day, Jun found him with a knife. Kazu thought someone was attacking him in his apartment and if Jun hadn't been here, I think he would have killed himself."
"It's... But it's only nightmares, why does he think it's real?"
"When he was 17 years old, something horrible happened to Kazu. Since this day, he makes these nightmares but it's so intense that he is sure it's real while he is only dreaming. His psychologist said these night terrors were because of his trauma and to stop it, Kazu must face his past." Ohno said sadly.
"What did he go through?"
"I don't know, Kazu doesn't want to tell me, Jun is the only one who knows the truth."
"And you sleep..."
"Before I dated you, I was sleeping next to him the whole week. When he was making night terrors, I was able to wake him up and Jun did the same the week end."
"I understand, now and I'm sorry for what I told you but... You won't always be there, he should learn to face his trauma." I said softly but Ohno frowned.
"Sho, Kazu helped me a lot before I met you, if today I'm here, it's because of him, I owe him so much. I can't leave him, he needs me."
"You mean you will never sleep with me?" I asked, a bit angry.
"I'll try to make a planning with Jun, to spend the night with you. You know, you think Kazu is just a brat but it's only a mask. He is very very sensitive and needs to feel loved by his friends. Moreover, his sharp tongue and brat's side are just a shell to protect himself from the pain." Ohno sighed.
"But..."
"Try to understand, Sho. Please, don't ask me to choose because I can't. I love you two. In different ways, it's true, but I need you both in my life." Ohno stroked my cheek and I nodded, giving up.
"Promise me you'll never leave me." I whispered.
"As long as you want me in your life, I can promise I'll always be here." Ohno smiled and I caught his lips.
I made love to him four times this night and my boyfriend didn't complain, begging me for more and we fell asleep at 4 a.m, exhausted. This day, we spent our first real night together and I wished I would stop the time to stay like that, Satoshi in my arms, our naked bodies pressed together. Even if I understood why Ohno was acting like that with Nino, I didn't accept it. Three times per week, my boyfriend joined Nino in his apartment to spend the night with him. It was so hard for me to let him go without saying a word but I tried to be strong, I didn't want to lose Satoshi and I knew it would be the case if I said something. However, this situation made me suffer but I respected Ohchan's wishes.
****
Today was Satoshi's birthday and I wanted to surprise him for this beautiful and amazing day. So, I left my work earlier, went to a flower shop, bought his present and joined him in my apartment.
"Tadaima." I said, taking my shoes off.
"Okaeri, Sho-chan." Ohno wrapped his arms around my neck allowing me to steal him a deep kiss.
"Take your stuff and come with me." I said between our lips.
"Where are we going?" Ohno looked at me with cute and curious eyes, making me chuckle and peck his lips.
"You'll see." I took his hand and led him in my car.
Ohno's eyes widened when he saw the villa in front of us.
"Sho?"
"Come on." I wrapped his waist and putting my hands on his eyes, led us inside. We walked in the bedroom and I released him with a nervous smile.
"...." Ohno's mouth was wide opened when he saw the roses on the ground and on the bed with one bottle of champagne.
"Otanjoubi omedetou, Satoshi." I whispered in his ear.
"It... It's amazing, Sho..." Ohno stammered and, turning on his heels, wrapped his arms around my neck and kissed me deeply. I smiled between our lips and tightened my grip on his hips.
"I love you, babe. I booked this house for two days, there are a Jacuzzi and a swimming pool too." I whispered.
"Me too. It's the most beautiful present I've ever had." My boyfriend smiled with tears in his eyes.
"Want to open your presents?" I asked and Ohno nodded happily.
I held him out a box and his eyes widened when he saw the silver ring inside.
Sho..."
"I just wanted something proving you belong to me, we can't get married but it will be a way to show your heart is mine; if you want of course." I said nervously.
"It's... It's... I'm very surprised..."
"If you don't want..."
"No, I mean... I'm just happy." Ohno smiled and slipped the ring on his long finger. "Thank you." He added before I hugged him and gave him another box.
"I want you to live with me in my apartment." I said when Ohno took the keys in his hand.
"Oh... I would like too." My boyfriend whispered.
"Sure?"
"Hun." Ohno smiled and, lifting him in my arms, I laid him down on the bed and started to kiss his neck while my hands were unbuttoning his shirt. His hands went through my hair and he moaned when I took his nipple in my mouth. This moment was just perfect, there wasn't Nino in his mind we were together, kissing each other and when I took him and saw his closed eyes and his red cheeks, joy invaded my heart.
"Satoshi..." I whispered, moving in and out of him. His nails were sank in my back because of the pleasure.
"Sho..." Ohno moaned and wrapped his arms around my neck to kiss me deeply.
****
When I woke up the next morning, Ohno was sleeping deeply, his face in the pillow and the sheets showing me his back and almost his butt. I laid many kisses on his back, my hand traveling and stroking his nape to his ass, my fingers flying on his white skin, drawing invisible circles.
"Sho?" Ohno yawned and turned his face with a cute sleepy look.
"Tsss, sleep babe, I wanted to kiss you." I whispered and put my lips on his shoulder, licking his skin. My boyfriend smiled and buried his face in his pillow again. I kissed his spine to his butt and pushed the sheets away to lick his buttock.
"I thought I should sleep." Ohno mumbled against his pillow.
"Yes. Sleep."
"How do you want I sleep when you are kissing and licking my body." Ohno moaned, shivering.
"I can't help it, you're too beautiful my love."
Satoshi smiled widely and turned on his back to hugged me, his legs wrapping my waist and making me feel his semi hard flesh. I moaned, pressing our lips together and pushed inside of him, stealing him a gasp. Ohno whined in pain at the beginning but then, moved his hips up and we moaned when my cock hit his secret spot making him tighten around me. I pumped faster, our skins slapping, drops of sweat rolling down our naked bodies. I attacked his neck, my hips undulating on top of him and my hand holding his right thigh in a possessive way.
"Oh... Sho..." Ohno hummed in our mouths. I fastened my movements, trying to make us reach our climax.
"Babe!" I moaned in his ear and grabbing his neglected cock, jerked him off roughly. Satoshi screamed and released in my hand, panting heavily while I was still thrusting inside of him. I smacked our lips when I came in his tight warm hole and collapsed on his body, out of breath. I could stay like that for the rest of our lives but I pulled out to lay down on the bed and hug him.
"Amazing." Ohno whispered.
"Yes." I smiled. "Happy birthday, puppy." I kissed his temple before we fell asleep again.
****
Time passed and after some months and as Satoshi was living with me, now, we got closer. Despite Nino, we were happy, sharing lots of things, spending lots of time together. However, one day, everything changed.
We were together for almost seven months when we had our biggest fight with Satoshi.
For two weeks, my boyfriend was spending a lot of time at Nino's apartment and I didn't know why. My jealousy came back again.
It was 00 a.m and I was kissing his neck, stroking our hard members against each other when Satoshi's phone rang, making us jump.
"Moshi mosh?" Ohno asked with a panting voice.
"...."
"Kazu?" I blinked when Sato said this word. Oh shit! Why does this brat was calling just when I wanted to make love to my boyfriend? I saw my lover frowning and a worried look settled his face. I knew this face by heart and it meant one thing...
"Don't panic, Kazu, I'll be there in ten minutes." Ohno said and I looked at him with furious eyes when he closed his phone.
"Sato?"
"I'm sorry, Sho I have to go, Kazu is panicking." Ohno apologized, taking his clothes.
"Are you serious, Satoshi? It's 00 a.m and we were about to make love and now, you are telling me your best friend needs you?!!!" I shouted.
"Kazu isn't well, he is making serious night terrors for two weeks." Ohno said.
"Satoshi... I didn't say anything during these seven past months because I love you but I'm fed up. You're more with Nino than with your own boyfriend!" I snapped, getting angry.
"I'm sorry but he needs me, he tries not to sleep to prevent his nightmares but he is exhausted, he needs to sleep." Ohno protested.
"Babe, I know how much he needs you but Nino has to understand you have a life and a boyfriend. I need you too. I need to be with my lover the day but the night too, to spend time with you." I tried to stay calm but it was very hard for someone like me.
"I know, Sho, but please, be patient. It's a phase, Kazu should overcome it."
"I don't care Satoshi!!! You always have 'Kazu' in your mouth but how do you want I react?! He looks like your boyfriend, more than me!" I screamed.
"But Sho..."
"If you leave this apartment tonight, it's over, Satoshi." I said coldly.
To be continued...
A/N: Sorry for this cut ^^ and as I have nothing to say, see you soon xDDDDDD