When will you notice me? Final part
Title: When will you notice me?
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairing: Sakumoto, Ohmiya (slight)
Rating: R for some violence
Genre: Drama, romance, angst, fluff
Disclaimer: Girls, they are already naked in my bed... In my dreams xD
Summary: The first time I met him, I immediately fell in love with him. The first time I saw him, I understood he would become the most important part of my life. But what I didn't expect was his strong and free personality. When will you stop this game and will notice my deep feelings for you?
Final part:
When I entered the green room, I saw Nino and Ohno fighting a bit before our Leader left the room.
"We are tired because of the next tour. Johnny told me you had prepared a new solo?" Nino smiled weakly.
"Yes. I wrote it."
"For Sho."
"No." I lied. Of course all my solos were talking about him.
"Of course." Nino smirked. "Jun, if you need to talk, I'm always here."
"I know." I smiled and hugged him tightly. He was the only who could touch me like that.
"Nino, Jun, we are waiting for you." Ohno and Sho called, Sho frowning when he saw me in Kazu's arms.
I climbed on the stage, the dome falling silent. I took a deep breath and made a sign to start the music.
When moonlight crawls along the street
Chasing away the summer heat
Footsteps outside somewhere below
The world revolves I let it go
We build our church above this street
We practice love between these sheets
The candy sweetness scent of you
It bathes my skin I'm stained by you
And all I have to do is hold you
There's a racing in my heart
I am barely touching you
I had never done this kind of solo before. I had to sing differently, calmly and with all my feelings but it wasn't very difficult since I had written this song for my first and last love. I closed my eyes, letting the music sink in my heart, remembering our happy moments together, when we were 13, 14, 15, 16, 17 years old. Our first meeting, our first games, our first time...
I walked toward the bed on the stage, sitting down. I started to unbutton my shirt, strangely, none fans screamed while I was singing and taking my top off, the fabric leaving my shoulders, brushing my skin that was lighted up by just one light. A dancer came behind, dancing around me, stroking my body a little before I threw him on the bed and climbed on top of him, our bodies never touching completely, just brushing together. I stroked his skin softly, still singing and moving above before the dancer made me roll on my back to move down while my hands were gripping his hair. There was nothing sexual, it was just erotic, it was showing a deep sensuality and love.
The moonlight plays upon your skin
A kiss that lingers takes me in
I fall asleep inside of you
There are no words
There's only truth
Breathe in Breathe out
There is no sound
We move together up and down
We levitate our bodies soar
Our feet don't even touch the floor
And nobody knows you like I do
The world doesn't understand
But I grow stronger in your hands
"Jun!" I smiled at my lover above me.
"Sho-chan."
"You fell asleep, babe." Sho stroked my cheek and kissed me deeply. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pressing our hot bodies together. The sand sticked on our skins, the sun warming our bodies. I tasted Sho's lips hungrily but still softly, our tongues dancing together for lots of minutes. Sho kissed my neck slowly, his hand never leaving my hips, his tongue tasting my sensitive spots. He knew perfectly my neck was one of my most sensitive parts and loved to play with it.
"You're so beautiful, Jun." My lover whispered before attacking my lips once more time, stealing me loud moans.
"I love you." Was my answer, bringing a happy smile on his face. I was only 17 years old but deep inside me, I knew he was the number one. I knew he will stay the first and only one in my heart. Sho stopped the kiss but kept his forehead against mine, making me smell his breath. We stared at each other, our eyes speaking for us. No need words. We understood each other perfectly. I put my hand on his cheek, Sho closing his eyes with a deep breath. We didn't make love this day. No need to make love. We kept kissing softly and hugging each other, enjoying this so intimate moment.
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
Tears were now rolling down my cheeks. I heard the fans screaming "ganbatte" like for Kazu some years ago but no need any encouragement. Even if I was crying, I never stopped the song, my voice shaking just a bit because of these memories with Sho.
I stood up, the dancer immediately following me. I was only wearing a sweat pants now and he came to stroke my skin. As he was wearing a mask on his face, you couldn't know if he was a boy or a girl because of his neutral black clothes that were almost hiding his body. My hand traveled in his hair, bringing our faces for a fake kiss. He pushed me again on the bed, making me fall before laying down next to me, stroking my hips softly. I sat down, forcing him to hug me from behind. His hand took my cheek and made me turn my face to give me again a fake kiss.
We never sleep we're always holdin' hands
Kissin' for hours talkin' makin' plans
I feel like a better man
Just being in the same room
We never sleep there's just so much to do
Too much to say
Can't close my eyes when I'm with you
Insatiable the way I'm loving you
Suddenly, the lights started to light up the whole stage. We stood up and started to dance, playing a game like a cat with a mouse but slowly, with lots of sensuality. As the song was too calm to use fireworks, everything was relying on the game of lights, showing what we wanted to show, hiding what we wanted to hide. Blue, green, yellow but mostly violet and red lights were running on our bodies. I had inclued some water's effect like for Akashi and now, our bodies were dancing on the water behind us. Sweat was rolling down my skin, I had never had such an exhausting performance, even for Shake it. Maybe because I was singing and dancing as if it was my last breath, as if I was going to die at the end of the song. It was as if Sho was the dancer, as if it was his hands on my skin, his soft lips against mine, his body pressing mine.
Suddenly, the dancer disappeared when the lights turned off for some seconds before coming back. He was different. Taller and hadn't the same clothes. But I couldn't think more about it, the song wasn't over and I had to continue. Closing my eyes and taking a deep breath, I started the last refrain but blinked when the dancer's arms wrapped my waist as if he was really hugging me. I pushed him on the bed again, kissing his neck and brushing his skin under his shirt. For some seconds, the stage fell dark and the dancer grabbed my neck to kiss me. I blinked, recognizing these lips, this taste, this scent, this breath. I didn't think more and kissed him back roughly, our mouths tasting each other with despair before breaking apart when the lights came back.
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
The music stopped, the dancer still above me on the bed.
All the dome started to scream and we heard the fans clapping their hands. I stood up, tears still rolling down my cheeks. I bowed to the fans before leaving the stage, almost running as anger was invading me.
"Why did you let him do?!" I screamed at Nino when Aiba started to sing his solo.
"We didn't know." Nino replied.
"Jun..."
"Don't touch me!" I pushed Sho's hand away. "Was it funny? Did you laugh playing with me?!" I cried.
"I wasn't playing, Jun." Sho replied.
"Why did you do that? Don't you think I have suffered enough?! I broke our couple but I don't deserve your stupid jokes! It's already hard to move on, I don't need your sadism!" I screamed, ignoring the staff who was staring at us with shocked eyes.
"Jun, I never..."
"Leave me alone, don't ever approach me again, Sakurai!" I yelled before leaving to change my clothes.
The rest of the concert was a hell. I just wanted to die. I wanted to disappear and forget Sho's trick. I stayed as far away from him as possible, avoiding his hurt look.
"Jun!" Nino called my name at the end of the concert but I ignored him and ran away. Why did I write this stupid song?! Why did I sing it?! Now, Sho was making fun of me and my will to move on had disappeared.
When I opened my door's apartment, a strong hand grabbed my arm, making me scream. I paled, seeing Takeshi in front of me.
"Alone, Jun?"
"What do you want?" I frowned.
"Did you forget I told you I would come back?" Takeshi smirked.
"What do you want? I gave you what you wanted the last time."
"I want more, Jun." Takeshi smiled, stroking my cheek. I closed my eyes, trying not to panic.
"Please, Takeshi, I..."
"My dear, Jun, we should talk a bit more." Takeshi grabbed my nape to smack our lips, I slapped his face but a strong fist punched my cheek and I fell on the ground. "You really know perfectly how to excite me, baby." Takeshi smirked, climbing on me. I kicked him with all my strength and ran in my kitchen, grabbing a knife.
"You shouldn't play with that, it's dangerous." Takeda smirked.
"Don't approach me or..."
"Or what?" Takeda laughed. "Look at yourself, you are shaking in fear like a school girl." I knew my hand was shaking in fear but never lowered the knife.
"Leave!" Takeda smiled and ran toward me, I avoided him and ran in the living room but this bastard caught my arm and I fell on the ground, the knife leaving my hand.
"Stop, please!" I struggled, making him rip my shirt.
"I miss your body, Jun." Takeshi groaned, unzipping my jeans.
"No!!!" I screamed, hitting his chest violently. Takeshi laughed and pushed the knife against my throat, cutting my skin and making me scream in pain.
"You are stronger than 13 years ago, Jun. You were so cute and weak. And so innocent." Takeshi tried to kiss me but I turned my face.
"Why?"
"Because at the second I saw you trying to protect your friend, I understood I wanted you and you would belong to me. Do you remember this day when Kaoru and I caught you after school? Do you remember when we fucked you so hard? You were screaming your dear boyfriend's name with despair..." Takeshi smirked.
"Please." I covered my ears, crying. "Stop, please." I sobbed, feeling the blood rolling down my skin.
"Did it change something for your lover not to be able to touch you? Did it change something when he fucked you while some hours ago, it was me inside you?"
"Please, stop." I sobbed, trying not to remember these moments.
"Does he know you are just a disgusting whore? That you couldn't even say anything because you were afraid that I fuck your precious little sister and your best friends? You're still so weak, Jun but it's the way I love you." I just wanted to die now. I wanted to stop these memories.
"Get your dirty hands off my boyfriend, bastard!" I saw Sho punching Takeshi violently. But Takeshi grabbed his collar and hit him in the stomach, making me scream. I saw the knife on the ground and without thinking, grabbed it.
"Release him!" I put the knife on Takeshi's throat.
"We can talk, Jun." Takeshi whispered, afraid.
"I said, release him!!!" I yelled and punched him. Takeshi fell on the ground and I hit him again. It was as if I was taking a revenge for what he had done to me. My hatred and anger led my fist and I hit him hard, tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Jun, stop it!" I heard Sho but ignored him.
"He broke me! He said I was just an object only good to be fucked!! He destroyed my pride and my life!!! He took you away from me!!!" I shouted, hitting Takeshi again and again. "He said nobody would want my body after that! He said I was a shame that only deserved to be rejected and to die. He stole me everything I had, all the important things of my life." I cried, punching Takeshi again.
"Jun, you are going to kill him!" Sho grabbed my arm. I froze and as if I was woken up, looked down. Takeshi was unconscious, lots of blood covering him. "Stop it." Sho whispered.
I nodded and at the second he released me, I crawled in the corner of my living room, hugging my knees against me.
"I need an ambulance." Sho called some help and after closing his phone, turned toward my shaking body.
"Jun..." Sho whispered, trying to approach me slowly. I raised my crying face toward him, fear shining in my eyes.
"Sho... I... I'm sorry." I sobbed.
"Shttt, calm down, it's over now." Sho wrapped me in his arms, burying my face in his neck. "Why didn't you tell me, Jun? Why didn't you tell me he was ra-ping (a sob left Sho's throat at the word) you instead of forcing you with me? Why babe?" Sho kept repeating, tears rolling down his cheeks. We heard men rushing in my apartment and taking Takeshi away. They checked my vitals but I refused to go to hospital and after a talk with a policeman, Sho lifted me in his arms and laid me down on the bed.
"I'm sorry. I... He threatened me... I was afraid you left me because I was disgusting..." I whispered.
"And you suffered all this time for that? How can you think I would have left you?"
"Sho, I was only 17 years old, I was shy and it was a miracle for me that you agreed to date me. Plus, I was ashamed. I preferred you to leave me because you thought I didn't love you anymore than leaving me because you thought I was gross, disgusting and dirty."
"Babe...." Sho took my chin to make me look at him. "I love you. I will never stop to love you because you're the most precious thing of my life. This song, you wrote it for me, ne?"
"Yes. But when you joined the stage, I panicked because I thought you wanted to humiliate me."
"Baka. Do you know I suffered as much as you during all this time. And acting like two perfect strangers after all the amazing things we shared was like a hell." Sho smiled softly, stroking my cheek.
"I'm sorry. I spoiled everything but I..."
"You should have told me. Jun, three years, you suffered for three years and I was sometimes so rough with you when you were scared..." Sho closed his eyes, taking a deep breath.
"It wasn't your fault, I should have told you everything. We wouldn't have lost all this time... We would still be together and happy."
"It's not too late. Jun, we will solve everything, I don't want to lose you again. When I heard your song.... Jun it was the most amazing and beautiful thing someone was doing for me. It was us. And you sang so incredibly and with so much feelings. I was jealous of your dancer, he was touching you too much and almost kissing you." Sho groaned, making me chuckle.
"Really?"
"Yes. You can't know how horrible it was for me to know you were sleeping with Shun, Toma or other men. I swear nobody is going to touch you again."
"I thought Aiba and you..."
"No, never. Aiba liked you but he wanted to help me. I understand why you reacted like that the day he kissed you."
"You were the only one who could touch me so much besides Kazu. If someone else tried, I... Even if I rejected you, it was horrible for me to act like that because I love your touch.."
"I know, babe. I swear I'll touch you when you will be ready."
"You still want me? After all the horrible things I've done to you?" I asked weakly.
"Of course I do. Because my love for you is insatiable." I smiled widely at his words and approached my face to kiss him but Sho moved back with a worried face.
"I'm over it. Kazu made me see a psychologist and even if I'm still a bit scared with strangers, you, you can touch me." I smiled weakly.
"Jun, I don't want to hurt you more."
"You won't." I wrapped Sho's nape to kiss him. It felt so good, so amazing to feel him again. It was as if I was dead before and now, was living again. Sho took my lower lip beween his teeth softy before pecking my lips and invading my mouth. I kept my hand on his cheek, inhaling his wonderful scent.
"We should stop." Sho whispered.
"Why?"
"Jun, I haven't had you in this way for 13 years, I'm just a man." I blushed, feeling his hard length. "It's good to see your old self again. It's been a while since I've seen you blushing."
"I missed you too. We can..."
"No. You're not ready, Jun. A man almost raped you in front of my eyes. I don't want to harm you, I'll wait for you to be ready."
"Okay." I sighed but kissed him again. Sho smiled and hugged me tightly. Suddenly, I stood up and opened my drawer to take something.
"You still have it?!" Sho's eyes widened.
"Of course. I couldn't wear it anymore because it was too painful but now, I think its place is here again." Sho helped me to put the bracelet he offered me for my birthday before kissing it.
"For the one who made me understand the meaning of 'love'." Sho whispered in my ear. I grinned and allowed him to steal my lips for another hungry kiss. I looked at the shining silver bracelet on my wrist and smiled. It felt so good to have a part of Sho against me after all this suffering.
"Don't hide me such important things again, Jun." My lover whispered.
"I promise."
Three months later....
After this day, Sho came back in our apartment. I had never felt so happy before. I was still seeing my psychologist but we waited with Sho to make love again.
"Tadaima."
"Okaeri Sho-chan!" I smiled and almost jumped in his arms to kiss him.
"It smells good."
"I've made curry ramen." I chuckled, knowing it was one of his favorite food.
"I love you!" Sho caught my lips hungrily, his hands traveling on my body, making me moan and shiver but this time, not in fear but in pleasure. My hand came to stroke his cheek before traveling in his soft black hair as he was attacking my neck, kissing, licking and sucking my skin. "Jun, we should stop..." Sho protested. I shook my head and stroked his hard length, stealing him a loud moan. His hands came to take my clothes off slowly, his mouth kissing every part of my chest. I felt loved, none fear nor disgust because I knew Sho loved me and my body despite what happened. He had been very patient during these three months, trying everything to make me feel loved and to erase the hatred I had for myself and my body. I threw his clothes elsewhere before letting him lift me in arms to lay me down on our bed.
"Sho!" I gasped when I felt his mouth around me. He was trying to give me as much pleasure as possible.
"Babe..." Sho kissed my mouth, stroking our bodies together. I wrapped my legs around his waist, moaning loudly. Why for the fucking sake was he so slow?!
"I want our first time to be unforgetable." I chuckled, hearing the same sentence than 13 years ago.
"It's not our first time."
"It is. It's our first time since you agreed to trust me and allow me to erase the past." I smiled tenderly at his words.
"Give me an unforgetable first time then." Sho attacked my mouth and I moaned when two fingers came to tease me. He took all his time to prepare me, kissing my most sensitive parts, stroking all my body, whispering how much he loved me and how much I was beautiful. I started to cry in happiness when he pushed inside me. My face was buried in his neck when we weren't kissing as if there was no tomorrow. Sho's hips were moving slowly, driving me crazy while his hand was taking mine, linking our fingers.
"Sho!!!" I screamed when I came.
"I love you!" Sho moaned, his body arching as he was filling me. I stroked his cheeks with both hands, panting heavily and kissing him again and again.
"Thank you." I whispered.
"I would give you the world, Jun."
"Sappy chipmunk." I smirked but Sho smiled and kissed the tear rolling down my cheek.
"Always when it's with you." I hugged him tightly, burying my face in his neck. I had never felt so happy before.
We said time was healing our wounds but it was false. It was Sho who was the only one able to heal my wounds. I felt loved and protected in his arms and this lost happiness in my heart was now, shining again in my eyes. Because Sho was my everything. He was the one making me stronger and feel like a better man. Because he was my reason to live.
I was still a sadist with the other but when we were alone, Sho could do what he wanted to me because everything he gave me made me feel loved and made me feel like the luckiest and happiest man of the world. So, for him, I could forget a bit my S side in bed even though, I was leading almost everything in our personal life and could get what I wanted with a simple smile.
****
"Ready?" Sho asked me, taking my hand.
"Yes. I love you."
"I love you too." Sho kissed my lips before putting the mask on his face. We walked toward the stage, the music starting. We had worked together on this choreography, Sho wanting to participate at the confession I had written for him. The lights turned on, alighting our bodies but at the second we were in the dark, Sho was kissing me lovingly before pulling away, as if we were simply dancing a sensual dance. Sho's hands were brushing my body, his lips stroking my skin, his breath against me making me shiver. Our bodies were moving in a perfect sync, Sho whispering the lyrics of my song in my ear at the same time I was singing. My heart was exploding in joy and I had never felt so happy to sing in a concert. Because it was for the love of my life. It was for Sho. Everything. My whole person was for him.
Because I simply loved him more than the life itself.
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
At the end of the song, a picture appeared on the screen. A picture of Sho's hand holding mine like when we were making love. I had asked Nino to take this picture to show to the world he was mine and I was his, even though nobody could know it was us.
Because our love was really insatiable and nothing would be able to destroy our 'us' again.
Owari <3
A/N: And here we are, the end of this story that was a one shot at the beginning and ended in a short serie XD It was my first time writing a Sakumoto serie, I had just made os before but I loved it. I think it's one of my favorite stories that I have written because even if they are two S, Sho and Jun suit perfectly each other. Our sensitive diva and our strong caster xD they look so perfect and cute together. I'm now working on a new Sakumoto, there are 7 chapters for the moment and I hope the fans of Sakumoto will read it because they deserve our love and there isn't enough fans of Sakumoto. We have to fight for more Sakumoto!!! xDDD And a special kiss for the readers who commented because it's always great to know some persons like my stories and make kind and touching comments, so, thank you very much <3
Un petit message pour toi Capucine xD Désolée d'avoir menti, j'avais jamais prévu de les séparer, pas pour ma 1ere longue Sakumoto, je suis pas folle xD et cette histoire est née d'un de nos nombreux délires donc j'aurais juste pas pu les séparer xD voilà pourquoi je t'avais dit d'attendre la fin pour pousser ta gueulante xD parce que le Sakumoto et Arashi restent safe malgré Nino que je sais tu aimes tant xD J'espère que cette fic t'auras comme même un petit peu plu xD bisous <3 Sakumoto powa and forever xD
Author: MatsuAurore
Pairing: Sakumoto, Ohmiya (slight)
Rating: R for some violence
Genre: Drama, romance, angst, fluff
Disclaimer: Girls, they are already naked in my bed... In my dreams xD
Summary: The first time I met him, I immediately fell in love with him. The first time I saw him, I understood he would become the most important part of my life. But what I didn't expect was his strong and free personality. When will you stop this game and will notice my deep feelings for you?
Final part:
When I entered the green room, I saw Nino and Ohno fighting a bit before our Leader left the room.
"We are tired because of the next tour. Johnny told me you had prepared a new solo?" Nino smiled weakly.
"Yes. I wrote it."
"For Sho."
"No." I lied. Of course all my solos were talking about him.
"Of course." Nino smirked. "Jun, if you need to talk, I'm always here."
"I know." I smiled and hugged him tightly. He was the only who could touch me like that.
"Nino, Jun, we are waiting for you." Ohno and Sho called, Sho frowning when he saw me in Kazu's arms.
I climbed on the stage, the dome falling silent. I took a deep breath and made a sign to start the music.
When moonlight crawls along the street
Chasing away the summer heat
Footsteps outside somewhere below
The world revolves I let it go
We build our church above this street
We practice love between these sheets
The candy sweetness scent of you
It bathes my skin I'm stained by you
And all I have to do is hold you
There's a racing in my heart
I am barely touching you
I had never done this kind of solo before. I had to sing differently, calmly and with all my feelings but it wasn't very difficult since I had written this song for my first and last love. I closed my eyes, letting the music sink in my heart, remembering our happy moments together, when we were 13, 14, 15, 16, 17 years old. Our first meeting, our first games, our first time...
I walked toward the bed on the stage, sitting down. I started to unbutton my shirt, strangely, none fans screamed while I was singing and taking my top off, the fabric leaving my shoulders, brushing my skin that was lighted up by just one light. A dancer came behind, dancing around me, stroking my body a little before I threw him on the bed and climbed on top of him, our bodies never touching completely, just brushing together. I stroked his skin softly, still singing and moving above before the dancer made me roll on my back to move down while my hands were gripping his hair. There was nothing sexual, it was just erotic, it was showing a deep sensuality and love.
The moonlight plays upon your skin
A kiss that lingers takes me in
I fall asleep inside of you
There are no words
There's only truth
Breathe in Breathe out
There is no sound
We move together up and down
We levitate our bodies soar
Our feet don't even touch the floor
And nobody knows you like I do
The world doesn't understand
But I grow stronger in your hands
"Jun!" I smiled at my lover above me.
"Sho-chan."
"You fell asleep, babe." Sho stroked my cheek and kissed me deeply. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pressing our hot bodies together. The sand sticked on our skins, the sun warming our bodies. I tasted Sho's lips hungrily but still softly, our tongues dancing together for lots of minutes. Sho kissed my neck slowly, his hand never leaving my hips, his tongue tasting my sensitive spots. He knew perfectly my neck was one of my most sensitive parts and loved to play with it.
"You're so beautiful, Jun." My lover whispered before attacking my lips once more time, stealing me loud moans.
"I love you." Was my answer, bringing a happy smile on his face. I was only 17 years old but deep inside me, I knew he was the number one. I knew he will stay the first and only one in my heart. Sho stopped the kiss but kept his forehead against mine, making me smell his breath. We stared at each other, our eyes speaking for us. No need words. We understood each other perfectly. I put my hand on his cheek, Sho closing his eyes with a deep breath. We didn't make love this day. No need to make love. We kept kissing softly and hugging each other, enjoying this so intimate moment.
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
Tears were now rolling down my cheeks. I heard the fans screaming "ganbatte" like for Kazu some years ago but no need any encouragement. Even if I was crying, I never stopped the song, my voice shaking just a bit because of these memories with Sho.
I stood up, the dancer immediately following me. I was only wearing a sweat pants now and he came to stroke my skin. As he was wearing a mask on his face, you couldn't know if he was a boy or a girl because of his neutral black clothes that were almost hiding his body. My hand traveled in his hair, bringing our faces for a fake kiss. He pushed me again on the bed, making me fall before laying down next to me, stroking my hips softly. I sat down, forcing him to hug me from behind. His hand took my cheek and made me turn my face to give me again a fake kiss.
We never sleep we're always holdin' hands
Kissin' for hours talkin' makin' plans
I feel like a better man
Just being in the same room
We never sleep there's just so much to do
Too much to say
Can't close my eyes when I'm with you
Insatiable the way I'm loving you
Suddenly, the lights started to light up the whole stage. We stood up and started to dance, playing a game like a cat with a mouse but slowly, with lots of sensuality. As the song was too calm to use fireworks, everything was relying on the game of lights, showing what we wanted to show, hiding what we wanted to hide. Blue, green, yellow but mostly violet and red lights were running on our bodies. I had inclued some water's effect like for Akashi and now, our bodies were dancing on the water behind us. Sweat was rolling down my skin, I had never had such an exhausting performance, even for Shake it. Maybe because I was singing and dancing as if it was my last breath, as if I was going to die at the end of the song. It was as if Sho was the dancer, as if it was his hands on my skin, his soft lips against mine, his body pressing mine.
Suddenly, the dancer disappeared when the lights turned off for some seconds before coming back. He was different. Taller and hadn't the same clothes. But I couldn't think more about it, the song wasn't over and I had to continue. Closing my eyes and taking a deep breath, I started the last refrain but blinked when the dancer's arms wrapped my waist as if he was really hugging me. I pushed him on the bed again, kissing his neck and brushing his skin under his shirt. For some seconds, the stage fell dark and the dancer grabbed my neck to kiss me. I blinked, recognizing these lips, this taste, this scent, this breath. I didn't think more and kissed him back roughly, our mouths tasting each other with despair before breaking apart when the lights came back.
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
The music stopped, the dancer still above me on the bed.
All the dome started to scream and we heard the fans clapping their hands. I stood up, tears still rolling down my cheeks. I bowed to the fans before leaving the stage, almost running as anger was invading me.
"Why did you let him do?!" I screamed at Nino when Aiba started to sing his solo.
"We didn't know." Nino replied.
"Jun..."
"Don't touch me!" I pushed Sho's hand away. "Was it funny? Did you laugh playing with me?!" I cried.
"I wasn't playing, Jun." Sho replied.
"Why did you do that? Don't you think I have suffered enough?! I broke our couple but I don't deserve your stupid jokes! It's already hard to move on, I don't need your sadism!" I screamed, ignoring the staff who was staring at us with shocked eyes.
"Jun, I never..."
"Leave me alone, don't ever approach me again, Sakurai!" I yelled before leaving to change my clothes.
The rest of the concert was a hell. I just wanted to die. I wanted to disappear and forget Sho's trick. I stayed as far away from him as possible, avoiding his hurt look.
"Jun!" Nino called my name at the end of the concert but I ignored him and ran away. Why did I write this stupid song?! Why did I sing it?! Now, Sho was making fun of me and my will to move on had disappeared.
When I opened my door's apartment, a strong hand grabbed my arm, making me scream. I paled, seeing Takeshi in front of me.
"Alone, Jun?"
"What do you want?" I frowned.
"Did you forget I told you I would come back?" Takeshi smirked.
"What do you want? I gave you what you wanted the last time."
"I want more, Jun." Takeshi smiled, stroking my cheek. I closed my eyes, trying not to panic.
"Please, Takeshi, I..."
"My dear, Jun, we should talk a bit more." Takeshi grabbed my nape to smack our lips, I slapped his face but a strong fist punched my cheek and I fell on the ground. "You really know perfectly how to excite me, baby." Takeshi smirked, climbing on me. I kicked him with all my strength and ran in my kitchen, grabbing a knife.
"You shouldn't play with that, it's dangerous." Takeda smirked.
"Don't approach me or..."
"Or what?" Takeda laughed. "Look at yourself, you are shaking in fear like a school girl." I knew my hand was shaking in fear but never lowered the knife.
"Leave!" Takeda smiled and ran toward me, I avoided him and ran in the living room but this bastard caught my arm and I fell on the ground, the knife leaving my hand.
"Stop, please!" I struggled, making him rip my shirt.
"I miss your body, Jun." Takeshi groaned, unzipping my jeans.
"No!!!" I screamed, hitting his chest violently. Takeshi laughed and pushed the knife against my throat, cutting my skin and making me scream in pain.
"You are stronger than 13 years ago, Jun. You were so cute and weak. And so innocent." Takeshi tried to kiss me but I turned my face.
"Why?"
"Because at the second I saw you trying to protect your friend, I understood I wanted you and you would belong to me. Do you remember this day when Kaoru and I caught you after school? Do you remember when we fucked you so hard? You were screaming your dear boyfriend's name with despair..." Takeshi smirked.
"Please." I covered my ears, crying. "Stop, please." I sobbed, feeling the blood rolling down my skin.
"Did it change something for your lover not to be able to touch you? Did it change something when he fucked you while some hours ago, it was me inside you?"
"Please, stop." I sobbed, trying not to remember these moments.
"Does he know you are just a disgusting whore? That you couldn't even say anything because you were afraid that I fuck your precious little sister and your best friends? You're still so weak, Jun but it's the way I love you." I just wanted to die now. I wanted to stop these memories.
"Get your dirty hands off my boyfriend, bastard!" I saw Sho punching Takeshi violently. But Takeshi grabbed his collar and hit him in the stomach, making me scream. I saw the knife on the ground and without thinking, grabbed it.
"Release him!" I put the knife on Takeshi's throat.
"We can talk, Jun." Takeshi whispered, afraid.
"I said, release him!!!" I yelled and punched him. Takeshi fell on the ground and I hit him again. It was as if I was taking a revenge for what he had done to me. My hatred and anger led my fist and I hit him hard, tears rolling down my cheeks.
"Jun, stop it!" I heard Sho but ignored him.
"He broke me! He said I was just an object only good to be fucked!! He destroyed my pride and my life!!! He took you away from me!!!" I shouted, hitting Takeshi again and again. "He said nobody would want my body after that! He said I was a shame that only deserved to be rejected and to die. He stole me everything I had, all the important things of my life." I cried, punching Takeshi again.
"Jun, you are going to kill him!" Sho grabbed my arm. I froze and as if I was woken up, looked down. Takeshi was unconscious, lots of blood covering him. "Stop it." Sho whispered.
I nodded and at the second he released me, I crawled in the corner of my living room, hugging my knees against me.
"I need an ambulance." Sho called some help and after closing his phone, turned toward my shaking body.
"Jun..." Sho whispered, trying to approach me slowly. I raised my crying face toward him, fear shining in my eyes.
"Sho... I... I'm sorry." I sobbed.
"Shttt, calm down, it's over now." Sho wrapped me in his arms, burying my face in his neck. "Why didn't you tell me, Jun? Why didn't you tell me he was ra-ping (a sob left Sho's throat at the word) you instead of forcing you with me? Why babe?" Sho kept repeating, tears rolling down his cheeks. We heard men rushing in my apartment and taking Takeshi away. They checked my vitals but I refused to go to hospital and after a talk with a policeman, Sho lifted me in his arms and laid me down on the bed.
"I'm sorry. I... He threatened me... I was afraid you left me because I was disgusting..." I whispered.
"And you suffered all this time for that? How can you think I would have left you?"
"Sho, I was only 17 years old, I was shy and it was a miracle for me that you agreed to date me. Plus, I was ashamed. I preferred you to leave me because you thought I didn't love you anymore than leaving me because you thought I was gross, disgusting and dirty."
"Babe...." Sho took my chin to make me look at him. "I love you. I will never stop to love you because you're the most precious thing of my life. This song, you wrote it for me, ne?"
"Yes. But when you joined the stage, I panicked because I thought you wanted to humiliate me."
"Baka. Do you know I suffered as much as you during all this time. And acting like two perfect strangers after all the amazing things we shared was like a hell." Sho smiled softly, stroking my cheek.
"I'm sorry. I spoiled everything but I..."
"You should have told me. Jun, three years, you suffered for three years and I was sometimes so rough with you when you were scared..." Sho closed his eyes, taking a deep breath.
"It wasn't your fault, I should have told you everything. We wouldn't have lost all this time... We would still be together and happy."
"It's not too late. Jun, we will solve everything, I don't want to lose you again. When I heard your song.... Jun it was the most amazing and beautiful thing someone was doing for me. It was us. And you sang so incredibly and with so much feelings. I was jealous of your dancer, he was touching you too much and almost kissing you." Sho groaned, making me chuckle.
"Really?"
"Yes. You can't know how horrible it was for me to know you were sleeping with Shun, Toma or other men. I swear nobody is going to touch you again."
"I thought Aiba and you..."
"No, never. Aiba liked you but he wanted to help me. I understand why you reacted like that the day he kissed you."
"You were the only one who could touch me so much besides Kazu. If someone else tried, I... Even if I rejected you, it was horrible for me to act like that because I love your touch.."
"I know, babe. I swear I'll touch you when you will be ready."
"You still want me? After all the horrible things I've done to you?" I asked weakly.
"Of course I do. Because my love for you is insatiable." I smiled widely at his words and approached my face to kiss him but Sho moved back with a worried face.
"I'm over it. Kazu made me see a psychologist and even if I'm still a bit scared with strangers, you, you can touch me." I smiled weakly.
"Jun, I don't want to hurt you more."
"You won't." I wrapped Sho's nape to kiss him. It felt so good, so amazing to feel him again. It was as if I was dead before and now, was living again. Sho took my lower lip beween his teeth softy before pecking my lips and invading my mouth. I kept my hand on his cheek, inhaling his wonderful scent.
"We should stop." Sho whispered.
"Why?"
"Jun, I haven't had you in this way for 13 years, I'm just a man." I blushed, feeling his hard length. "It's good to see your old self again. It's been a while since I've seen you blushing."
"I missed you too. We can..."
"No. You're not ready, Jun. A man almost raped you in front of my eyes. I don't want to harm you, I'll wait for you to be ready."
"Okay." I sighed but kissed him again. Sho smiled and hugged me tightly. Suddenly, I stood up and opened my drawer to take something.
"You still have it?!" Sho's eyes widened.
"Of course. I couldn't wear it anymore because it was too painful but now, I think its place is here again." Sho helped me to put the bracelet he offered me for my birthday before kissing it.
"For the one who made me understand the meaning of 'love'." Sho whispered in my ear. I grinned and allowed him to steal my lips for another hungry kiss. I looked at the shining silver bracelet on my wrist and smiled. It felt so good to have a part of Sho against me after all this suffering.
"Don't hide me such important things again, Jun." My lover whispered.
"I promise."
Three months later....
After this day, Sho came back in our apartment. I had never felt so happy before. I was still seeing my psychologist but we waited with Sho to make love again.
"Tadaima."
"Okaeri Sho-chan!" I smiled and almost jumped in his arms to kiss him.
"It smells good."
"I've made curry ramen." I chuckled, knowing it was one of his favorite food.
"I love you!" Sho caught my lips hungrily, his hands traveling on my body, making me moan and shiver but this time, not in fear but in pleasure. My hand came to stroke his cheek before traveling in his soft black hair as he was attacking my neck, kissing, licking and sucking my skin. "Jun, we should stop..." Sho protested. I shook my head and stroked his hard length, stealing him a loud moan. His hands came to take my clothes off slowly, his mouth kissing every part of my chest. I felt loved, none fear nor disgust because I knew Sho loved me and my body despite what happened. He had been very patient during these three months, trying everything to make me feel loved and to erase the hatred I had for myself and my body. I threw his clothes elsewhere before letting him lift me in arms to lay me down on our bed.
"Sho!" I gasped when I felt his mouth around me. He was trying to give me as much pleasure as possible.
"Babe..." Sho kissed my mouth, stroking our bodies together. I wrapped my legs around his waist, moaning loudly. Why for the fucking sake was he so slow?!
"I want our first time to be unforgetable." I chuckled, hearing the same sentence than 13 years ago.
"It's not our first time."
"It is. It's our first time since you agreed to trust me and allow me to erase the past." I smiled tenderly at his words.
"Give me an unforgetable first time then." Sho attacked my mouth and I moaned when two fingers came to tease me. He took all his time to prepare me, kissing my most sensitive parts, stroking all my body, whispering how much he loved me and how much I was beautiful. I started to cry in happiness when he pushed inside me. My face was buried in his neck when we weren't kissing as if there was no tomorrow. Sho's hips were moving slowly, driving me crazy while his hand was taking mine, linking our fingers.
"Sho!!!" I screamed when I came.
"I love you!" Sho moaned, his body arching as he was filling me. I stroked his cheeks with both hands, panting heavily and kissing him again and again.
"Thank you." I whispered.
"I would give you the world, Jun."
"Sappy chipmunk." I smirked but Sho smiled and kissed the tear rolling down my cheek.
"Always when it's with you." I hugged him tightly, burying my face in his neck. I had never felt so happy before.
We said time was healing our wounds but it was false. It was Sho who was the only one able to heal my wounds. I felt loved and protected in his arms and this lost happiness in my heart was now, shining again in my eyes. Because Sho was my everything. He was the one making me stronger and feel like a better man. Because he was my reason to live.
I was still a sadist with the other but when we were alone, Sho could do what he wanted to me because everything he gave me made me feel loved and made me feel like the luckiest and happiest man of the world. So, for him, I could forget a bit my S side in bed even though, I was leading almost everything in our personal life and could get what I wanted with a simple smile.
****
"Ready?" Sho asked me, taking my hand.
"Yes. I love you."
"I love you too." Sho kissed my lips before putting the mask on his face. We walked toward the stage, the music starting. We had worked together on this choreography, Sho wanting to participate at the confession I had written for him. The lights turned on, alighting our bodies but at the second we were in the dark, Sho was kissing me lovingly before pulling away, as if we were simply dancing a sensual dance. Sho's hands were brushing my body, his lips stroking my skin, his breath against me making me shiver. Our bodies were moving in a perfect sync, Sho whispering the lyrics of my song in my ear at the same time I was singing. My heart was exploding in joy and I had never felt so happy to sing in a concert. Because it was for the love of my life. It was for Sho. Everything. My whole person was for him.
Because I simply loved him more than the life itself.
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
At the end of the song, a picture appeared on the screen. A picture of Sho's hand holding mine like when we were making love. I had asked Nino to take this picture to show to the world he was mine and I was his, even though nobody could know it was us.
Because our love was really insatiable and nothing would be able to destroy our 'us' again.
Owari <3
A/N: And here we are, the end of this story that was a one shot at the beginning and ended in a short serie XD It was my first time writing a Sakumoto serie, I had just made os before but I loved it. I think it's one of my favorite stories that I have written because even if they are two S, Sho and Jun suit perfectly each other. Our sensitive diva and our strong caster xD they look so perfect and cute together. I'm now working on a new Sakumoto, there are 7 chapters for the moment and I hope the fans of Sakumoto will read it because they deserve our love and there isn't enough fans of Sakumoto. We have to fight for more Sakumoto!!! xDDD And a special kiss for the readers who commented because it's always great to know some persons like my stories and make kind and touching comments, so, thank you very much <3
Un petit message pour toi Capucine xD Désolée d'avoir menti, j'avais jamais prévu de les séparer, pas pour ma 1ere longue Sakumoto, je suis pas folle xD et cette histoire est née d'un de nos nombreux délires donc j'aurais juste pas pu les séparer xD voilà pourquoi je t'avais dit d'attendre la fin pour pousser ta gueulante xD parce que le Sakumoto et Arashi restent safe malgré Nino que je sais tu aimes tant xD J'espère que cette fic t'auras comme même un petit peu plu xD bisous <3 Sakumoto powa and forever xD