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Though I do like the iPad. In terms of writing it is pretty useless. I know I've tried to post before and lost it by the wrong swipe or movement. Bring into question why I'm using it now. Accessibility i suppose. I can just pick up and do it, almost immediately.
I feel tangled within my own mind, like a whole bunch of threads or cords over layering each other. Changing ideas or concepts moves the cords and only tightens the whole weave, making it harder to find the source.
Money, my job, training, more money, dreams of a financial sum, writing something to sell, making writing accessible (maybe a laptop).
Girlfriend, Sarah, seriousness?, expiration, living together, earning my keep, supportive, fun, foolish thinking, square one, better me and contine search.
Moving out, enough income, job stability, new job, my car, family arguments, living alone, having a room mate, being in bad situation, no bail out, ??? Peace and quiet, no Michael, future of house?
Life, wasted, worthless, lazy, watching/observing, no participation, anxiety, anger, fear, distrust, change a dream, everyone screwed, waiting for end.
Money (again), debt, credit card, gas, no budget, too many costs, too much spending, work more, less free time, misery, therapy?, mental disorder, disability, no respect, no solution.
My mind responds in spasm of yes/no's. sometimes it just shouts random obscenities, until it occurs to me what the outside world would think. Maybe an excuse, maybe an example of what holds me back or the struggle I face frequently when not hiding.
I haven't been to the movies in awhile.
I feel tangled within my own mind, like a whole bunch of threads or cords over layering each other. Changing ideas or concepts moves the cords and only tightens the whole weave, making it harder to find the source.
Money, my job, training, more money, dreams of a financial sum, writing something to sell, making writing accessible (maybe a laptop).
Girlfriend, Sarah, seriousness?, expiration, living together, earning my keep, supportive, fun, foolish thinking, square one, better me and contine search.
Moving out, enough income, job stability, new job, my car, family arguments, living alone, having a room mate, being in bad situation, no bail out, ??? Peace and quiet, no Michael, future of house?
Life, wasted, worthless, lazy, watching/observing, no participation, anxiety, anger, fear, distrust, change a dream, everyone screwed, waiting for end.
Money (again), debt, credit card, gas, no budget, too many costs, too much spending, work more, less free time, misery, therapy?, mental disorder, disability, no respect, no solution.
My mind responds in spasm of yes/no's. sometimes it just shouts random obscenities, until it occurs to me what the outside world would think. Maybe an excuse, maybe an example of what holds me back or the struggle I face frequently when not hiding.
I haven't been to the movies in awhile.