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I've thought long and hard and seen a counsellor about it, and...
I'm going to drop out of my degree.
Computing makes me so miserable it's not even funny, I thought I'd cope, but I just have no enthusiasm for it. I can't get myself up to go to lectures, I can't get myself to do any coursework, I just don't care. I have SIX resit exams in the following two weeks, and I just can't face it, at all.
Obviously my main concern is that right now I feel like a big fucking failure. I suppose to some extent I am, but I honestly think I'd do better if I did a subject I like.. cared about.
So where do things go from here? Well, I need to talk to the Academic Advisory Service, have a chat with them about the potential degree switching, see how the money thing works out... and here's the pisser - I probably won't be able to go into a new degree until September 2007. That means I'm going to have to get a full-time job for a year, and earn some money so that I can live. Now that's scary.
...
But also kinda exciting. I've never had a job before, I've never really had money I can call my own, you know? It might be a nice feeling.. but either way, I'm going to start a new degree either September 2006, or September 2007.
BA English Language (3 years), here I (hopefully) come.
I'm going to drop out of my degree.
Computing makes me so miserable it's not even funny, I thought I'd cope, but I just have no enthusiasm for it. I can't get myself up to go to lectures, I can't get myself to do any coursework, I just don't care. I have SIX resit exams in the following two weeks, and I just can't face it, at all.
Obviously my main concern is that right now I feel like a big fucking failure. I suppose to some extent I am, but I honestly think I'd do better if I did a subject I like.. cared about.
So where do things go from here? Well, I need to talk to the Academic Advisory Service, have a chat with them about the potential degree switching, see how the money thing works out... and here's the pisser - I probably won't be able to go into a new degree until September 2007. That means I'm going to have to get a full-time job for a year, and earn some money so that I can live. Now that's scary.
...
But also kinda exciting. I've never had a job before, I've never really had money I can call my own, you know? It might be a nice feeling.. but either way, I'm going to start a new degree either September 2006, or September 2007.
BA English Language (3 years), here I (hopefully) come.