Close your eyes, clear your heart, cut the chord.

[matikighost]

Well, i'm kind of down tonight. It is certainly a combination of a couple things. I have been recently reminded of just how alone I am up here in Indiana. And really I think this goes back to my Carbondale visit

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Re: Commiseration

[matikighost]

Exactly. I have people at work, but they are just that: People at work. I have no real outlet to make new friends here. I don't want bar friends, I don't want to go meet girls at some club etc. Like, when I was in Kentucky I met a bunch of people at a party we went to who were like "Dude, come live in Lexington or Louisville, play in our games, be a roomate" etc. And that was cool, but I don't want to live in Kentucky and they would be cheap substitutes for the people I really wanted to be with. Like NAS lite. I don't think I could meet new people that raised the same joy and comfort in me as do all you guys.
I am glad gas is coming down. That makes it possible for me to jaunt off to Carbondale for a weekend, or pop into Centralia or Lexington for a couple days. It's like conjugal visits minus the awkward trailer sex lol. Like "Get all you can now because you still have months of hard time left". Things are getting better but man, until then I put up with a boring and lonely existence that I brought on myself. But how glorious that I realize that and revel in the fact that I am changing it? I think it is quite glorious. Glorious indeed.