how interesting
so this week 2 people from my past decided to kind of pop up.
i cant believe i didnt remember that joke. i remember the first time i heard it.
i heard a song today that made me think of my trip to boise. some of you know what that was about.
i actually felt a longing for the place, a deep one, it was wierd.
i closed my eyes and saw the land, parks, snow on the ground, i remember feeling not all that cold in 30 degree weather.
sometimes i do want to just pack up and leave. i hadnt felt that way in a while, since things having been going okay with randy. but now that i've moved down "the path" a bit (as far as randy working now, i'm close to applying for SLP program, gonna move into a 1bdrm apt. soon) i'm getting kinda of worried. its almost like the butterflies women get before their wedding, only i'm not getting married. theyre the ones that make you think "this is the path i'm choosing and theres no turning back, is this really what i want?" randy actually brought up wanting to buy me a ring yesterday, and to my surprise, i was kind of worried. i mean he was dead serious and went on about being so happy and that he loved me and this and that, and all i did was just stare at him with no expression. i guess i looked funny because he asked if i was okay and i just made up something about a headache. i mean, i know i've talked about getting married to randy and all this and that, but to think that its a type of realistic possibility now, i'm starting to second guess myself.
i have no reason *not* to want to marry randy. he loves me to death. i'll be taken care of no matter what. i'll probably be living better financially than any of my friends down here (after his training pay for about a year, and then a few years after that, he'll be in the triple digits). he is a good person and my parents love him. we get along great, he makes me laugh, and i'm totally attracted to him.
those are all the things ppl look for right? am i missing something?
maybe i can convince him to learn guitar and to move somewhere where theres snow? those 2 things are at the top of my wish list. he played sax in high school, but that was ages ago, and as far as moving, i think he'll want to stay down here for a while. he knows too many ppl and has too many close friends down here.
maybe thats a top reason why i should leave for 2 years and go to school somewhere. a) it'd let me live somewhere with snow and b) it'll test out my relationship. i'm a junior already and it sucks that i have nothing to my name. i havent applied myself to any major since that SLP is a program, so technically i'm already going to graduate a year late, thats if i get it, which i'm almost sure i wont.
i wonder if it snows where TCU is at?
so hopefully i get my stats exam grade today.
i have a huge exam next monday. i'm missing 25% of the material >.<
i made a killer breakfast: 2 eggs w/ salsita, beans, and bacon. yum!
ohhhh my tivo comes in today!!!!!
i have to poop :[
<3
i cant believe i didnt remember that joke. i remember the first time i heard it.
i heard a song today that made me think of my trip to boise. some of you know what that was about.
i actually felt a longing for the place, a deep one, it was wierd.
i closed my eyes and saw the land, parks, snow on the ground, i remember feeling not all that cold in 30 degree weather.
sometimes i do want to just pack up and leave. i hadnt felt that way in a while, since things having been going okay with randy. but now that i've moved down "the path" a bit (as far as randy working now, i'm close to applying for SLP program, gonna move into a 1bdrm apt. soon) i'm getting kinda of worried. its almost like the butterflies women get before their wedding, only i'm not getting married. theyre the ones that make you think "this is the path i'm choosing and theres no turning back, is this really what i want?" randy actually brought up wanting to buy me a ring yesterday, and to my surprise, i was kind of worried. i mean he was dead serious and went on about being so happy and that he loved me and this and that, and all i did was just stare at him with no expression. i guess i looked funny because he asked if i was okay and i just made up something about a headache. i mean, i know i've talked about getting married to randy and all this and that, but to think that its a type of realistic possibility now, i'm starting to second guess myself.
i have no reason *not* to want to marry randy. he loves me to death. i'll be taken care of no matter what. i'll probably be living better financially than any of my friends down here (after his training pay for about a year, and then a few years after that, he'll be in the triple digits). he is a good person and my parents love him. we get along great, he makes me laugh, and i'm totally attracted to him.
those are all the things ppl look for right? am i missing something?
maybe i can convince him to learn guitar and to move somewhere where theres snow? those 2 things are at the top of my wish list. he played sax in high school, but that was ages ago, and as far as moving, i think he'll want to stay down here for a while. he knows too many ppl and has too many close friends down here.
maybe thats a top reason why i should leave for 2 years and go to school somewhere. a) it'd let me live somewhere with snow and b) it'll test out my relationship. i'm a junior already and it sucks that i have nothing to my name. i havent applied myself to any major since that SLP is a program, so technically i'm already going to graduate a year late, thats if i get it, which i'm almost sure i wont.
i wonder if it snows where TCU is at?
so hopefully i get my stats exam grade today.
i have a huge exam next monday. i'm missing 25% of the material >.<
i made a killer breakfast: 2 eggs w/ salsita, beans, and bacon. yum!
ohhhh my tivo comes in today!!!!!
i have to poop :[
<3