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I am starting this new journal, and it is friends only. However, I want to get somethings out to begin with. This is my space, I wish to be able to speak my mind to my friends. I don't appreciate being spied on, stalked or watched by people who have not been expressly given permission.
Journal Entry from 1-17-05
I have a rant I need to make public.
My journal is friends only for a reason. If you don't like my reasoning, I do apologize. However, I let my guard down here, I let my thoughts flow freely. For these reasons, I feel that this space should be guarded. While some of you may never uderstand why I allow others to read my intamate thoughts, you must know that they are some what guarded. This has been done to protect myself. I don't care to have people snooping through my life who are indeed univited intruders.
Almost all my friends here on LJ, I know in real life, and talk to as well as spend time with. However, I currently feel betrayed by one who I thought I could call a friend. While I don't want to hurt anyone, I can't deal with this. This is childish, immature, devious, and reprehensible.
Lets step back a minute. Friends, that is who I thought I allowed to read this part of my life. Friends are people who care about you. Make you feel good, and don't intentionally do things to hurt one another. Friends don't cause un-needed drama to other friends, tourment each other about relationships, or get jealous over stupid shit. They don't tell people who they can be friends with and who they shouldn't.
I try really hard not to do these things. I try not to talk about private conversations in my journal. However, if I slip you must understand I am human. I make mistakes, but I try hard not to betray the people I care about. I just hate drama, and I can't handle the feeling of being stabbed in the back that I am currently dealing with. I feel truly betrayed. What makes it worse though is I thought I could call this person a friend.
I hope that all involved know that I am talking about them. The reason I know, should not matter just that I know. No one should be angry with anyone else, except yourselves for stooping to this level, and lacking respect for those you care about. I don't want to know why you did this. I don't care. I just want to be left alone by all involved.
To those who are in no way involved with this drama, I do apologize. I apologize that you have to hear about this, read this, or in anyway deal with this. I care about all that understand that this is my space. Thank you for being that kind of friend.
I hope that people can learn sometimes it hurts, but you have to go on with your life.
If you read and understand this, have no ill will toward me, and do not wish to add un-needed drama to my life then feel free to comment. I will take all comments under consideration, and you will be added if I see fit. If you are ever removed my friends list, just know that there was a reason. I hope you all have an enjoyable LJ expereince.
Journal Entry from 1-17-05
I have a rant I need to make public.
My journal is friends only for a reason. If you don't like my reasoning, I do apologize. However, I let my guard down here, I let my thoughts flow freely. For these reasons, I feel that this space should be guarded. While some of you may never uderstand why I allow others to read my intamate thoughts, you must know that they are some what guarded. This has been done to protect myself. I don't care to have people snooping through my life who are indeed univited intruders.
Almost all my friends here on LJ, I know in real life, and talk to as well as spend time with. However, I currently feel betrayed by one who I thought I could call a friend. While I don't want to hurt anyone, I can't deal with this. This is childish, immature, devious, and reprehensible.
Lets step back a minute. Friends, that is who I thought I allowed to read this part of my life. Friends are people who care about you. Make you feel good, and don't intentionally do things to hurt one another. Friends don't cause un-needed drama to other friends, tourment each other about relationships, or get jealous over stupid shit. They don't tell people who they can be friends with and who they shouldn't.
I try really hard not to do these things. I try not to talk about private conversations in my journal. However, if I slip you must understand I am human. I make mistakes, but I try hard not to betray the people I care about. I just hate drama, and I can't handle the feeling of being stabbed in the back that I am currently dealing with. I feel truly betrayed. What makes it worse though is I thought I could call this person a friend.
I hope that all involved know that I am talking about them. The reason I know, should not matter just that I know. No one should be angry with anyone else, except yourselves for stooping to this level, and lacking respect for those you care about. I don't want to know why you did this. I don't care. I just want to be left alone by all involved.
To those who are in no way involved with this drama, I do apologize. I apologize that you have to hear about this, read this, or in anyway deal with this. I care about all that understand that this is my space. Thank you for being that kind of friend.
I hope that people can learn sometimes it hurts, but you have to go on with your life.
If you read and understand this, have no ill will toward me, and do not wish to add un-needed drama to my life then feel free to comment. I will take all comments under consideration, and you will be added if I see fit. If you are ever removed my friends list, just know that there was a reason. I hope you all have an enjoyable LJ expereince.