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Well...I haven't actually written anything in a long time, so I am going to shoot. Everything is going pretty well. School is alright. I love my art classes and I am really enjoying them, the other classes...umm...not so much, but I can deal. I feel like I am a pretty happy individual these days, I mean if this was it for me in life, then I could most certainly cope. The problem is I have this sense of hollowness that is always with me. No matter what I do, I can not shake it. I feel like I know why it is there, but it is for a reason that can not be fixed overnight. It is just not an easy fix because it doesn't depend on me because God knows if it did, I would evict the hollowness as soon as I could. Sometimes I just wish I was a little braver and maybe a little more blunt. I have realized that I have a huge fear of rejection. I only go for the sure thing. I feel like this will never lead me to where I want to go in my life. I also can not stand to hurt people. I never want to have to make a choice that may do this. I know I have in the past. As I grow older I learn that I am not the strong person that I once thought I was. I need to learn when to speak my mind. I feel like I have matured enough to the point where I deserve what it is that I want. I learned from my past mistakes and I will never make the same mistakes again. I just can't...I won't.
If parts of this are vague, they are meant to be...
If parts of this are vague, they are meant to be...