Sometimes one has to sit back and say to oneself, "How the fuck did I get here?" Although I am not the poster boy for Christian goodness I think I have lived a good life. I may not reach my hand out to every person on the street and offer my love but I have those that I love, who are close to me, and know that they receive everything that I have to give. If I have, in theory, led a good life aren't I entitled to a little love and stability in my own life? Now perhaps I do have that love but stability certainly not. So now I have to look at my life and wonder why that is. The half eaten English muffin is harmless enough as it sits on my plate, the half scribbled lyrics in notebooks filled with half thoughts, half paying attention to my half thoughts playing in my half of a brain I feel I have. Then it dawns on me. I don't have to think anything through. No one else seems to either anymore and instead just do what seems right to them in the moment. My focus shifted to the TV where I watched my favorite actor of all time Keanu Reeves in the Matrix, and just like that I decided that I TOO am living in the Matrix. It's clearly the only explanation for all of this. Someone out there clearly finds it amusing to turn my reality upside down in a matter of moments. I can hear them now, "Won't it be funny to watch him see his future go out the window. ahaha maybe we'll have him tour around with the fucking Dali Lama in a tour bus. Won't that be a hoot!?" Having realized all of this now I feel more content. I don't have to do a damn thing anymore because it's all going to happen anyway.
materialistic agnosticism
Stating simply that nothing outside of one's own thoughts can be absolutely proven to exist; it may all simply be the illusion/imagination/whatever of the thinker.
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a) "I am a convinced solipsist and believer in solipsism - only I do really exist."
or :
b) "Although I am not a thoroughly convinced solipsist I am aware that my website constitutes an actual rare phenomen of existing solipsism, i.e., I am aware that NO ONE will ever take care or even notice me and my page; therefore, I put it up for solipsistic, self-indulging purposes only."
common result to both a) and b):
c) "It is therefore a logic deduction that I do not - can not - care for web popularity of my page. I do not - can not - care for your criticism, comment, witticism or even praise of my pages. If you would exist, I might tell you to go to hell. Sadly enough, though, you, the spotter of this ribbon, are only a projection of my imagination and do not really exist."