I need to reconcile...

[matchbook_rmnce]

So its been quite a while. dont be upset. i've been pretty sick. my dad had bronchitis and he was coughin all over the place and where he was sleeping (my mom kicked him out of the room til he got better hahaha) i went and sat and watched TV and i touched the controller and i think thats how i got sick, because he was hackin' a lung all over the place. well, latley i've been writing and trying to get over mike in a very unsucessful way. I think he'll always have part of me, just like adam. But i tried to give my all to mike, and i guess i felt like i wasn't good enough for him. and my feelings stopped. oh well things happen, thats growing up. i mean, even he said it..its not like we're going to be together forever.

well here's a piece i wrote...

i am benevolant to your kiss
weak to your stare
i only seem to focus when you're around
and suffocate when you're not there.
so stay around me, please
for this moment is forever appealed
take me in your arms and show me
that i have nothing left to lose
holding onto you.
abolish all you feel and see
just reach for the stars
because there you'll see me.
you're my sun, my moon, my existance
be with me this moment longer
fufill every need i've ever dreamt
then leave me empty and lost
without a cause
nothing more
trace this thought
back to your face
your feel
your touch
my everything.

good/bad?? i dunno either. ha. well i think i should go and try to do some reading for history class. cya later.

-ashLEEEEEY