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So this is the first post in forever, and I just needed to get a lot of stuff off my chest. I hate the fact that I've been blinded for almost a year because I wanted to make someone happy. It took a lot of courage to accept things that I do as a habit that are wrong. I'm not Blaming it on my feelings I'm blaming it on people that are fucking heartless and think they can get their way all the time... not this time god dammit! It won't happen anymore I fucking guarantee it!
I had a little talk with someone i care about sooooo much and I love her! Yes I'm talking about Sarah! She's made me realize that I've been pushed around! and you know what? all the talking behind my back has to fucking stop. All the Lying and bullshit has got to fucking stop! I just realized that I've been lied to by Ashley for the longest fucking time through a lot of fucking resources. Not going to put up with that shit anymore. I've been put through way too much pain to deal with. I've been fucking brainwashed by her and I'm ready to fucking break out of my shell and do whatever the fuck i want to!
OH!! And it pisses me off how I'm still doing it, you know what I'm not going to be a little pussy any more! I'm going to fucking grow some balls and speak whats on my fucking mind. Starting in the order from most important to the least:
1) I know I'm going to be happier then i was with you Ashley.
2) I love Sarah so much and you know what? So far I've learned a hell of a lot more with her than I have with you.
3) I don't need fucking substances to make me happy! And i did it for myself
4) You are a fucking hypocrite about how you hate people who do drugs etc. but now you've become what you hate the most... how does it feel?
5) I fucking hate talking about people behind their backs and don't have the fucking courage to stand up and say it in front of their face!
6) I'm getting more and more pissed off just making this fucking list!
7) I hate hearing about how much you've done for me and didn't realize what I've done for you, you selfish bitch!
8) I hope you're reading this Ashley so you can go tell all your friends at work.
9) and the rest I'd fucking enjoy telling you in person!
Can't wait till you get your drugs so you can confront me! And this time.... I'm going to fucking do the talking and you're going to fucking listen to what I have to say! Let me just say this to you Ashley Hale, if you don't like me now, You're going to fucking despize me after I talk to you. Before we talk though , maybe you should think about what you did to me and take it like you should.
I had a little talk with someone i care about sooooo much and I love her! Yes I'm talking about Sarah! She's made me realize that I've been pushed around! and you know what? all the talking behind my back has to fucking stop. All the Lying and bullshit has got to fucking stop! I just realized that I've been lied to by Ashley for the longest fucking time through a lot of fucking resources. Not going to put up with that shit anymore. I've been put through way too much pain to deal with. I've been fucking brainwashed by her and I'm ready to fucking break out of my shell and do whatever the fuck i want to!
OH!! And it pisses me off how I'm still doing it, you know what I'm not going to be a little pussy any more! I'm going to fucking grow some balls and speak whats on my fucking mind. Starting in the order from most important to the least:
1) I know I'm going to be happier then i was with you Ashley.
2) I love Sarah so much and you know what? So far I've learned a hell of a lot more with her than I have with you.
3) I don't need fucking substances to make me happy! And i did it for myself
4) You are a fucking hypocrite about how you hate people who do drugs etc. but now you've become what you hate the most... how does it feel?
5) I fucking hate talking about people behind their backs and don't have the fucking courage to stand up and say it in front of their face!
6) I'm getting more and more pissed off just making this fucking list!
7) I hate hearing about how much you've done for me and didn't realize what I've done for you, you selfish bitch!
8) I hope you're reading this Ashley so you can go tell all your friends at work.
9) and the rest I'd fucking enjoy telling you in person!
Can't wait till you get your drugs so you can confront me! And this time.... I'm going to fucking do the talking and you're going to fucking listen to what I have to say! Let me just say this to you Ashley Hale, if you don't like me now, You're going to fucking despize me after I talk to you. Before we talk though , maybe you should think about what you did to me and take it like you should.