"ism's in my opinion are not good. one should beleive in themselves"
as school inches closer, i want to hide more and more. i get stressed out even if i don't have to do anything. ehhh, sick. i want it to be sunny out. it was so nice when it was....oh well. mail is here. maybe we got some new netflix movies. nope, got a letter from a best friend i haven't talked to in a year or more. it's nice to know i still have amazing friendships no matter what this distance or how much we talk. it's weird how things change. me and someone were talking about how we don't really want to conform to that change, but i'd like to think of it as just letting things go to my past. it's hard to let things go. i tend to want to hold on until they change back. i hate that about me. going to work.... i don't like going to work so much because i'm a pretty shitty employee. i'm sick too much. i like working though, i just feel guilty. life is weird..... and horrible, and dissapointing, and great.