organs are more trouble for me these days than they are help…
he said i was amazing, beautiful, and made him happy when he could see my face, even just in his mind. and had sex with another girl that night. it's ridiculous how absent minded people are. i saw closer before that, and wished not to believe love could be like that. but through repetitive occurrences of shit like this happening, i'm not surprised people are so bitter. i've been working hard and not becoming so bitter, but it's been hard. i keep thinking everyone's different and you have to give people a chance, but so many people are good at using words in different ways to try to make you feel good about yourself at that moment. i don't really know what to say about this anymore. i feel like someone has scrapped my insides from my mouth like a pumpkin. and i can't get the seeds out from in between my teeth. what a disgusting taste.