Becoming a slave
In response to a question posed to me by , in which he asked. "How didyou first become a slave and how you got interested in being a slave" I have written my answer
"A slave girl is not permitted to conceal anything from her master. She is his. She must be completely open to him, in all ways, and at all times."
Page 84 - Hunters of Gor
My introduction to life as a slave and thus to who I was, came by realization of that fact. I have always been submissive and upon reflecting upon my life, if I had known of the lifestyle when I was younger, I would probably have not made the mistakes that I did. I have always been submissive in nature, raised to believe that the man of the house was the dominant part of the family. His word was law, and a good wife/or children were always submissive to his role as leader of the household. Which I discovered down the road, was in conjunction with the beliefs presented when I first entered the Gorean lifestyle. The Gorean philosophy is about the natural order, the inherent differences between the sexes and the decay of those two things in modern society. Slavery, free women, companionships, ect are all just customs and rituals based on the philosophy. A Gorean man can live a life without women involved at all and still "live a true Gorean
philosophy".All women, as a whole, are inherently submissive to men, some become owned and some are pledged as companions to their partners.
It was simply by chance that I discovered the world of Gor through a chat system and observed those first few days. It drew me in, it made sense and I began to relate to the beliefs which I saw placed before me. I sought more knowledge, which is my nature, and began to read, to study and to ponder what I was learning. I began to feel those missing puzzle pieces, which had been missing so much in my life, slowly being put into place. I soon met a man that began to guide me through my learning, answering my many questions and sharing my joy and also sometimes, my frustrations. That man remains my mentor today, Master Jim. And I will forever be grateful for his guidance on this journey as a slave.
And so my journey continued on, and I sought out all the information that I could possibly find. Spending hours upon hours reading, talking to others and learning. I was first claimed as a slave by a man named Bill, it was a short lived collar, my first and I soon learned about honesty and my need for such, through him. He was married and sought to conceal the Master/slave relationship from his wife. Secondly, I was claimed by Jeff, a harsh Master that lacked control over his own emotions. My second lesson being, that one cannot Master another until they have mastered themselves. I was with him for a good amount of time and went through many things, but also learned alot. I learned about BDSM and the M/s relationship, I learned that I was entitled to my feelings, that in fact, they were a cherished part of a slave. I also learned that it was my responsibility to see that those emotions did not manifest in a way that would be displeasing. I learned communication and how to speak respectfully to a Dominant, whether male or female.
The next Master which came into my life was Iceman. We had began our relationship as friends and it grew to much much more. Iceman claimed me as his own and I would spend the next four and a half years in his service and home. At first, things were good and he was very knowledgeable about some aspects of the lifestyle which I had not previously learned. I learned about love and being in love from him, I also learned heartache. I learned happiness and sadness, and I learned that trust and honesty are the most important aspects of a M/s relationship. I also learned about being poly and enjoyed many aspects of that way of life. Through others, by his direction, I learned about my likes, dislikes, limits, and sisterhood between slaves within the lifestyle. I also learned that it was nearly impossible to have a M/s poly relationship when one factor of the triad was not a part of the belief system and disruptive to the learning process. It was not only through my owners that my learning experiences stemmed, it was through friendships within the lifestyle. I learned true slavery from willo, I learned the beauty of what I could become. I learned different experiences at the hands of Master Snakeman, Artic Tundra, Miracle Max, and many others. I learned about true poly relationships through examples set before me. I learned about the rainbow of different people within the lifestyle, Tops, Bottoms, Switches, Dominants, Slaves, Masters and Slaves. I explored myself and my own heart and knew what my place within such a lifestyle would become. Thus, coming full circle to my own beliefs in male dominance and natural order..
I took with me the lessons that I had learned, the knowledge that I had gained and my own personal growth within the lifestyle and as a slave. I knew more about myself than I ever had before, I was more confident and knew what I needed in a Master. I was more secure in myself and my beliefs and applied this to my daily way of life. My hunger for knowledge and learning will remain with me for the remainder of my days. Which draws me onto my current path with Master Agerath.
Friends, we had met some years back within the circle of friends which I came to know upon Paltalk. I honestly believe that five years ago, Master probably wouldn't have given me a second look, I had alot of growing to do, alot of maturing as a slave. To be a slave is to give yourself to a life of servitude and obedience. I see slavery as a mental emotional ownership, that in a slave's heart, the need to be pleasing and to serve overcomes any other need within her life, aside from the basics, food, water, air.. I am not expected to respond logically to his every command. However Master does
expect me to obey him. Not because he is Master and I am slave (to paraphrase) but because I know that by obeying I am pleasing him, and
this brings me pleasure-even if the actual carrying out of the command does
not. This ownership is teaching me patience, thus far. And to pause and take things slowly. The decision to beg a collar is one that is almost completely emotional.
While it does require contemplation and a lot of logical internal debate,
the decision is based upon emotion. It will be down the road, after we have gotten to know each other better and spent sometime together, that the decision will be made whether to take this a further step into a real time ownership. It is a goal for which we are striving and working very hard to accomplish. But, babysteps are being taken, there's much to learn, some to unlearn and so much more growth to be realized.
Many facets of the Gorean philosophy are not so dissimilar from the philosophical belief structures of other cultures. What defines us as Gorean in many ways is the practice of those rituals that are of Gorean origin. That makes the philosophy ours because it defines our particular focus on the philosophical points. Do I believe in the "slave belly"? very much so as I feel it within myself, and strive to become the very best that I can.
In closing, I would like to answer the question presented. "How didyou first become a slave and how you got interested in being a slave" How I first became a slave was through selection and personal choice between myself and my first Master. Interested in being a slave? I would have to say that I have always had a slave's heart and just didn't realize what it was until my belly was filled with the knowledge that I have now.
"A slave girl is not permitted to conceal anything from her master. She is his. She must be completely open to him, in all ways, and at all times."
Page 84 - Hunters of Gor
My introduction to life as a slave and thus to who I was, came by realization of that fact. I have always been submissive and upon reflecting upon my life, if I had known of the lifestyle when I was younger, I would probably have not made the mistakes that I did. I have always been submissive in nature, raised to believe that the man of the house was the dominant part of the family. His word was law, and a good wife/or children were always submissive to his role as leader of the household. Which I discovered down the road, was in conjunction with the beliefs presented when I first entered the Gorean lifestyle. The Gorean philosophy is about the natural order, the inherent differences between the sexes and the decay of those two things in modern society. Slavery, free women, companionships, ect are all just customs and rituals based on the philosophy. A Gorean man can live a life without women involved at all and still "live a true Gorean
philosophy".All women, as a whole, are inherently submissive to men, some become owned and some are pledged as companions to their partners.
It was simply by chance that I discovered the world of Gor through a chat system and observed those first few days. It drew me in, it made sense and I began to relate to the beliefs which I saw placed before me. I sought more knowledge, which is my nature, and began to read, to study and to ponder what I was learning. I began to feel those missing puzzle pieces, which had been missing so much in my life, slowly being put into place. I soon met a man that began to guide me through my learning, answering my many questions and sharing my joy and also sometimes, my frustrations. That man remains my mentor today, Master Jim. And I will forever be grateful for his guidance on this journey as a slave.
And so my journey continued on, and I sought out all the information that I could possibly find. Spending hours upon hours reading, talking to others and learning. I was first claimed as a slave by a man named Bill, it was a short lived collar, my first and I soon learned about honesty and my need for such, through him. He was married and sought to conceal the Master/slave relationship from his wife. Secondly, I was claimed by Jeff, a harsh Master that lacked control over his own emotions. My second lesson being, that one cannot Master another until they have mastered themselves. I was with him for a good amount of time and went through many things, but also learned alot. I learned about BDSM and the M/s relationship, I learned that I was entitled to my feelings, that in fact, they were a cherished part of a slave. I also learned that it was my responsibility to see that those emotions did not manifest in a way that would be displeasing. I learned communication and how to speak respectfully to a Dominant, whether male or female.
The next Master which came into my life was Iceman. We had began our relationship as friends and it grew to much much more. Iceman claimed me as his own and I would spend the next four and a half years in his service and home. At first, things were good and he was very knowledgeable about some aspects of the lifestyle which I had not previously learned. I learned about love and being in love from him, I also learned heartache. I learned happiness and sadness, and I learned that trust and honesty are the most important aspects of a M/s relationship. I also learned about being poly and enjoyed many aspects of that way of life. Through others, by his direction, I learned about my likes, dislikes, limits, and sisterhood between slaves within the lifestyle. I also learned that it was nearly impossible to have a M/s poly relationship when one factor of the triad was not a part of the belief system and disruptive to the learning process. It was not only through my owners that my learning experiences stemmed, it was through friendships within the lifestyle. I learned true slavery from willo, I learned the beauty of what I could become. I learned different experiences at the hands of Master Snakeman, Artic Tundra, Miracle Max, and many others. I learned about true poly relationships through examples set before me. I learned about the rainbow of different people within the lifestyle, Tops, Bottoms, Switches, Dominants, Slaves, Masters and Slaves. I explored myself and my own heart and knew what my place within such a lifestyle would become. Thus, coming full circle to my own beliefs in male dominance and natural order..
I took with me the lessons that I had learned, the knowledge that I had gained and my own personal growth within the lifestyle and as a slave. I knew more about myself than I ever had before, I was more confident and knew what I needed in a Master. I was more secure in myself and my beliefs and applied this to my daily way of life. My hunger for knowledge and learning will remain with me for the remainder of my days. Which draws me onto my current path with Master Agerath.
Friends, we had met some years back within the circle of friends which I came to know upon Paltalk. I honestly believe that five years ago, Master probably wouldn't have given me a second look, I had alot of growing to do, alot of maturing as a slave. To be a slave is to give yourself to a life of servitude and obedience. I see slavery as a mental emotional ownership, that in a slave's heart, the need to be pleasing and to serve overcomes any other need within her life, aside from the basics, food, water, air.. I am not expected to respond logically to his every command. However Master does
expect me to obey him. Not because he is Master and I am slave (to paraphrase) but because I know that by obeying I am pleasing him, and
this brings me pleasure-even if the actual carrying out of the command does
not. This ownership is teaching me patience, thus far. And to pause and take things slowly. The decision to beg a collar is one that is almost completely emotional.
While it does require contemplation and a lot of logical internal debate,
the decision is based upon emotion. It will be down the road, after we have gotten to know each other better and spent sometime together, that the decision will be made whether to take this a further step into a real time ownership. It is a goal for which we are striving and working very hard to accomplish. But, babysteps are being taken, there's much to learn, some to unlearn and so much more growth to be realized.
Many facets of the Gorean philosophy are not so dissimilar from the philosophical belief structures of other cultures. What defines us as Gorean in many ways is the practice of those rituals that are of Gorean origin. That makes the philosophy ours because it defines our particular focus on the philosophical points. Do I believe in the "slave belly"? very much so as I feel it within myself, and strive to become the very best that I can.
In closing, I would like to answer the question presented. "How didyou first become a slave and how you got interested in being a slave" How I first became a slave was through selection and personal choice between myself and my first Master. Interested in being a slave? I would have to say that I have always had a slave's heart and just didn't realize what it was until my belly was filled with the knowledge that I have now.