Woe is Me and Blah, Blah, Blah

Oct 20, 2007 10:35

Don't mind me; I'm just feeling sorry for myself once again.

I have all of these great aspirations in life and things I want to do and own, but for some reason (somehow still unbeknown to me) I can't seem to position myself to accomplish what I want.

My first and constant goal is to live a comfortable life with a few nice possessions. I don't want status symbols, at least not the ones society would lavish praises on me for. I want a nice TV, a nice stereo, the newest gaming system, a good house (not a mansion), and a nice truck. How hard is that to accomplish? Apparently for me very hard. I am stuck in the here and now instead of projecting into the future and setting myself up for where I need to be. Can anyone help with that?

Also, I want to write a book. I consider myself a creative person and I enjoy reading books, so I have had this desire to write a book or series of books. Unfortunately, I have no story I want to tell. I think of all the ideas I have for books and realize that they would be pale imitations of most of my favorites. How do I get past that and just write what I want? How would I get it published? Two people in my family are published authors and I have to admit that I am extremely jealous of them.

Anybody know of a decently well-paying job in the Twin Cities that doesn't require mentally yelling at customers who piss you off? I need something other than retail! I would happily sit at a desk and type information into a computer for eight hours Monday through Friday! Where can I find a job like that that pays well enough for me to pay my bills and still have a little money left over for Lisa? That's the thing that's killing me right now; Lisa pays for nearly everything! What am I supposed to do with that?

You know the thing that is really getting me though? I don't do anything. Get up, eat breakfast, go to work, come home, eat supper, sleep, repeat. This is my life. Apparently when my friends are handed to me and recruited by other people, I don't have any. Maybe there was something to that saying that Greeks buy their friends...

I'm out,





Just plain frustrated...


Birds and wind
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