"Your eyes never close, your mind's not at rest. Lay back, get waterlogged and give us a kiss....
"...Water spreads the small seed...And water kills the tall weed..."
I feel very seperated and alone in this strange, new world I find myself in. I don't let it show on the outside, but I'm very homesick...I know it's not really much of a difference. I was never at home and never around the people that once made my life complete anyways, but it is different now that I'm not even in the same country anymore. I have, however, made two realizations...The first being that the world continues to move without ever missing me. And the second being that I have nowhere to call home anymore. My old life and place in the world is no longer mine. Will I be able to one day make a place for myself there? Or, will I have to wander the world in search of a new place to call home? Find new friends? Find new loves? I imagine that will be the only option at the end of my journey. Too much time has and still will pass for anything to remain the same for me...That scares me very much. To know that I am alone. And that I more than likely will remain that way for many years to come.
I feel very seperated and alone in this strange, new world I find myself in. I don't let it show on the outside, but I'm very homesick...I know it's not really much of a difference. I was never at home and never around the people that once made my life complete anyways, but it is different now that I'm not even in the same country anymore. I have, however, made two realizations...The first being that the world continues to move without ever missing me. And the second being that I have nowhere to call home anymore. My old life and place in the world is no longer mine. Will I be able to one day make a place for myself there? Or, will I have to wander the world in search of a new place to call home? Find new friends? Find new loves? I imagine that will be the only option at the end of my journey. Too much time has and still will pass for anything to remain the same for me...That scares me very much. To know that I am alone. And that I more than likely will remain that way for many years to come.