Oct 17, 2005 19:55
I'm feeling more secure about certain things in school, such as Beauty and the Beast. Katie asked Mr. Seikmann if he's cutting any first violins [I'm a first] and he says he's keeping all firsts. So that takes some stress off my chest. I'm feeling less pessimistic about choir also. I think I was just having a really bad week last week. I feel more positive. But, I've been feeling increasingly nervous lately. I think it's just school bothering me. Over the summer I have no worries and no fears, so I have no anxiety or nervousness problems. But now that I'm back in school it feels like my stomach is constantly in a tight knot and I can't catch my breath. I constantly feel on edge. AAAH.
But, on a more happier note, my 17th birthday is coming soon. Actually, it's NEXT FRIDAY! I have NO IDEA what I'm doing for my birthday, because Katharine and Holly are plotting something. Hmm. I'm curious. Oh so curious. It's so nice having things to look forward too. Such as My B-day, Thanksgiving, Winter Break, Christmas, ect..
And you know what I can't help but to love? Extremely emo music. And I don't necessarily like screamo senses fail, matchbook romance stuff. I mean just... anything that's remotely...I can't explain it. Just stuff like Lovedrug, JamisonParker, Iron and Wine, the early november. I can't help it. Especially The early november. Almost nothing beats that on a chilly, autumn night. Especially if you're driving and you're alone. Thats the best. AHH. What can I say? Somethings will never change.
Ah. Well, thats all.
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