Diet, Psychosis, Creativity and B-day
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So I have finally decided to lose weight and lead a healthier life (again again again). I am so sick and tired of being overweight, because it affects my self esteem PLUS it's harder to do things and I easily get out of breath. Maybe that's the 40 cigarettes a day, but still. It's just annoying that my stomach is in the way sometimes. I freakin' look pregnant! I've tried losing weight before, but I always end up getting ill with something and then everything falls to pieces. This time I really want to succeed.
And in order to succeed I want to get rid of my last dose of Seroquel... I take only 50 mgs a day, but it still increases appetite, lowers metabolism and makes you tired. So... I have texted my case manager about how to do this and such, but as usual she hasn't replied. Tomorrow I'll probably try to call her...
Me and my BF also plan on buying a 10-clip card each for the gym. That's be 1000 DKK in all... But if I lose weight it's money well spent.
Other than that, which isn't good combined with this, is that I think I might be getting a psychosis again... For the last week I have had anxiety and everything just feels weird and 'out-of-place'. I really hope it'll pass and that it doesn't explode into something crazy like last time. I truly hate my diagnosis ('Acute Unspecified Psychosis'), because no onbe knows WHY I suddenly freak, how bad it'll be or for how long... I really hope it will be a small psychosis this time. No doubt that I am psychotic at this very moment, but I know it can be so much worse than this. But also better. Mpppff....
Anyways, I have been painting since I could walk basically, and I've always been doing Dalì-like stuff with loads of detail and in a sinister/gloomy setting. But in the past years I have lost the patience it takes to paint like that - and I have discovered that I can maybe even earn money if I take the 'easy way out'. Sooo... I have started painting small, naïvistic paintings in happy colours and such, and it's actually fun. I hate not being able to finish something in one round, but I can with my new painting style. I have made 4 paintings in my 'Love' series, the first one is sold already and the rest are on www.trendsales.dk, where I sell loads of clothes, shoes and such.
Here are the 4 paintings so far in the 'Love'-series, in chronological order:
Oh, and it's my birthday this Friday! Man, I'll turn 28... Time truly flies. I so feel like a 16-year old, but my body just keeps aging! Stupid thing... ehe....
We'll probably go out for sushi and have fun at my mom's place. 'WE' are me, my mom, my little brother and my BF. It'll be fun, hopefully, even though the weather is going to suck according the the forecasts. Mmm... It sucks getting older. I think I'll be one of those women who cries wehn they turn 30. Yikes...
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So I have finally decided to lose weight and lead a healthier life (again again again). I am so sick and tired of being overweight, because it affects my self esteem PLUS it's harder to do things and I easily get out of breath. Maybe that's the 40 cigarettes a day, but still. It's just annoying that my stomach is in the way sometimes. I freakin' look pregnant! I've tried losing weight before, but I always end up getting ill with something and then everything falls to pieces. This time I really want to succeed.
And in order to succeed I want to get rid of my last dose of Seroquel... I take only 50 mgs a day, but it still increases appetite, lowers metabolism and makes you tired. So... I have texted my case manager about how to do this and such, but as usual she hasn't replied. Tomorrow I'll probably try to call her...
Me and my BF also plan on buying a 10-clip card each for the gym. That's be 1000 DKK in all... But if I lose weight it's money well spent.
Other than that, which isn't good combined with this, is that I think I might be getting a psychosis again... For the last week I have had anxiety and everything just feels weird and 'out-of-place'. I really hope it'll pass and that it doesn't explode into something crazy like last time. I truly hate my diagnosis ('Acute Unspecified Psychosis'), because no onbe knows WHY I suddenly freak, how bad it'll be or for how long... I really hope it will be a small psychosis this time. No doubt that I am psychotic at this very moment, but I know it can be so much worse than this. But also better. Mpppff....
Anyways, I have been painting since I could walk basically, and I've always been doing Dalì-like stuff with loads of detail and in a sinister/gloomy setting. But in the past years I have lost the patience it takes to paint like that - and I have discovered that I can maybe even earn money if I take the 'easy way out'. Sooo... I have started painting small, naïvistic paintings in happy colours and such, and it's actually fun. I hate not being able to finish something in one round, but I can with my new painting style. I have made 4 paintings in my 'Love' series, the first one is sold already and the rest are on www.trendsales.dk, where I sell loads of clothes, shoes and such.
Here are the 4 paintings so far in the 'Love'-series, in chronological order:
Oh, and it's my birthday this Friday! Man, I'll turn 28... Time truly flies. I so feel like a 16-year old, but my body just keeps aging! Stupid thing... ehe....
We'll probably go out for sushi and have fun at my mom's place. 'WE' are me, my mom, my little brother and my BF. It'll be fun, hopefully, even though the weather is going to suck according the the forecasts. Mmm... It sucks getting older. I think I'll be one of those women who cries wehn they turn 30. Yikes...
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