PSYCHOSIS
Well... I am back. I was bored and found this journal on Google by accident, hehe.
Six years has passed and a lot has happened. I am no longer diagnosed with Schizophrenia - that turned out to be a mistake from the psychiatric system... Instead I have the new diagnosis called "Acute Unspecified Psychosis". What kind of crap diagnosis is that?! In other words, they don't know what the hell is wrong with me, basically. No research on that area. Yay... But at least the medcine I take was the right one, phew....
Here's a list of what I take per day, just for fun:
30 mg Cipralex
15 mg Abilify
50 mg Seroquel
0,87 mg Rivotril
15 mg Lansoprazol
Yeah... But I've cut down loads lately. The fog seems to be leaving a bit, allowing my brain to function a little better.
But now I've run into some psychological trouble. I'm about to move to a new place (have been living in a support place with daily personnel and all, protected and structured surroundings). But they don't really want me here anymore, so I have to move out on my own, which sucks. And my mom will maybe move far away... Plus I might need surgery and I have pretty bad sleep-apnea. Or what the hell it's called - so that needs to be checked too. Plus I'm without a psychistrist at the moment. Plus a new psychosis has hit me hard... I hate it, I really do.
It's like my foundation has been ripped apart... I don't even know who I am anymore, and frankly - I no longer care. I just exist. I feel let down and abandoned... But what the heck. May it float my boat or sink it, I really don't give a damn. I'm tired...
